I'm sorry for the long wait, everyone. You know when it gets to that time of year I have exams and all, this time the exams were three times as serious. Lol.. They're like College Entrance Exams.
Anyway, I know this chapter is a little short, but I hope you appreciate it anyway. I didn't want to ruin it by posting too much at one time. trying not to give anything away Lol.. Anyway I really hope you like it.
Disclaimer: If I was JK I wouldn't have had to do exams. So don't bother asking me who the half blood prince is, because I. Do. Not. Know.
Chapter 18:
She hated it.
She hated the way it sat on his pale skin, the curve of the snake protruding from the mouth and twirling around the orbit. She hated everything it stood for. The pain, the terror. She hated everything it had done to her family, to wizards, to her.
But then she looked at him, at the hurt in his eyes, the way he couldn't look at her because of his shame, because of his guilt. And she couldn't hate it. Not when it was apart of him. She could never hate anything about him.
She felt the drop from the sky in tune with his tear. The world was crying for him, just as she had done, and just had she had felt like doing many times. And after that one drop, another fell. And another. But he never moved. He matched the weather. Cold. Sad. Doomed. He remained still, never looking at her, a far away look in his eyes, a far away feeling in his soul.
She didn't know what she could do for him, right then. She wished she was a God, able to control the life and death of mortals, able to change destiny with just the thought of it. But, the truth of it was, she was only a Weasley. A little Weasley sitting uncertainly next to a Malfoy. Thinking that she could help him. And the beauty of it all was that she could.
Gazing at the dark mark imprinted into his flesh, she cried. She didn't cry for Narcissa, because she thought maybe she would find peace in death. She cried for Draco. For his pain. And his Guilt. And she would have gladly taken all of it, just to see him smile. But what hurt her the most was he was suffering alone. He had suffered alone for the past month, knowing the danger his mother was in, and all the possible things that could happen, and never saying a word.
She decided she never loved him more.
She never knew all the pain he had to go through, all the guilt he held in his heart. She could have never understood him better. But now she did. And she loved that she could. She loved him.
She wanted to do anything to stop the pain. And so she did the only thing she knew.
Her hand wavered uncertainly in the air, and finally, her finger brushed pass the dark skull. Tracing the contours of it, the borders, the shape. Again and again she did. And then, more determined that before, she placed a kiss, right there, on that mark. Illogical as it was, it was all she could think of. To place a healing kiss on the cause of his hurt. To kill the evil with her love.
And for the first time he looked at her. His lashes wet from rain, and his tear. The rain dripping down his nose, letting his hair fall in silver locks. And he remembered like he had never forgotten just how important she was to him. Her red hair gone limp and dark by the rain. The drops running down her face, her shirt clinging to her skin. She was the only joy he had left. The greatest joy he had ever experienced. She was the last living thing that he loved. And it hurt him to remember, as he remembered his love, that she was not his. She was Potter's, and Weasley's, and Gryffindor's. Right then, it seemed like his reality would never stop hurting.
But she didn't stop as he set his gaze on her. She felt his eyes, confused and calculating, as she kissed the skin covered by the mark, and the skin above it. And she felt the trail of goose bumps from the cold of the rain, and the touch of her lips. And she followed then, up his arm, to where the roll of his sleeve had gathered at his shoulder. She hoped that he could feel her love.
And he could. Just as he felt the familiar curve of her lips, and he closed his eyes against them. Reminding himself to forget them. Maybe it was best that he forgot all about her. Because he knew that the hurt he felt now, from the loss of his mother, could not compare to her. He imagined if the angels had lost their God, they could not feel as lost as he would. But then he felt her lips on his and he knew that it was all pointless. How could he forget her? Who could ever forget her?
And slowly her tongue flicked across his lips and he captured them in one smooth move. A million memories flooded to him. Of the first time he noticed the seven different shades of red that showed in the moonlight. Of how perfect she looked in that yellow dress. Of how good it felt to hold her when she dreamt of Tom. How good it felt now to have her comfort him.
Death wouldn't go away. But maybe for awhile it could be forgotten.
She had always been his portal to not remembering.
And as their tongues touched he wished the moment could never end. All the bets, and the tricks, and the hurt and pain had come down to this. And he would have had it no other way.
She felt him relax as they kissed, as he let out one large breath. And she pretended for a moment that that breath wasn't just an array of gases, but that in that one breath he had let out everything he had kept hidden, he dispelled all the hurt from his body.
Had she a choice, she would keep on kissing him forever. Knowing that he would never have to face his reality. And maybe she would never have to face hers.
His hands made their way around her waist, and she placed hers around his neck, pulling their bodies closer, so that he could feel her breathing through the movements of her breasts, and she could feel his chest arching towards her.
It wasn't one of those kisses that was rushed and quick-paced. Or one that was teasing and short. It was a kiss of red wine. Taken slowly, to last, but twice as intoxicating as any wine could ever be.
And as he lifted her on to his lap, that kiss never faltered. They couldn't let it. This was their healing, their own self made get away. That kiss could never end. Maybe if it didn't, their love wouldn't either.
Her hands travelled down his neck, onto his chest, and then to the buttons of his robe. Her fingers worked with uncharacteristic smoothness, slowly undoing one button, and moving on to the other. All while they kissed. And the robe fell down, made heavy with the rain soaked into its fabric. And now she could feel his chest more clearly, as his white shirt stuck to his skin, wet with the rain.
She kissed along his neck, flicking her tongue across the soft, tender skin. And his hands roamed to her wet shirt, revealing her bra underneath. And slowly he lifted the shirt out of its tuck in her skirt, and his hands travelled under it.
He had never been a patient lover. Here. Now. Always a dictator.
But not now, not for Ginny. He wanted every moment to last, because there was nothing, even with all the money he had available, that could compare to this.
And it showed. It showed in the way he lightly brushed his hands up her waist, feeling her curves. It showed the way he was content in just letting his fingers feel her skin, cold and damp from the rain. And it showed in the way he lingered on her breast, curving his hand around it, and feeling her breathing movements.
The drops of rain fell heavily now, against the skin of his chest, exposed by his recent loss of his shirt. He closed his eyes against the feel of her lips and warm tongue on his chest, sending shivers through him.
Placing his hand under her chin he brought her face back to his lever and entwined their tongues once more, as he undid the buttons of her school shirt, letting the water-logged mass of cloth fall onto the ground of the Quidditch Pitch. And then he slowly traced his hand along the skin of her back, from the base of her spine, to the clasp of her bra. He felt the muscles tense beneath him, and felt her push closer to him, into his chest.
And in a moment she was free from her bra. And it too fell onto the stand. And it felt like nothing had ever been so right, not the stars or the moon, life or death. Nothing was so natural then her skin on his skin, her protruding nipples unto the firmness of his chest, leaving no space for even air to gather.
Healing had never felt better.
He trailed his hand along her skin, along her waist, her breast, her shoulders, her arms. And on his dying day he could say that there was no heaven that could compete with the feeling that he had as he felt her pressed into him, and he felt her skin beneath his fingers. There was no other heaven for him. Nothing could compare to this.
He bent into her, causing her to lean back onto the stand so that her small frame was lying horizontally. For a moment the rain hit her fully, all along her naked chest, her neck, her face. And then that moment was gone. And his body covered hers. The feeling of his tongue as it ran along her neck and down to her breasts, and abdomen was more erotic than the feel of silk to the naked body. And she bit her lip under the fire that was slowly spreading heat throughout her body, despite the coldness that the rain brought.
Her hands travelled to his buckle and she noticed the protrusion that had built there. She fought to undo the belt buckle and then, the button, and then, his pants, like everything else, was dropped and forgotten. And soon, so was her skirt.
Passionately she kissed him, his tongue travelling to undiscovered corners of her mouth. And hers spreading her sweetness into his. And his kisses travelled then, down the length of her body, unto the band of her underwear. Shivers ran down her spine, one after the other, and the goose bumps spread to every inch of her body that was covered in skin. And then, swiftly he slipped them off. And at that moment, Draco Malfoy stared at the beauty that was Ginny Weasley. And his heart swelled with a mixture of passion and love. A mixture he had never before experienced.
His soaked boxers, the last piece of clothing fell onto the stand. And the full length of his body felt the full length of hers. And he kissed her once more as he positioned himself at her entrance, and then inserted. His eyes widened as he felt the barrier that was her virginity. And unsure he made his way out.
But she shook her head, and pleaded "No, Don't. Go ahead. I want you too."
And he looked into her eyes, and he saw the desire in them that mirrored in his. And had she looked at him with those eyes and asked him to burn his dollars, bill by bill, he would have run for a match.
And he entered her. Her hands clasped his back as the pain seared through her, and she buried her head in his shoulder, biting on her lip to prevent from crying out.
But the pain was not unbearable, because she was experiencing it with him. She could think of no one better that she had wanted to. And she felt safe and warm in his embrace, to feel his body covering hers, and to hear the gasps of pleasure that he let out, in her ear. And he kissed her as he came, moaning against her lips. And in his last gasp of passion he let out the words, "I love you."
And at the shock of hearing them she could only return with the truth:
"I know. I love you too."
There were no more words they could think of. There were no more words that they needed. And the two lay, their bodies together, and basked in their love. One that was unspoken of. Until now.
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A little- ok very short. I hope you like it anyway, lol.. Like it PLEASE XD
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ie-chipmonk: Lol.. I know, I can never seem to update quickly. And plus this chap is short. But I hope the substance overrides the length.
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sizi: All at once? Wow.. I commend you. I have a short attention span, I cant do something for too long. Which is why I don't watch tv, lol.
Jac : Lol.. Know I wouldn't be offended. I mean, it's like it, but it's different. I just got inspiration from there. Yeah, poor poor Draco.
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