Well guys I want to say hi… I have a good idea of what is going to happen in maybe the next few chapters. I was also thinking I wanted to really get this chapter done cause I have a fun and weird chapter I wanted to end… It will be short story and will be all in one chapter and will have nothing to do with story… But I really have no idea how to end this story so I may just write all day. I might just email all my fans and thank you all separately so be ready. I also wanted to say. This story sucks compared to my other one. I'm not going into to detail like I usually do and there isn't much suspense here. In my other stories I had more romance and more events but this story is just bland. Well You guys don't seem to think so, so I guess I will continue with my heart fully into this.

Chapter 17

Let loose

It was the 5th day of training and Only two more days to go before they would be called in for their mission. She had taught them almost everything. They learned survival and well the worst part that she thought she had to teach was cannibalism if there rations didn't hold out and if they were stranded. She helped most of them with their problems but her biggest was Vegeta himself. Just like a few of the others he had barriers but his were the worst and she herself knew exactly what they were. They were emotional barriers, she wanted to personally work with Vegeta but she wouldn't have the time and not only that he was to stubborn. Pan still had barriers up and they blocked the full force of her power, even she herself was to stubborn and afraid to work them out.

She watched as they carried out there duties on the world sized obstacle course, She had to study their team work and there skills in such thing as they had a limited use of the power. During this they could not fly and could only use a low level energy blasts. They all stayed together and weaved thru buildings and such and a certain points she had to interact with them by shooting energy blast and a level only to stun them or she would take out a whole building that was close to them and see how they escaped or if they stood there. They would be doing this all day and once they hit a check point at 0100 hours they would be able to rest for a 5 hours and set up camp then pack up and leave again. This was a bit boring for Pan but it had to be done.

The time passed by very slowly and she watched the three suns that stood in the sky as one slowly went down over the horizon and then the other two move higher. This planet only got two hours or darkness and that was during the day. Once the other 2 suns hit mid sky it would be time to rest well that is if they reach the check point and if they got there earlier then they got to rest longer. She knew they would be there soon and that meant more rest for her.

This training was just as accosting as any other. At least she wasn't the one who was going thru all this. She remembered her training and she felt honored now as she looked back on it. It was Conca who took on the task of training her and Conca was the one who discovered her barriers. Pan and a few other saiyajin females were being trained and instead of a week it was a month. Conca had called upon a few others to train the other girls while she took after Pan personally.

(Pan's POV)

The first day I was scared and felt out of Place, Eniguma had thought me all the facing movements for the formation but that was about it. I didn't know anything besides how I hated the Male saiyajins. She examined me and taught me how to do different styles of fighting and different types of high powered Ki blasts.

The one part I will always remember with full details was at the end of my training. When Conca and I began to spar. I remember that one day…

Conca began to walk in a large circle as she looked at the ground. "The whole time you were on that crummy planet, no one tough you how to fight, no one ever fought you, you never won." she said and it sounded as if she was taunting me but Conca was to nice to something like that so I pushed the thought from my mind as I started feeling ashamed of myself. I was still at the command of attention and had to stand there and look at Conca… I slowly trailed my eyes to the ground. I felt ashamed and I began to think about it more and more. The thoughts began to get to me as tears welled up into the back of my eyes and my throat burned as I continued to swallow thinking it would help. I closed my eyes thinking of a mental picture of a brick wall and began to think of myself placing more brick on top of it. The bricks kept my motions in check and my emotions were the water that the bricks held in. I kept telling myself that today wouldn't be the day that I cracked. That I would finish this training with little to no out burst.

To bad for me that wasn't true. Suddenly I looked up to find a fist coming towards me. I had no idea what to do. It was Conca, she was charging at me but she never gave me permission to move from my spot so I stayed and flew a whole football field length before my body scraped against the ground. Then once more Conca was there and she stood above me laughing and then her face grew serious once more as she picked me up by the collar of my fighting gi. "YOUR WEAK!" she yelled into my face. "You could have at least blocked but yet you did nothing but stand there and wait for your demise." She said and I had no idea what to say back to her but it hurt hearing this come from her mouth.

'But Con…" My words trailed of as she interrupted.

"No BUTs!" She yelled "You have no excuse, you are just a pathetic demi saiyajin who can't do anything! I don't know why I wasted all this time training you. Your pathetic and as soon as we get back to the ship your leaving!" she said angrily as she threw me to the ground which produced a yelp from my mouth as arched my back in pain.

The pain soon faded off as the pain of her words sank in. I was nothing. I would never be anything and I should just give up and die somewhere. I tried so hard and I tried so much to be something but in the end I would be nothing.

I slowly rose to my feet. After all this would I really give up. Would I try to get my revenge, would I never get the chance of life that I had hoped for since my child hood. NO!

I took a step forward and began to raise my power. If she was going to abandon me just like the rest then Fuck her. I would make her feel the pain I did and make her know my hatred. "NO!" I screamed beginning to fought in mid air. My power continued to grow and grow as I went higher into the air.

I looked down at Conca through tear blurred eye's and saw her looking back at me now. She had an evil smirk on her lips and her eyes looked very eager at me. "So you want to fight me now. I don't think you would last against me. I am the leader after all." she said very confident of her abilities.

I raised my fists to my sides and was about to charge but not without saying a few more words. "You turned on me just like the rest. You're the one who gave up not me. I become stronger with my defeat and you are the weak one. You're the one running away this time NOT ME!" I yelled and dashed from the sky as I began to throw fists at Conca in a flurry of wind. She blocked them all but then I threw a kick at her feet and swept her to the ground and went after her stomach hoping to knock the wind clean out of her. She gasped and could do nothing else. I stopped and began to power up a Ki blast. I aimed it at her face. I stared at her for a while seeing in her eyes all the other people that had hurt me. But then as they flashed By I soon saw myself in her eyes. I wasn't surprised that I had achieved S.S. 3 but I was scared cause I saw myself as one of those people, I saw myself hurting myself. I was so torn and I saw that. I looked deeper and finally saw Conca as well. She was no longer full of anger but now she was full of Pain and sorrow. Not for herself but for me.

She was pained for me. I raised my hand and shot the blast into the distance. I stared at Conca and couldn't believe what I had done. She gasped a few more times and then began to cough up blood. I powered down quickly and was soon filled with fear so I turned and Ran. I ran as far as I could and collapsed on my knees and wept. I wept for the world, I wept for me, I wept for everything and everyone who had hurt me and who I had hurt. I wept for the sake of everything that had lived in sorrow and that had lived in Pain as I had done.

I couldn't stop and I couldn't breath cause my tears were chocking me. I wanted to get away and I wanted to stop this horrible existence. How else could I do this but to die. How else would I do it. I would finally give up the hope to live. I looked around quickly at the ground and there was glass that had shattered from near by buildings. I grabbed a large piece quickly and stared at my wrists and then began to press it slowly in. The pain wasn't that bad but still it hurt enough.

Suddenly I heard a screech from the distance "STOP!" and then something grip both my arms. "Stop this Now!" I looked up into the eye's of Conca. She had come to me now, but why.

I struggled to get free but it was no use, I was accosted. "Please le let me go. I have to do this." I said turning my eyes away from her and dropped the piece of glass that had cut into the skin of my hand.

She released my hands and then dropped to her knees and grabbed my shoulders "Pan, I'm so sorry." She said and Her voice was chocked with tears and she suddenly embraced me tightly. "It was all a test. I didn't want this to happen." she said gasping thru her tears.

It was a test, that was cruel that's what it was. "How could you do something like that?" I asked as I tried to push her away.

"It was the only way I could get ride of your blocks. Your were sealing your own power away" She said letting go as she stood. She looked at me and then away for she felt ashamed of herself. "I won't stop you if you wish to leave." she said as she turned and began to walk back to camp.

This was the only home I wished to return to. It was my home now and I couldn't do anything else. I lifted myself onto shaky legs and stumbled as I tried to catch Conca. My head seemed to dangle on my shoulders and I blindly ran. "WAIT!" I yelled out as loud as I could and then I collapsed on the ground.

I couldn't do this. She was going to leave me to just like everyone else. I was going o be alone. I laid on my side then and curled up my tired body into a fetal position. Soon everything went black.

I woke up to find myself in the comfort of a hospital bed. Above me were the bright lights of the ship infirmary. I groaned as I tried to sit up. Some of my energy had returned but still not enough and my back was in a lot of pain. Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder. "Please you still need to rest" it was Conca so I did as she said. I laid back down and looked at her.

I smiled slightly and grew a serious expression on my face. "I will stay" I said plainly and then raised my hand and grabbed hers firmly. "As long as you promise me one thing I said" griping her hand a bit more." She nodded her head and leaned in towards me. "As long as you promise you wont leave me anymore." I said and let a tear a fear and hope run down my face.

She looked at me astonished and then grabbed me firmly in a hug. "Oh PAN!" she said happily "I won't leave I promise. I'll be with you as long as you want me to be."

I was the happiest I was in a long time. Every time I look back at that memory I was happy.

Later that night though I was called to Conca's Private chambers. I had no idea what she wanted to see me for but I was nervous.

I stood outside her door for a while till I got the guts to just walk in. She was sitting on her bed looking at her palm pilot and going thru her usual work and she looked up at me and smiled. She patted her hand on the bed as if telling me to sit. I did as she said "Just one second, I have to finish this up." and just as she said she was done within a few seconds and set it down.

She stood up before me and looked at me sincerely. "Pan I really needed to talk to you today cause it is about your current position in my Elite." she said and began to pace a bit. Now I was really nervous. "I am not sure if I have placed you in the right unite of action" she said and once more stood before me and stayed very still. "I have seen what you can do and well…" she waited a few seconds. "Well I am impressed." I was shocked but could say nothing but I just stared at her with my eyebrows raised.

Conca dropped to her one knee and Took my hands in hers. "Pan I wish to request something from you." She said and I nodded. "I have been searching out one of my best saiyajin warriors and I think you are the best. With just a little more training you will be perfect and you may even be stronger then me…" she seemed nervous and well I was as well. "I want to make you my successor, which would mean I will adopt you and with this after my death or if I am some how captured you will take the throne in that time." Now I really didn't have any idea of what to say. I just stared at her as she waited for m answer.

So I sat there and squeezed her hands tighter and nodded. "Yes…" I said still trying to find the words. "Yes I would be honored to" I finally finished the sentence. She smiled happily and hugged me.

That was the happiest day of my life.

I quickly shook myself out of my memories to realize that my unit had already found the check point were resting easy.

Well there it is nice and to the point… well I think it was at least… I hope you all liked it… I may add another chapter tonight after I am done doing all the things I need to do. Well I love you all my loyal fans… I hope I get around to emailing you all.