Weee, another slow update and I´m sure you love me for it...especially after that little cliffie I pulled on you guys.
What was that? Shut the heck up and get to the matter at hand?...Ok:D

Before that though, I´d like to admit a minor Lime warning...probably nothing to be scared of, and nothing to look forward to either, so just chill...but you´re warned :)

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Yomi stood in the shadows of the hallway, partly inside the bathroom.
The dim light made the already brown corridor browner, and somehow it created a dark and intimate atmosphere.

Yomi didn´t notice, her attention was fully focused on the door on the other side of the hall, next to the staircase.
It had already been about 7 minutes, but it seemed like she´d been standing there for 7 hours, heck 7 days.
The door she was staring at was her´s and Tomo´s, and those 7 minutes ago Kagura had entered it, that slut , and she hadn´t come back out.

Yomi struggled to hear any sounds that might escape the room , but for a long time she couldn´t hear a single thing, untill she could hear a voice, or the distinction of one at least.
After a little listening Yomi realised it had to be Tomo´s, Kagura had more of a bass voice.
Then it stopped. And for another few minutes Yomi couldn´t hear a thing.

Then, suddenly, a clearly heard THUMP is sounded, like a body against a hard surface.

Yomi bite her lower lip and feel the tears pushing in their canals. Clutching the doorway, Yomi prepares to leave her best friend and soulmate to the clutches of someone who doesn´t know a thing about her.

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Tomo was very aware of the finger Kagura had on her lips, but she couldn´t take her eyes away from those big, brown eyes of Kagura. Kagura could look REALLY adorable when she had her moments, and she was definately having one now.
That didn´t mean that Kagura was at all sounding like she was on the humble side, not at all.
Kagura´s eyes and face was shouting "I want you!", and Tomo had abit of a hard time resisting.

" I want you Tomo, and I know you want me. Let´s be together, tonight and every night from now on."

Before Tomo could answer Kagura embraced her, kissed her and squeesed her breasts against Tomo´s.
Several very good sensations assaulted Tomo at once and she was giving in to them. The feel of Kagura´s embrace, her tits and her tongue in Tomo´s mouth all made the centre downstairs send jolt after jolt through Tomo´s body.
Tomo´s was about to do something in return when pictures started flashing behind her closed eyes.

Tomo saw herself sit amongst the crowd of a class filled with other kids. The next few pictures showed Yomi and how they had argued and played since they were smaller than Chiyo-chan had been when she joined their class. She saw them playing in the sun, she saw how she had hurt her knee and how Yomi was healing it with a kiss and a bandaid, she saw them huddling under a big tree in the middle of a rainstorm , sharing an umbrella. Tomo saw countless of the times she and Yomi had been together playing with, caring for, crying and laughing with eachother.

She saw, and she pushed.

Kagura was caught off guard by the sudden push and their embrace and lips parted. Tomo sat up and leaned her back against the wall. Kagura got on all fours and started crawling towards Tomo, but she was stopped by Tomo´s arms on her shoulders.

"No, Kagura, I´m sorry...it won´t go as you want it to. I can´t do that to myself and...her."

Kagura looked into Tomo´s eyes and found determination, and she couldn´t help but let the anger well up in herself.

"What about her? She´s had the last, what , sixteen years on her? When I finally take the courage after all this time you let it pass for an indecisive bitch like h..."

Kagura was interrupted by Tomo´s hard fist on her jaw. Kagura dropped to her right as a sack at the sudden impact.
When she got her hands under her again she felt her loose teeth and she could also taste blood. Kagura couldn´t grasp what had happened for a few seconds, untill she heard Tomo´s cracked voice.

"Don´t you EVER! call her that again! I will not tolerate that! You can call me a moron over and over, you can tell me how useless I am or even beat me senseless, and I won´t do anything but demand an explanation, but if you ever hurt or speak like that of Yomi again!..."

The threat was left unfinished , but the tone in Tomo´s voice finished it without words.

Kagura turned her head and looked at Tomo, who now had nothing but rage in her eyes. She had blown it, Tomo hated her now, and it was unbearable. Kagura had watched Tomo these last few years with interest and curiosity. And now she was sure she would never be able to have her, never. And it made her hate, it made her hate herself and that bitch Yomi, but as it was now she couldn´t take being in the spotlight of those infuriated eyes of Tomo any longer.
With a whimper she touched her chin and jaw, feeling the injury, her hands became wet and her teeth hurt like heck.

Tomo looked at Kagura, she touched her mouth and Tomo could see the hurt rise in her eyes as they became watery at the edges, and before Tomo could say or do anything more Kagura got up and ran out the door.

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Yomi was about to turn and walk when she heard Tomo´s voice scream out her tirade. The flame that had been puffed out was re-ignited and Yomi could feel hope once again climbing in her chest. She turned once more and hid in the shadows of the door, waiting.
After a few seconds Kagura threw up the door and charged down the corridor, she went straight past Yomi without even noticing her, and into the door to her own and Ayumu´s room.

Yomi looked after Kagura with unshed tears in her eyes, then she turned her attention towards the open door down the hall, where she could hear gentle sobbing. She didn´t hesitate for a split second before charging down the hall to Tomo. As she took a step inside the door she saw Tomo sit, curled up in a ball, with her head between her knees and her chest, crying softly.
When Tomo sensed the presence of another she looked up and when Yomi saw the heart-ache in her eyes she couldn´t keep in those tears any longer.
Yomi and Tomo stood and sat there for a few seconds, before Yomi´s feelings overwhelmed her and she went straight over to Tomo, sat down and hugged her tightly,
No words were spoken, they were just two girls comforting eachother, two bodies as one, shaking softly in between sobs.

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Kagura ran inside her room, slammed the door shut and then lay down on her futon, where she occasionally punched the floor in the lack of any better outlet for her feelings.
What a fucking moron she´d been to think that Tomo liked her, that she would actually prefer her over that four-eyed knowitall. Curse her! She´d had the chance to confess to Tomo so many times now, and she does it first when another girl takes an interest? What´s with that anyway?...

All these thoughts rummage through Kagura´s head over and over again and getting sadder and sadder and angrier and angrier , it didn´t take her long before she gives in to the feelings of rejection and the tears starts falling.
Lying there , sobbing, Kagura suddenly feels someone shifting next to her, and the next thing she feels is that Osaka arms envelop her and hugs her from behind, squeesing her own petite body against Kagura´s firm mass.
Before Kagura can protest Osaka starts humming a melancholy tune and it stops Kagura from interveening. Osaka´s embrace provides her with such a comfort that Kagura turns around and start crying into Osaka´s little chest.

"Why couldn´t she accept me? Am I really that repulsive? Why does it has to be this way? Why,why,why,why..why...why?"

Ayumu dug her face into the soft, brown pillow of hair just below her face, she too felt abit hurt, she had half-hoped it would be Yomi that had come to her, needing comfort.
She had made Ayumu feel so welcome in her arms earlier, Ayumu hadn´t been comforted like that for...as long as she can remember...she´d never had a very physical relationship with her parents and the comforts usually came in forms as gifts or other impersonal things to comfort her.
Those comforts should´ve ended after she became a teenager at least, but she´d never gotten that real, personal contact with her parents, and even if she knew it was wrong to, she silently accused them of it.
And had for several years now.

The sobbing form in her arms reminded her that this wasn´t the time to feel sorry for herself.
Kagura was hysterical and needed consolation, so Ayumu was going to give it, even if...it was a personal song.

Slowly, gently Ayumu started singing "Raspberry Heaven" , but even as Kagura calmed down and listened, Ayumu thought of Yomi and the promise they had made earlier.
Feeling those old stings of sadness Ayumu eventually cried a whole lot more than Kagura.
Something that Kagura couldn´t help but notice after some time, when her hair was getting wet and Ayumu shook worse than herself.

Kagura partly freed herself to look up at Osaka´s face. The usual happy face was twisted into something noone should have to see, because such an apparition of sorrow is just too sad to look upon.Ayumu had her eyes closed and the her eyebrows clenched as she remembered the horrors of her life and how she´d thought they were gone , but now they weren´t gone after all, it had just been a temporary hiding.

"Osaka? Osaka? Don´t cry, c´mon I didn´t mean to do this to you. Are you alright?..."

Osaka opened her eyes and somehow Kagura could see in her eyes that she had lost something as well since the last time she´d seen her.
It didn´t take too long for Kagura to put two and two together and before Osaka got the chance to excuse herself Kagura interrupted.

"You were hoping for Yomi weren´t you?"

Ayumu flinched at the name and put her hands up in front of herself to explain, but Kagura was relentless.
"Something happened between the two of you yesterday, right? I saw you two at the corner after Tomo came downstairs." Ayumu didn´t say anything, but she nodded carefully once, her eyes looking at something beyond the floor.
For some reason Kagura seemed hesitant to ask the next question, so Ayumu raised her eyes and looked at her, this made Kagura get a grip and she finally got out the question she was having trouble with. "Err, could I ask you, what happened?"

Ayumu thought about it for a moment, and she flinched at what had happened, and as she told Kagura the first part she felt something break inside her and her life just spilled out, for the first time in her life she told someone of her full burden.

She told Kagura every last thing of her life and how hard it had been. This was way more than what Kagura was prepared for, but she couldn´t bring herself to stop Ayumu´s tearfilled confession of pain and sorrow.
The painful memories kept coming, one after the other, and Kagura felt her opinion about Ayumu change drastically along with a feeling of wanting to take care of her, to protect her, grew in her.
It didn´t take long before Kagura laid her hands around Ayumu as she let her go on, Ayumu´s story grew even worse after they moved from Tokyo, how her parents had taken their own lifes and the hard life she´d have to run afterwards, just to stay alive and kope with her already depressed self. Ayumu even told her of her cutting herself and at this point Kagura pulled away from Ayumu, hands on her shoulders she stared into her eyes and asked.

"Are you serious, you cut yourself?"
Looking dead into Kagura´s eyes Ayumu pulled up the sleeve of her pajamas and displayed her pale, scarred wrist.
Long, red scars covered in crust were striped across her wrist, the next longer and redder than the next.
Kagura looked up from Ayumu´s wrist and into her eyes, and now Kagura was felling tears on Ayumu´s behalf.
Ayumu had lived such a cruel life, much worse than her own, so much that her petty crying concerning Tomo´s choice somehow seemed like an egoistic and childish thing.
She said as much and was surprised when Ayumu strongly objected.

"Don´t petty your own feelings Kagura, the only way to defeat the loneliness is to find someone..." Ayumu turned her head and looked to the floor. " And we both thought we did find someone...but they found eachother...I´m not sure what I´ll do..when I come home that is..."

"Those two might´ve found eachother, they were always meant for eachother, but we shouldn´t be alone because of that."
Ayumu looked perplexed at Kagura. "Then what do you propose we do? It´s not like we can just..." Sensation hit Ayumu and the minute her eyes lit up Kagura kissed her. It wasn´t much more than a peck, but it broke away all feelings of doubt.

"Ayu-chan, if it´s only to drive away the loneliness, lets try to build something together...I feel...kinda attached to you now...especially after that confession of yours, maybe I´ll let you hear mine someday, but for now I´ll leave of with the fact that I´ve always admired your eyes. They´re so deep, so dreamy and they should be happy, because when they cry, my Ayu-chan, the whole world cries with them."

Ayumu took alittle while to work out that Kagura had just kissed her, confessed and said something extremely beautiful and touching about her.
Eventually Ayumu made the decision and kissed Kagura back, confessing and admitting without a single word.
It was her first time kissing someone and it made her feel more together with someone than she´d ever been.
She kissed Kagura again and laughed out loud, it was so wonderful, she kissed her again and for the second time she cried tears of joy.Kagura couldn´t help but laugh happily with Ayumu, she smiled as she felt something grow in her, she wasn´t sure what it was, but she felt happier and happier by the second she spent with Ayumu.

Eventually the two settled down, Ayumu was on her side and so was Kagura. Kagura had wrapped her arms around Ayumu and pressed her against herself as if she didn´t want to let her go.
The two were totally at peace, and thus Ayumu figured it was her time to make another confession.

"Kagura-chan...did you know that you just took my first kiss? I know it´s abit sad, but I kinda felt I had to say it."

"That was your first kiss? You´re twenty-three and you never kissed before?.."
"No...should I have?...Well...I guess it was about time then." She finished with a smile.
A mischevious grin grew on Kagura´s face. "Then it´s about time you experience something else as well."
Almost without motion one of Kagura´s hands descended sneakily.
"Huh?What is that?"

Ayumu let out a loud gasp as she found out.

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Heh, I gotta be a nutcase...swapping pairings like that in one chapter XD...but...this is how it worked out...
Now don´t call this a cliffie, because I won´t indulge you with that...;)...