Part Ten : I'm Sorry
Kagome broke the kiss suddenly, and looked away with a deep blush on her face.
'Omigod... I just...' She was breathing heavily, and found herself unable to look at him.
Inuyasha was looking at her with shock, mixed with what could have been interpreted as hurt. She had just kissed him. She had been the one to move in. It wasn't as if he minded it. He wanted her to. He wanted more; to feel her soft lips against his own again. He wanted her to caress his face ever so gently. There was so much he wanted he couldn't even put them into straight thougts. But, in the end, Kagome pulled away. Looked away. Almost as if ashamed of her actions.
He couldn't help but question if it was because he was a hanyou. It was always because of that.
"Inu... Inuyasha..." she called out to him quietly. He almost couldn't make out his own name, and looked at her curiously. "I wanted you to know that... I really meant what I said. I do... I love you... More than I've ever loved anyone else."
He looked at her with wide eyes, wanting to hold her, to pull her close to his body annd never let go. But something deep inside - fear - wouldn't allow him near her. If he let her mean that much to him, if he let her know, would that put her in even more danger? Would she be hurt? Would she be killed? The dangers were endless; the possibilities were unheard of. He didn't want anything to happen to her. He lost Kikyo, he didn't want to lose someone else like that.
"I... Kagome... I'm sorry, but I don't..." He winced, already regretting the words he was about to speak. He turned away, unable to face her tearfilled eyes. "I don't feel the same way that you do, Kagome."
There was a sharp pain in his heart and he was sure he could hear himself whimper loudly. He felt like he was dying slowly deep down inside, and he could hear her sobbing softly, trying to choke them back.
"I..." For the life of him, he didn't know what she was trying to tell him. Probably that he was a jerk and that she shouldn't have told him. "SIT!"
He slammed into the ground, hard, and left himself remain still. He heard her feet slamming against the ground as she ran away. She probably didn't even know where she was or where she was going, but to be near him would only create them both more pain. He understood that.
He waited until he couldn't hear her footsteps or her sobs, but he could still hear catch her scent on the wind. She was far enough away that he could sit up and not let her hear him...
"Kag-Kagome... Gomen-ne..." he whimpered, not bothering to hide his tears as he sat there, in the hole that his body had created upon impact. Tears streamed down his cheeks and he howled in anguish. 'I'm so sorry, Kagome...'