Disclaimers: I do not owe Grissom nor Sara. So don't sue me.
Just a little short something.
Grissom and I toy endlessly with one another.
We have been playing this little game with each other, and this little game have been going on for years and quite literally, so to speak. We tease each other; we invade the other party's personal space as we flirt to no end. There's absolutely no question for either of us to yield, as we try, all the time, to figure out more ways, in where we can play with the other. Every rule applies but one. And that's the only single unwritten rule there has ever been:
There is to be no touching. At all! Shared body heat, yes, is allowed. But no part of your body can touch the other involved party. Wait, that's not true. A hand on the others arm is okay, since we really can't avoid that.
And another thing: He possesses me. Always have possessed me, much to the degree of stupidity nowadays. I can barely function or form a valid sentence properly around him, and he has as the only person in this world, the unlimited control over me. He has as long as I am able to remember. I'll be damned if he'll ever get to know this, since I know he'll be gloating to no end. And I'll be damned if he'll ever get to know, that I want him so bad to be mine, and all mine. I have loved him with all of my human being, with all of the fibers in my entire being, and with that follow the eternal heartache for as long as we have known each other. But it's so freaking difficult being near him, and in love with him, all at the same time.
So why?
Because he simply won't let me anywhere near him. Which sounds crazy, I know, since we share body heat, standing with only one inch between us. No it's not that. What he will never do is to let me into his life. Nor will he ever, I constantly find myself think let me inside the dept of his heart. Only will he let me into that brilliantly clever head of his, and that's only to share his vast knowledge of entomology, forensics science and crime scene solving. I have known him for almost 13 years, loved him for just as long, and I don't even know if he has a middle name. And, I don't even call him by his first name either. I never have for heavens sake! He was first Dr. Grissom, to me, when he was the speaker at the seminar. Then after that he became Mr. Grissom, my teacher and mentor to finally just be Grissom or Griss. My boss. As you can imagine, he's so freaking difficult to deal with and a pain getting to know. But whatever I try to do, he will always fill my entire heart, body, soul and mind. And there's absolutely nothing that I can do, that will make him leave either of them.
I'm in so deep; love him more than anyone in this world and I don't know what to do. Well I do know what to do, but I am so sure that he won't be a participant in this game, that I want him being a player in.
Namely the game called a relationship.
I always love rewievs.