Chapter 1

It was the day I'd been dreading, dreading for the past week, well at least the part where I was conscious. I slowly stood up and stumbled, shakily to the chair in my room, it held the clothes my mom had grabbed for me the other night. I wasn't able to, this is the first time I walked since it happened.

" Lissy? Can I come in?" I nodded, then realized that wouldn't help.

" Yeah." I croaked out, the first word I'd spoken. My mother burst in ready to freak about me speaking, then she saw me standing, well, half standing (I was leaning against the dresser.)

" Henry! Hurry! Alyssa's standing!" my dad came running in. he hurried over and helped me.

" That's my girl." In case you couldn't tell, I'm Alyssa, or Lissy, just never Lissa! I pushed him away.

" I got it." I said. They left the room and I got dressed. I stumbled my way to the living room where my parents were waiting. We were going to a funeral, the funeral I had hoped I wouldn't live to see, the funeral of my older brother, Stewart.

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In the car I fell asleep, wish I hadn't.

'That was the best concert ever!'

'I know, that tempo, those beats! The best!'

'Yeah, why can't you use cool songs like that when you skate?'

' Because, I'm not good enough to skate fast enough for those songs.'

' Lissa, you can skate to anything, you're the best skater I know.'

' Really?' then came the bright lights 'STEWART!'

Then I woke up, screaming.

" Lissy! It's okay, it was only a dream, it was only a dream." My mom said reaching back to stoke my long golden hair. Stewart had loved my hair. I know the way I talked about him, and that sorta stuff may seem incestuous, but it's not, we were just close. I sat quietly until we got to the funeral home. I got out of the car and walked in with my parents by my side. I made it through about half before I couldn't take anymore. I did the only thing I could think of, ran.

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I ran, and kept running until I got to my favorite place in the world, the ice rink. Yes, I, Alyssa Hollyfeild want to be a champion ice skater. Anyways, I ran into the changing room and opened my locker, yes I was there so much the owner gave me my own locker. I put on my skates, and for some odd reason, my skating outfit, it was white with long flowing sleeves, the skirt didn't even make it mid-thigh, what was that expression 'Ice Princess' used? Oh, Twinkie little outfits. I hurried out, some big guy got in my way.

" We have the rink reserved."

" I don't care." I said moving around him. I ran to the owner and told him to play my music.

" Lissy, he did reserve the rink."

" I don't care! Just play the music, please." I said, knowing I was crying. He nodded and I got on the ice. I began the routine. (Yeah, the music is the Inuyasha theme song) I was almost halfway through, and was about to do a double, but I didn't jump high enough and ended up slipping. I just lay there, on the cold ice, crying.

" Lissy!" I heard called from the front door, my dad came. I could hear him make his way toward the ice, he had worn tap shoes, why? They were the only black shoes he had.

" Lissy, it's okay, the funeral's over, now, lets go home and, WOAH!" he yelled as he slipped. Tow of the boys that were with the big guy skated over and helped him up. Then he slipped again, long story short, he finally made his way to me and we left and went home.

A/N yeah, it was angsty, but it get better, trust me, I have it planned in my head. I know it also looks like I stole the idea of 'Raise you Voice' and 'Ice Princess' and yes, those inspired my story, and yes, I'm BORROWING their ideas, but it's a fan fic, so THERE! BWA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA ! YEAH, I'M HYPED UP ON SUGAR!