Thanks for the reviews it's my writing fuel. The song lyrics are "Let You Down" by Three Days Grace.

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When Regan woke up she was in the hospital wing. The last thing that she remembered was the pain of the cuts on her wrists. The pain felt so right she had wanted to die, she wanted to be with Rebecca and maybe one day Liam. She awoke to the faces of Sirius, Remus, Dumbledore, and Harry; each of them had a look of concern on his face. Regan looked at her wrists and saw that the cuts were gone, she felt so cheated there weren't even any scars.

There was an uncomfortable silence; it was Sirius who finally spoke up "Why did you do it?"

"Why not?" she replied weakly.

"Regan you can't continue with this self destructive behavior." Chided Dumbledore.

"Why not? It's so much fun." She said sarcastically with her voice still weak.

"Harry leave." Ordered Remus.

"No." Harry said firmly. "I want to stay and help."

"If you want to help then please leave." Remus replied.

"Fine." Harry muttered before storming out of the room. Then only the three older wizards plus Regan remained in the room.

"Who was she?" Asked Remus while holding the picture of the headstone.

"Not tellin." She replied.

"Fine we can do this the hard was." Said Dumbledore. He made a gesture toward Sirius. Who then held her down while Regan tried to struggle while Dumbledore came near her and pulled a vial out of his robe pocket. He uncorked it and poured it down her throat. "Now" he said, "tell us everything from your childhood to when you came here. Then I want you to tell us who Rebecca Hartson is."

"Regan felt compelled to tell the truth, she didn't want to but she knew that they had given her some sort of truth potion. "Fine" she said glaring at them. "I'll tell you."

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Regan stared her story "My life wasn't anything special. I was the youngest of three children, I had an older brother and sister that were a lot older than me but it didn't matter we were close. When I was little my parents got a divorce, my father moved away and I didn't see him very often. My mom had to work a lot but that was ok because I had my siblings. Then when I was ten my sister moved out and we drifted apart because she was so far away. A year later my brother graduated from high school and left to find himself. I was alone for the first time. Then on Valentines Day when I was twelve I was taken." Her voice started to break and tears were threatening to fall. "I was taken by as man who wanted me, he drugged me and when I woke up he was there. He wore a mask and when he came near me, I tried to run. But he stopped me. He hit me and wouldn't stop; I was bleeding and broken before he stopped hitting me then he. He. He. " Regan had broken down into tears before she could finish she sat there and cried.

Remus and Sirius had looks of horror on their faces but Dumbledore looked calm and in a calm voice asked, "then what happened?"

It took Regan a few minutes to calm down but she started he story again in a calmer but quieter voice "He raped me." There was pain in her eyes and tears down her cheeks. "He raped me then left me to die by the side of the road. I remember the last thing that I thought before I blacked out was that I was gonna die. But I didn't die. When I woke up in the hospital and I was told that I was lucky that I was found when I was, that it was a miracle that I was still alive. I was in the hospital for two weeks before I woke up, I had a nasty concussion, cracked jaw, broken nose, a few missing teeth, a couple of cracked ribs, and a broken wrist from when I tried to fight back, oh and hypothermia from when he left me. I felt so ashamed and dirty that someone had done these things without my permission, I felt that some how it was my fault."

"Regan it wasn't your fault." Interrupted Remus, he still had a look of horror on his face.

"I know it wasn't my fault." She said strongly. "But it doesn't stop the feelings that I felt. Anyways I was in the hospital for three more weeks recovering, about two weeks later I started to get sick and throwing up. My mom was worried about me so she took me to the doctors. It turns out that I was seven weeks pregnant. I was scared I didn't know what to do, but the baby was the only thing that kept me sane, I was so depressed about what had happened to me that my baby was the only thing that gave me hope. Shortly thereafter after they found my rapist, he was one of the regular subs at my school that made me feel even more violated because it was someone who I was supposed to be able to trust. As the weeks passed I kept getting sicker and thinner, when I was about three months along I had my first ultrasound and I found out I was having twins. My mom was sort of happy for me, she knew that they were the only thing keeping me alive. My dad on the other hand freaked out he wanted to kill my children as soon as he found out, he disowned me when I told him I was keeping them. Like I said before I was constantly sick through my pregnancy, my doctor told me that I needed to gain more weight but it's hard to gain weight when you can't keep anything down but other than that everything was normal. Then on November 9th I went into labor, they did a C-section and when I came around they told me that my daughter was in the ICU. I stayed with her while Liam slept but shortly after she was born, she died due to underdevelopment.

Liam was the only thing that kept me going if he had died, I would have too. The day after we came home was my daughter's funeral. After that nothing much happened until last year my mom started getting frustrated with me and told me either put Liam up for adoption or move out. I told her fine and asked for two weeks to find somewhere to live. I found an apartment and lived there until Remus came that night." She finished her story with her face tear stained. "Why did you make me tell?" She asked, her eyes held a look of betrayal.

"Regan we're your guardians, we needed to know your past." Remus said gently. "I'm extremely sorry for your loss."

"That's bullshit, you didn't need to know, you wanted to know. Oh and by the way, your pity won't give me back my children. Now will all of you leave, I'm feelin kinda tired.

So Rebecca was your daughter?" Asked Sirius trying to process this new information.

"Yes Regan" answered.

"Regan if you ever need to talk.." Stared Sirius.

"Then I won't come to you." Regan interrupted. "How many times to I have to tell you, you betrayed my trust. You made me relive my most painful memories. What makes you think that I would talk to you? Now leave."

Before the three wizards could say anything else Madam Pomfrey came in and told them to leave.