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8. Fear
He stood in the doorway into her room and tried to remember her, but each time he only found the darkness. Why couldn't he remember this girl? Why did the darkness always stop him? He could feel, that she meant a lot to him, but still he couldn't place her. Each time he felt, that he was getting close it then quickly slipped back into the darkness.
He was just about to walk over to her, when something inside him made him turn around and walk back to Rogue. He went over to the bed, where Gambit(Rogue) still laid unconscious after the touch, and sat down on the chair next to it, as her memories flashed through his head. It helped him to understand her better, but still it was just small bits. Scattered memories, which didn't make any sense, but still it helped him. Just the fact of knowing, that she each time went through this, which had been just such a simple touch.
"Remy?"
He looked up and saw, that the woman was standing in the doorway. She for a second was surrounded by strong white light, which almost blinded him, but then it began fade and disappeared.
"You can't remember me?"
He shook his head, as she came over to him and took his hand.
"Don't be afraid. Try to think back."
He closed his eyes and tried to think. First he was afraid of meeting the darkness again, but then he discovered that it was gone.
"Neria!"
She smiled.
"See, you had the answer in you the whole time."
"But what has happened to you?"
She pulled away from him and turned her back towards.
"I'm going to die. Very soon I'm so weak, that I can't use my powers anymore to keep my body alive, but I couldn't just leave you like this."
He walked over to her and lay hand on her shoulder.
"Don't talk like that, chere! There is still time. The Professor can help you."
She shook her head.
"He can't help me anymore, but I still don't regret coming. Tell Talia that you have fulfilled her assignment."
He turned her around.
"But that is not important anymore. I want to help you!"
She looked up.
"I know. Remember, that I now have been inside you head twice."
"Then you also know, that I love a challenge."
She caressed his cheek for a second.
"Can you see it? You have already helped me enough. I'm free – both in body and mind. You helped me out of my prison and showed me how life could be, which I forever will be grateful for. That is why it's now my turn to helped you."
She gently pushed him away and walked over to the bed, where brushed the hair away from Gambit(Rogue)'s forehead.
"Did you know, that she loves you more that life itself, which is a very rare thing in this world?"
He shook his head in despair.
"What does that help, when the man, that she loves, isn't real, but built up like a house of cards, which only need a breath of air to fall apart."
Neria smiled.
"I think you should give her more credit. Her heart has seen past that a long time ago."
He shrugged his shoulders.
"Maybe and maybe not. I'm not willing to take that chance."
"You can't forever run away from your past. Tell her and get it over."
He walked over to the window as his thoughts wandered away in time.
"I tell her, I lose her."
"If you don't tell her, then you never really have her to lose."
He quickly turned around.
"Did you just come here to lecture me?"
She shook her head.
"I know, how it is to be used. Remember what my powers have done. Remember why you wanted to kill me."
He walked over to her and laid a hand on her shoulder.
"That's not the same. You are just a kid!"
She looked him directly into his eyes.
"Wasn't you also "just a kid"?"
She hadn't even said the last word, before she cried out and felt down on her knees.
"Neria!"
Rogue(Gambit) rushed over to support her as the pain rushed through her body. She tried to send him a grateful look, but the pain was just too big. After some minuets it went a way and she was able to stand up.
"My body… I can't stay like this. I have to do it now, or it will be too late!"
She took his hand and led him over to the bed, where she took Gambit(Rogue)'s hand.
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Xavier woke up with a jerk. There was that feeling again. Could it be? He quickly got out of the bed and hastily drove out of his room as he tried to find the feeling again, but it was gone. He was almost at the door into Neria's room, when he suddenly heard someone behind him. He quickly turned the wheelchair around.
"Who is there?"
The person stepped into the moonlight, which came through the window, and he recognized her at once.
"Gambit, what are you doing?"
The confusion was writing all over her face.
"Gambit?"
She looked down at herself and discovered, that she was looking at her own body.
"It's my own body! We have switch back!"
She smiled and looked up on Xavier.
"It's me Professor - Rogue!"