Liz takes a step back from that scence she just saw and took a deep breath in. It's not everyday that you see your own muder, but so far this lifetime she has seen it twice. She closed her eyes and when she opened it a minute later they were all in the Evans' living room. She saw Serena leaning over the chair looking ashen in the face. She turned around to see Maria slowly sit down on the chair next to her. Her face was blank like she was numb. She didn't want to feel. Liz looked around and saw her son trying to relieve the pain. She knew he was having a hard time. Zan looked ready to pass out. He knew that Serena and him were not going to have the happily ever after that he wanted. A piece of him dies slowly at that fact. Isabel clung to Alex like a lifeline. Alex's eyes were closed over her shoulders trying to stop himself from crying. Diane and Phillip just stood by their grandkids trying to leaning thier suport, becasue it looked like Xavier and Callie were going to die from pain. Michael turned his back to the rest of them everyone knew that he was crying they could tell by the shaking over his shoulders and the deep breaths he was taking. Michaela walked up to her father and took his hand in hers. But her face was also a mask of pain. Liz knew that her niece was having a difficult time with this pain. Kyle and Ava were in shock really. Kyle had tears running down his face and Ava couldn't stand still.
She kept repeating "No no no".
She wasn't handing it well. Lastly Liz turned around to where Max was standing. He no longer was their. Liz knew where to find him. Sh excused herself from that room and walked upstairs to the room that she knew he was in. It was his haven. Even the room they had together in Boston could give him the peace and feeling of safety that his room in this house gave. Liz slowly opened the door and saw her husband sitting on his bed shaking with sobs. HIs head rested on the palm of his hands and he seemed to try to close himself off from the pain she knew consumed him. She softly shut the door and he lift up his head. He knew she would come but he didn't know if he was ready to face her. He had swore to her that he would love honor and protect her but he was shown that he failed her in the most possible way.
"I didn't protect you", said Max in a voice that he didn't recognize.
"I'm your husband and the king and yet I didn't protect you my queen", said Max again in a low voice.
Liz walked up to him and sat down nest to him on the bed. She knew he would do this to himself. She knew he would blame himself over an act that was beyond his control. That was Max for you. His head was still resting on his palm when he felt Liz make him lift it. She tilted his chin and made him face her. Max tried to turn away for fear of seeing her expression of maybe her rejection but Liz stood firm. He was forced to look into those doe eyes that he loved so much.
Liz made him face her and said softly, "My husband My King you did not fail me, you loved me always and love you always".
Max looked at her and tears streamed down his face. How could she say those things. Liz shook her head and pulled his mouth over to hers and gave him the slowest most gentlest kiss ever. She looked him the eyes and wiped his tears away brushing the bangs from his forehead.
"I love you Max your my forever, you didn't fail me, don't blame yourself for the actions of this monster, I love you sweetheart and I will not have you blaming yourself for Agent Brook's sadistic actions", said Liz pulling him down for a kiss again.
She felt she had to kiss him to wipe away the blame the guilt that he forced upon himself. Max looked at his wife in awe. She always amazed him. What did he ever do to deserve her.
"You were you", said Liz answering his silent question.
"But I didn't listen to you that day I brushed it off how can you forgive me, how can you love me", he added in a whispered voice.
"How can I not love you", asked Liz.
She got up and sat on his lap. She brought his hand up to circle her rather large stomach now. She knew it was only going to get big as time went on.
"Max look at me", said Liz.
Max lifted his eyes up and stared into hers.
"I love you so much it hurts, you gave me lif sweetheart and everything good that it entails, Max you gave me a son, a son that it willing to come back in time to save his family, a son that looks so much like his father that when I see him it brings tears to my eyes, Swetheart you gave me two daughters that I know are going ot give me a hard time when raising them, and then you gave me a son to complete our family. My little boy is beauitful Max just like you are, your heart is so pure and good and there is no doubt in my mind that your will protect me with every fiber of your being like i know I would, Max you told me that whether you die tommorow or fifty years from now that your destiny was the same, I am your destiny, so cut the blaming act and help us find a way to help our kids defeat the man trying to ruin our happily ever after", said Liz grabbing his hand and kissing his palm.
Max looked at his wife and smiled. She was a spitfire when she wanted to be. He saw that rarely and usually he saw it when they were making love. She was his fiesty wife and he loved her even more for it.
"Yes my queen", said Max softly smiling.
Liz giggled at that placing his hand back on her round stomach. They both lifted up their heads when there was a knock on the door.
"Come in", said Liz.
Xander thier son walked in them shutting the door behind him. He looked unsure about coming into the room with them until Liz extended her hand as a gesture for him to sit down. He smiled and sat next to his parents at least the younger version of them. It was weird seeing them this way and he told them as much. Liz giggled at that.
"It's weird seeing you when your not in my stomach", said Liz.
Xander smiled. Liz took his hand and placed it on her stomach.
"You are always kicking me Xander, do your play football or soccor?", asked Liz smiling down at her son.
"I play soccor and hockey", replied Xander
.Liz smiled at him and kissed his forehead. Xander sighed at that gesture. SHe didn't know it yet but that simple act was something that she did constantly to reassure him that everything would be alright. He lived for those moments when she would kiss his forehead telling him that all was right with the world. Liz got off of Max's lap and open her arms for Xander to come into her embrace. He smiled gently and hugged her tightly. He turned his face into her hair and inhaled. She still had that mother smell as Michaela would say. His mother always smelled of vanilla and strawberries. It was her own smell becasue even if she was cooking in the kitchen or gardening in the backyard she always smelled the same. He missed that smell that scent that made her her. Max looked at his wife and son and sighed. Why couldn't life be simple and easy why did their lives have to be so hard. Why couldn't Liz be a mother and him a father without someone coming after them or trying to break apart his family.
"I love you mom"
Max heard that statement coming from his son's mother and he looked up to find tears spilling from his son's eyes. His eyes were tightly shut trying to exorcise the demons Max thought. He had watched his mother get killed and he like himsef knew that he had to do everthing in his powr to make sure that Liz would live to see her grand babies even live long enough to see her great grand babies thought Max.
"I love you too Xander so much", said Liz with tears in her eyes.
Max couldn't see her face but he knew that it would show the pain that his strong wife refused to show to him. Liz finally broke down.
"god Xander", said Liz crying and sobbing her son's arms.
Xander held on tightly to her trembling body. Max moved nest to his family and kneeled in front off them. He took both thier hands into his and made him face them. What he saw on thier face made him almost double over in pain himself.
"It's not going to happen, we are going to fix this and me and Liz are going to watch graduate highschool, then college then get married and see our grand babies and spoil them like your grand parents spoil you, my son do you understand", said Max holding the side of Xander's face.
Xander nodded his head and wiped his tears. He turned around and wiped his mother's tears also. He kissed her forehead like he always has done since he was little, it was their special communcating device. it was thier own special bond.
"Yeah Dad I understand but he need a plan you guys can't really be involved in the actual you know of Agent Brooks it can't be pinned back to you, it has to be the four of us so that when it happens we could dissappear and that cops not find the killers. We will leave fingerprints so that they wil try to find a person", said Xander.
Max nodded his head.
"Let's go to the livingroom to discuss this", said Max.
Liz nodded her head standing up and kissed her son's cheeks before walking out the door. Xander started to follow her when Max stopped him. Xander looked at his father with a question in his eyes and then shock when Max pulled him in ofr a hug.
"Dad?", asked Xander after a moment still holding onto each other.
"I'm proud of you", said Max before letting go and following his wife back downstairs.
Xander looked at the dor that his father had just walked out of and smiled.
"I know", said Xander in a whisper
. "I know", he repeated before walking out the door himself following his family.
"How are you going to do this?", asked a shaken Maria.
"Well there is a club that he frequents every Saturday and he gets drunck all the time and its in a isolated area so no one will see us doing what we have to do", replied Xavier.
Serena looked up at her son and shuddered. He sounded so cold and unfeeling. How did she let her son get this way.
"Can I talk to you in private", asked Serena looking at Xavier.
Xavier looked at her confused for a minute and nodded his head. Zan also looked at his wife but all she did was nodded her head and told him that this was something that she would handle. Serena got up and Xavier followed his mother out of the room.
"When did my son get this way?", asked an angered Zan.
Xander looked down at his hands
. "When he found out that Auntie Serena was raped by Agent Brooks before he killed her, that's what the police told us anyway", said Xander.
"He hasn't always been so cold dad but when Mom died god", said Callied rubbing her face.
"When she died and you lost your way he stepped up to take care of us, he tried hard but he never delt with mom dying, I suppose none of us did, but he took it the hardest becasue even though me and mom were tight him and mom had this bond it was amazing to watch they didn't have to say anything and they understood one another, just like you and mom, she loves me but Xavier that's her everything", said Callie.
She used to be jealous of the bond that her brother and mother shared. Her mother never treated them differently but there was still a difference. Xavier and Serena were two peas in a pod.
"Xavier sit down", said Serena walking into Zan's old room.
Xavier did as his mother asked. He wondered what she had to say. It was weird looking at his mother so yonug. She was wearing a shirt that was showing over her stomach, something that his mother didn't wear anymore and a short skirt. Serena kneeled in front of her son and looked him in the eyes.
"I love you" said Serena after a while. Xavier was taken back by that.
"But you don't even know me yet", replied Xavier looking down at his hands.
"Yeah I do, I know everything, you forget that I get visions, I show your first step and your first heartbreak, I held you when you fell over your bike and when you were nervous about your first date, I love you so much", said Serena cupping her son's face.
Xavier tried avoiding her eyes but Serena made him lok at her.
"was I a good mom?", asked Serena.
Xavier looked up with tears in his eyes.
"You were the best mom, god mom", said Xavier with tears in his eyes.
he never got to mourning death because he was trying to be strong for his family. Dad was going off the deep end and Callie barey said anything anymore just came into his room at night and cried in his arms. He had no one to help him with the grieve. it was so painful sometimes that it was hard to breath.
"Baby I'm so sorry that I wasn't there for you, that I left you, baby can you forgive me?", asked Serena in tears.
"Mom you did nothing wrong that bastard he god mom he took you away from me when I needed you the most. It felt like no one understood, Uncle Michael barely said two words, and dad was so god he couldn't handle it, I knew I had to make you proud and take care of everyone but mom I needed you I needed you so much, I hated that you weren't there and that I wasn't there to protect you from him" said Xavier crying.
Serena clung to him and trembled in pain for her son.
"Xavier my son look at me", said Serena looking into eyes so much like her own.
"I love you, I am so sorry that you had to go through this I am so proud to call you my son, you are everything that I hoped for and more, we will fix this and I promise that I won't leave you again, I need you to know that, I need you not to hate me", said Serena softly looking down at her hands.
"I could never hate you mom, I love you so much god mom I I god", said Xavier shaking in tears.
it was the first time he mourned for his mother. He remebered the funeral Aunt Maria and Michaela singing in the background, Jesus loves Me was the song. He was holding onto a hysterical Callie. Phoneix and Rain barely could stand they were yelling mommy so loudly. Grandma Kim and Grandpa Kal and Uncle Peter crying especially Grandma Kim who was on her knees with her hands opened wide and crying in Spanish for God to not take her first born. Uncle Max who was usually strong was also on his knees shaking in sobs. Micheal couldn't even look at the casket that was going down the ground. He shook from the memory.
"it's alright baby let it out let it out", repeated Serena softly in her son's ears.
She held her baby and cuddled his head on her lap as he shook from the pain. She hummed softly to him and kissed his face softly. this was her baby. She couldn't leave him ever.
"Mom I'm so sorry I have become this person that I hate, Callie told me that I am cold and a robotI don't mean to be its just that I have to be strong I can't disappoint you", said Xavier looking like a lost boy.
"You could never do that I love baby so much, I'm so proud of that man you are becoming and I hope that I can be there this time so watch the great man I know you will be", said Serena still kissing his forhead and stroking his hair.
It's been a while since Xavier has crawled into his mother's lap. It was the the place that he felt the safest so when she died that hope of safety died with him. He was always looking over his shoulder and scared that they will find that he is not normal. His girlfriend knew that he wasn't human and loved him anyway she was one of the main reason why he hasn't lost his mind yet. She was a great balance for him
. "She is beautiful" said Serena getting flashes from him.
"yeah she is, and she", said Xavier.
"Loves you", answered Serena.
Xavier nodded his head.
"I know she does, I can't wait to meet her", said Serena.
Xavier smiled.
"You and her get along really well oyu are very similar I guess that's why I was drawn to her she had all of your best qualities mom she is kind and gentle and non judgemental but can kick your ass if you mess with her", said Xavier.
Serena laughed at that and stroked his hair some more.
"I love you baby and so does your father I know he wasn't there really when you needed him but try to understand ok me and him had it tough, I lost him in one timeline he lost me in another timeline and don't even get me going about our past lives, it seems that we are always getting screwed out of growing old together", said Serena with a sad expression.
"yeah I know I don't hate him or blame him I just felt that he should have been there for us, I needed him too", said Xavier.
"I'm sorry", said Zan coming into the room.
Xavier raised his head and looked at his father. Zan had tears in his eyes. Callie was standing behind him.
"God I'm so sorry I am such a terrible person I wasn't there for you i shouldn't have let my pain overshadow what I needed to do you needed me god what was I thinking", said Zan.
"Daddy we understand we do, it was hard on all of us, mom not being there was a big blow to us, us six are so tightly knit that we scare some people, so when the main memebers of our group leaves we were unbalanced. The V formation with you guys broke that day, Aunt Maria was saying that she felt like she died too", said Callie.
"We need each other dad, and that is not going to happen this time we will take care of the threat and you and mom can have us and we will happily ever after", said Callie.
Zan looked at his daughter and smiled. She was a brave one he knew that.
"I don't hate you dad I actually understand mom is the greatest without her we are nothing", said Xavier coming up to his father and hugging him.
Serena had tears in her eyes. Callie walked up to her mother and hugged her tightly.
"I won't let you leave me mom", said Callie.
Serena nodded her head and smiled.
"I won't leave you Callie", said Serena.
"I'm hungry", said Xavier.
Callie laughed at that.
"You always hungry",. replied Callie.
"Just like his father", said Serena.
"hey", said Zan acting like he was offended.
They all walked out of the room to find food on the table and Max and Liz helping to set the table.
"Hey guys we ordered Chinese food are you hungry?", asked Liz looking at the four of them.
"Yeah Auntie Liz, thanks", siad Callie kissing her cheeks.
"Auntie Liz I loke that", said Liz smiling.
Max hugged her and kissed her softly.
"Eww parents kid in the room", said Xander with a digusted face.
Max just laughed at that. They all sat down and began eating. Diane stood back and looked at them all at her table. Phillip walked up to her and kissed her forehead.
"You alright honey?", asked Phillip.
"Yeah but they are so young they don't deserve this pain and suffereing they have done nothing wrong and this man is hurting my babies and my grand babies", said Diane.
Phillip nodded his head in understanding. he was angry too he jsut didn't understand why this man would hurt his children, children that were just trying to fit in and didn't hurt a fly. Max and the others talked about the situation. Thy had decided that tommorrow nifht would be the night where they would kill Agent Brooks. Callie knew that he would be at that bar and it was a perfect night to do it. They discussed the details and made sure that everything was in place. They all retired to thier rooms with their kids and slept until tommorrow where thier children would take the life of the man that took away thiers.