Only True Feelings
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Chapter Two - Reasons
As Hermione walked into the common room, she was humming quietly to herself and she had a broad smile plastered across her face.
She came up next to Harry and plopped down on the chair next to him.
"Are you alright Hermione?" Harry asked skeptically.
"Yea, I'm fine. Absolutely wonderful," she said in a dream-like voice.
"Okay," he said slowly, "well where's Ron?"
"Who cares," she said blissfully. "Anyways, do you need help with any of your homework?"
"You mean you're not upset with Ron?" Harry asked in disbelief.
"Well of course I'm upset with him Harry, if I didn't see him ever again it wouldn't bother me one bit. I mean I can't believe that...wait,..." she said slowly, " you mean that you knew about him breaking up with me?"
Harry averted his gaze slightly and then slowly began to shake his head.
"Why didn't you say anything," she said, starting to raise her voice.
"Listen, Hermione, I was just about to tell you this morning but then he walked in and took you away. I'm sorry Hermione, I know that I should have said something earlier, but I thought that he would change his mind and break it off with Parvati and stay with you."
"WHAT?" Hermione yelled, catching Harry off guard and causing him to stare at her with shock.
"What do you mean, what?" he asked her.
"I MEAN THAT HE IS A GOD DAMN LIAR! HE TOLD ME THAT HE NEEDED 'SPACE'!" she screamed.
"Space?" Harry asked in disbelief. "He told me that he was going to tell you the truth, and I warned him and told him that there would be consequences if he lied to you!"
"Are you positive that he didn't mention anything whatsoever about having another relationship." he asked.
Hermione racked her brains, "I'm positive, all he told me was that he needed some space. He said that I was too overprotective and he couldn't stand it anymore."
Harry stood up abruptly, grabbed the Marauders Map map from the table, and headed towards the door.
"Harry? Where are you going?" Hermione asked.
"I think it's time for me to take a break from my homework," he said bluntly, and was out the door.
Hermione got up and trotted over to the armchair by the fireplace. Why did Ron have to do all of this? she thought bitterly.
Then thoughts of Remus flooded her mind. She began to smile lightly as she thought of the conversation they had, and of course the kiss that she had given him. She remembered the electricity that she felt pass from her body to his as her lips made contact with his cheek. She licked her lips slightly, and then smiled.
Stop it Hermione, he's your professor. He's older and wiser and probably has his eyes on some older woman.
But as soon as those thoughts crossed her mind, she pushed them right away remembering the way he looked at her when they were alone. Never before had she seen him look at her that way before during lessons, or any other time that she could think of. Never has she seen that small sparkle in his eye that looked as if lightening was flashing across his eyes. Never had she seen him smile as her like that, or have butterflies in her stomach, or even blush.
She could sit there all day long just thinking about him, but she was interrupted by Ginny coming into the common room, with a frightened look on her face.
Hermione jumped out of her seat and ran over to Ginny.
"What's wrong Ginny?"
"Hermione, I-I don't know what's happened or what's going on with Harry-but...he...he was...attacking..." she said frantically.
"He was attacking who? Ginny, who was Harry attacking?" Hermione asked as calmly as she could.
"Ron! Harry just walked right up to Ron and started jinxing him." Ginny said almost in tears.
"Show me where they are." Hermione said shortly.
They ran through several different corridors, and Hermione was beginning to think that something bad had happened until she heard loud noises.
As she turned the corner she saw a large group of people encircling two other people. One of which was lying on the ground and the other was on top hitting and yelling.
Hermione ran through the crowd shoving people out of the way, ignoring their sounds of protest. When she finally broke through the crowd, she saw that it was Ron lying on the ground sporting a bloody nose and a swollen eye, and Harry was the one on top of him punching every inch of Ron that he could. He was yelling something that no one would have been able to distinguish.
Hermione ran over and grabbed Harry and tried to pull him off, but wasn't having any luck.
Then out of nowhere she heard someone ask what was going on, it was a male voice that was deep and hoarse. Hermione spun around to see Remus Lupin standing directly behind her, he looked too as if he ran the whole way here.
She ran over to him and grabbed his arm, as electricity shot up her arm and through her body. "It's Ron and Harry, I don't know what has gotten into them." she said distractedly.
As soon as she grabbed his arm, his heart skipped a couple of beats and he looked into her honey-brown eyes and smiled at her lightly before he jumped forward and began pulling Harry off of Ron.
By the time Harry had finally stopped trying to put Ron in the hospital wing, his hands and feet were bound by a spell that Remus had to use.
Remus then turned to everyone else, "Okay, the excitement is over, you all can leave now. Go on."
Very reluctantly and slowly everyone began to leave, everyone except Harry, Ron, Hermione and Ginny.
He took the spells off of Harry and handed Ron a handkerchief for his nose.
"Now let's all go to my room and see what all this was about before we decide to do anything else."
Hermione had to hand it to him, he knew how to handle things a lot better than other people, and of course the first person that popped into her head was Snape.
The five of them made their way to Remus' classroom. As soon as they got there Remus sat behind his desk, Ron and Ginny sat in the front desks, Harry sat as far away from Ron as he could and Hermione followed suit.
After they all got settled, Remus was the first to break the silence.
"Can anyone of you tell me what happened out there?" he asked the four of them.
They all sat there in silence. No one wanted to say anything, so Hermione decided to give her account of what happened.
"Well when I got back to the common room earlier, Harry was sitting there doing his homework and I asked if he needed any help. Then he asked me why I wasn't upset about Ron breaking up with me, and I told him that I was fine with it." she began, and across the room she heard a small, "Oh!" and saw Ginny as realization came across her face before she shot a piercing glare at her brother.
"Anyways, then Harry was apologizing to me for not telling me before now and that he thought that Ron was going to break it off with Parvati and stay with me, and of course Ron didn't say anything about him seeing another girl so I told Harry that Ron said that he needed 'space'. Then the next thing I knew Harry was on his way out the door and I didn't stop him because I had no idea what he was planning on doing. Then a couple of minutes later Ginny ran into the common room and told me what was going on, so she then showed me where they were, I was trying to get Harry off of Ron and that's when you showed up." she said smiling at Remus, as he returned the smile.
"Harry, why would you do this to Ron? You two have been friends for as long as I can remember." Remus said directing his gaze over to Harry.
"Yea, we were good friends..." Harry started as he glanced at Ron with a look of disgust on his face.
"What do you mean, 'you were good friends'?"
"I mean that I'm not going to stay friends with someone who can't be truthful, especially when it has to deal with my other friends." he said turning his gaze over to Ron, and for the first time he had a tangled expression on his face that was a mix between anger, pity and frustration.
"Why did you lie to her,...why couldn't you just tell her the truth? You promised me you would, and now I feel as if I can't trust you anymore." he said with a hurt expression.
"I-I don't know...I couldn't tell her that I was seeing someone else, it was just too hard." Ron said, studdering slighty.
"So you'd rather lie to her than be a man and tell her the truth?" Harry asked in disbelief.
"No," Ron said simply.
"Then why, why did you do it?"
"I-I don't know, alright. I don't know why I didn't tell her the truth. I know it's wrong to lie, but when she was standing there looking up at me with those eyes, I couldn't bring myself to say that I was seeing someone else. It was hard enough just telling her it was over!"
The room went extremely quite for several minutes.
"Listen Ron, hearing you put it that way I could understand why you did what you did. Although I don't really agree with you lying to me,..." she said distractedly, "I still understand. And I just thought that I'd let you know that I do forgive you."
Hermione saw relief spread across him face at the sound of her words, and all he could manage was, "Thanks Hermione, really."
"Good," Remus said, "Now Harry, do you think that you and Ron could possibly be friends again?"
Ron glanced up at Harry, as Harry did the same to him. When they made eye contact, Harry shrugged slightly, "Yea, I'm sure we could work everything out."
"Great," Remus said standing up smiling widely. "Now that everything is back to normal, I think that you all can leave."
"You mean, you're not going to send us to McGonagall, or give us detention?" Harry and Ron asked.
"Well no, I see no point in punishing you now that you two have things worked out. Do you?" he said smiling slightly.
"No," they said together.
"Alright then, you guys have a good day."
"Okay, thanks Professor, see you later." they all said heading towards the door.
Remus stood there for several seconds debating whether or not he should, but his mind decided for him, and before he could stop himself, "Hermione, could I have a word please." Damn it Remus, WHY? he asked himself.
Hermione stopped abruptly, said goodbye to the others and turned around slowly shaking slightly.
"Yes Professor?" she said trying not to sound nervous.
"Hermione I told you, call me Remus." he said smiling sweetly.
"Sorry Remus."
"No need to apologize Hermione, really. I just wanted to tell you how considerate is was of you to settle that whole situation the way do did."
"Well thank you Remus. I just didn't want Harry and Ron's friendship ruined just because Ron and I were no longer dating. I just didn't think it was right."
"And you thought right once again Hermione." Like always! God, why does she have to be so sensitive, smart and beautiful? he thought bitterly.
Hermione was walking up towards his desk and his sensitive nose could smell her discrete scent, it was enough to drive someone mad.
Since when did she look so grown up? but as soon as the thought crossed his mind, he pushed it away. She probably has some young hunk that she has a crush on, she could definitely get pretty much any guy that she wanted!
But then out of nowhere he sensed it, he knew it well enough, it was...arousal. His head jerked up and he made eye contact with Hermione, and at that exact second he understood what Ron meant when he said that he couldn't bear looking her in the eyes and tell her he was seeing someone else.
Remus knew he never wanted those eyes filled with hurt, ever, it would shatter his heart. Those beautiful, luscious honey-brown eyes, he could look at them for the rest of his life.
Hermione was now making her way around his desk and his heart began racing. He had so many thoughts flying through his head. She is one of your students Remus, you are her mentor, her teacher. You're not supposed to think of your students like this.
But as she got closer with each step, other thoughts began to run through his head. She is old enough to decide who she wants to be with, and she is a beautiful young woman. And if people really have true feelings for each other, then nothing else should matter. Right?
She was right in front of him and his breath was becoming short and ragged. Just as she started leaning forward, Remus quickly stood up.
"Hermione, I don't think that this is the appropriate thing for us to be doing."
Hermione stopped and looked at the ground blushing slightly, for some weird reason she felt as if he had feelings for her too. Obviously she was wrong.
"Sorry," she said quietly.
She turned away from him and began to walk towards the door, but as she reached out for the handle she turned around and looked Remus in the eyes.
"I'm truly sorry for putting you in such an awkward position Remus, please forgive me."
With that she opened the door and walked out, leaving Remus standing there feeling even more empty than he had felt before.
AN: I know this chapter is a bit shorter, but there still is a lot more to come! Please keep reading and reviewing, and I'll keep updating. Thanks!