Alone

I know it may be selfish
To only think of me
But I think I deserve it
With all my suffering

At first I was an orphan
Alone in the world
A family that hated me
A home not really my own

But a giant helped me escape
Showed me a world of magic
A place that's really home
And I am not alone
A place where I have friends
A place I'm not alone

My fame was out to get me
No matter how much I tried
I hid but it always found me
Under a new disguise

I met my mortal enemy
A man that broke my life
He tore all I had open
Leaving a humongous hole inside

And when I accepted what I truly had
Falsely accused was I
Of a deed in which I
Had no hand

After clearing my good name
A godfather I gained
But lost him just as quick
And of injustice I learned

And then again as acceptance overcame me
I was accused
of entering a deadly tournament

Instead of help from all my friends
I found remorse and regret
But when all fixed in halls of friendship
evil swept me away again

Into a graveyard of the dead
with a possible friend
But as would fate have it
The growing friendship is killed
By him who betrayed my family
And his master who cursed my self

My mortal enemy revived and dueled me in glee
But I was saved by a core and echo of my family
I ran and left with Ceddric's corps
In covered beats of sweat

Then I retold my story
But as mad I was referred
Tired and alone I left back to a place
in which only comfort that I found
laid in hands of my friends

And even with them by my side
With their comforting hands
I feel all empty and alone
Alone, empty and dead

As I returned alert I was
To all the pointing whispers
My anger at boiling point
My name as good as mud

I was awoken by a nightmare
Seen through dark eyes
And with this awful circumstance
Possessed I thought I was

Even with lessons of protection one vision I had
Arose horror and angry fright
For one I loved immense

I ran to aid him with my friends and yet he was not there
A trap it was from the twisted mind
Of dark wizard at hand

Fear for godfather
Turned into fear for friends
Who for friendship's sake
Had risked their loyal necks

When all hopes were almost gone a ray of spirit shined
Dumbledore and his order came to our aid
But in the midst of battle an action caught my eye
It was my godfather falling dead at hand of his cousin

After a battle that left blood cold
Tears, possessions and sweat
I stood in headmasters office
Disbelief overflowing my soul

As he entered and tried to explain
I closed my mind and screamed
I threw all things across the room
Devastated and ashamed

Least did I know
The worst was yet to come
A prophecy that explained my life to include
A murder of the darkest lord or death at his hands

With my friends I wanted privacy
With privacy I wanted friends
Slapped by cruel reality
I cried because he's dead

And when all tears were dried out
I came to realize that
The truth has, is and will be
I am always alone.