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"A pack of cigarettes and three meat buns please." Goku requested from the store owner.

The store owner put the items on the desk and briefly asks for the payment. Staring at Goku, the store owner crinkled his eyebrows and looked curiously.

"What's a young kid like you smoking for?" The store owner asked with his eyebrow arched.

"It's not for me! It's for my owner!" Goku said happily and smiled as he took the items and placed the money on the table.

As Goku left, the store owner pondered to himself in wonder. His owner..?

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"Hey! You bought meat buns! Give me!" Gojyo insisted as he tried to snatch the meat bun from Goku.

"Get your hands off! These are for Sanzo!" Goku retorted.

"Yada Yada… Everything you do is for Sanzo! Don't you ever think about yourself?" Gojyo scolded.

"Gojyo… That isn't a very pleasant thing to say." Hakkai commented.

"Cheh. Like the little monkey knows what I'm talking about." Gojyo responded.

"WHO'S A MONKEY!??! YOU BETTER TAKE THAT BACK YOU HORNY WATER DEMON!!!" Goku shouted as he punched Gojyo at his chest lightly.

Gojyo and Hakkai both laughed as Goku ran off to Sanzo's room. Perhaps things will resume to normal sooner or later.

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Goku opened Sanzo's room door and walked in. He was afraid that Sanzo would shut him off again like previously, but still he walked on and tapped Sanzo on his shoulder.

"Sanzo, I got you some cigarettes and meat buns. I know you're hungry." Goku said.

Sanzo was staring out the window, pondering about what he had just thought about. Maybe he shouldn't treat Goku this way, but he wasn't in the mood to be nice either.

"Leave it on the table, Goku." Sanzo replied.

Goku was stunned that Sanzo didn't ask him to shut up or get out.

"Err… O-Okay, Sanzo." Goku said and left the items on the table.

Walking out of the door, Goku entered his own room. He thought about Sanzo's attitude towards him. Why was Sanzo always so cold?

"Maybe he hates me. He finds me annoying." Goku's inner voice said.

"No! That's not true! Sanzo's just in a bad mood because of the rain and you know it!" The other voice argued.

"Then why does he treat me like that all the time? Even when it's not raining? Why do I want to do so much for him just to cheer him up?"

"You know Sanzo doesn't mean it. He just doesn't show his feelings. You care for him. You care for him…"

"Why should I care for him when he doesn't care about me?"

"Because you love him. He's your sun, the one that saved you from all loneliness and despair. You called out to him. Deep down you called out to someone to save you."

"Did I? Did I call out to anyone? No one could possibly hear me… He found me by coincidence."

"You called out to him. Your heart and minds connected. You were meant to find each other. Nothing's impossible. Your sun, your light. The one that saved you from all darkness."

"I'm a burden to him… I'm a burden to Sanzo. He doesn't want me around. He finds me irritating, no matter what I do for him."

"Everyone carries some burdens, but Sanzo's burden is definitely not you."

Goku's thoughts led him thinking to somewhere else, somewhere he would never want to return to ever again.

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In the cave where Goku was trapped in the past…

"Why am I all alone? What have I done wrong to deserve this? Am I born this way?"

"You can't find an answer now. You don't want to be alone anymore. You don't want to be trapped in this darkness."

"How? Tell me how to escape from all this loneliness. I can't break free. No one will save me."

"Call out to someone… Call out to someone with all your heart. It doesn't matter who that person is. You know there's someone out there who will reach out his hand to you one day and show you the light."

"Who? Who will I turn to? I don't know anybody. I'm alone. I want to fly away from this entangled void in my heart. Every night I search for the broken pieces in my heart. How am I supposed to break free? No matter how hard I shout for someone to save me, nobody comes."

"Just believe… Believe and someday, you will find your happiness, your freedom. No matter how long the wait is, just believe."

"I want to be like those birds, flying high and free. I don't want to be trapped here in this cave!!!"

"Your heart will lead you the way."

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"I can't give up. I need to move forward. I must let Sanzo know how I feel." Goku said to himself after pondering much.

Goku stood up and walked back to Sanzo's room. At first he was hesitant about going in, but somehow his mind pushed him to do it.

"What do you want?" Sanzo asked irritably.

"S-Sanzo, I need to talk to you. I need to tell you how I feel." Goku stammered.

"Talk," Sanzo said commandingly, still facing the window.

"I-I don't know if you care about me, or hate me, but Sanzo, I want you to know that ever since you saved me from that cave, I've been eternally grateful to you. I just want to know why you treat me this way, Sanzo. I'm losing myself. I can't take this anymore!" Goku cried.

"What? Has Goku gone insane? Why are all these words coming out of his mouth? Or has he matured overnight?" Sanzo thought in his head.

"I didn't save you, monkey. You were so irritating I had to get you out to stop the voice in my head. If I had a chance, I'll shoot you silly." Sanzo replied.

"T-Then shoot me, Sanzo, if that will make you feel better. Shoot me right in the head, so I'll never have to think ever again." Goku said.

"BAKASAN! Don't you get it?!" Sanzo shouted as he stood up from the chair and faced Goku.

Goku stared back timidly at Sanzo as Sanzo walked towards him. Tears welled up in Goku's eyes as Sanzo stood before him.

"I-I just want to let you know that I care, Sanzo. You're my sun; you saved me from that darkness. With you around, I feel that I have something to reach out to. I know that I can move on with my life without fail, now that I have you in my life. I-I just want to know why you treat me this way. Do you hate me, Sanzo?" Goku questioned.

Sanzo sighed and lit up a cigarette. After a few puffs, he looked down on Goku and gave a slight, very slight smile. Placing his hand on Goku's head, Goku looked up with joy.

"Don't get any wrong ideas, bakasan!" Sanzo yelled as he took a paper fan out and smacked Goku on his head.

"S-Sanzo…" Goku stuttered.

Sanzo looked away and continued smoking his cigarette. He didn't know what to say to Goku.

"Look, monkey, I care about you. I just want to be alone sometimes, you know? And I hate rainy days. So leave me alone then. And do I treat you very badly? You should be glad that I let you use my credit card on food!" Sanzo retorted.

Goku looked down on the floor and grabbed his tummy. He didn't know what else to say, except smile to himself. He was glad that Sanzo cared about him. That was all the words he needed to hear. At least he was important to someone.

"S-Sanzo… I'm hungry. Will you buy me a meat bun?" Goku asked.

Sanzo walked out of the room and waited for Goku to follow him.

"I thought you were hungry? Let's go. I'll buy you the meat bun when we get to town." Sanzo said with a slight curve on his lips.

"YAY!!! Meat bun!!!" Goku shouted in anticipation as he bounced out of the door.

"Silly monkey," Sanzo scolded as they walked down the hall.

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End of chapter.

It took me two days to write this cos' I didn't really have any inspiration. I think this is quite bad though. I don't knowif I should continue anymore chapters on this.Argh!Review me and tell me please! I'll try better next time.However I'll write a proper story about Saiyuki when I get the inspiration. :S Reviews please?