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Chapter 23

Ultimate test

Pan's POV

I looked at Nail and I really had no idea how he knew so much but he was the guardian after all and I should expect no less. "So do you wish to try to get them to fight anyway?" he asked. And turned to me and straed once more as he walked towards me not looking to the ground to see if anything stood in his path. "But I will make an earthy alliance and bring together the others if you wish. I don't think we will get to involed but we will protect you if we have to." he said. I smiled at him.

"Thank you very much Nail." I leaned down on one knee to him and spoke "As the soon to be leader of the Saiyajin Female Elite, I pledge my loyalty to any future alliance that may be held between us and the being of earth and the namician planet." I said with all sincerity as Nail placed his hand on my shoulder. It was nice to see I was doing a well job so far for I had made my first possible alliance.

"You will make a great leader Fuji Kira." he said as her put a bit of pressure on my arm to motion me to rise. I did so and he continued to stare at me more sincerely. "But you need to be more easy on yourself." he said to me and smiled. "Everything will turn out fine I am sure." he said "But now you should go back to the others, the ceremonies will start soon and your ultimate test will come." he said and waved his hand out to the direction that the camp was. I nodded and walked to the edge of the tower and left off. Goku stood behind a few seconds and thanked them before he followed me.

But I was soon stopped again as Goku put his hand on my shoulder. "Pan can I talk to you." he asked stopping me from flying and he held firmly to me to make sure I didn't move. "I just wanted to have a one on one talk with you is all. It's just a lot has happened since you've been gone and you have changed so much."

I felt nervous and sickened. I was just scared to talk, he wasn't who I knew anymore and I wasn't me anymore. It was just nerve raking.

He took his hand off my shoulder and looked into my eyes. "I want you to know I am still here for you. I hardly know you anymore but I still love you no matter what you do or what you will do in the future." he smiled but then grew a saddened expression again "You're my granddaughter and I hate for you to feel this way and by the looks of your body you are worn out and scared in and out."

I lowered my head as he seemed to force me to think of it all and it hurt so bad. I felt like I could cry but I didn't I refused to.

"Pan please for one last time will you open up to me and tell me how you feel, what is the matter, Please Just once let me hold you like I did when you were younger and you were hurt." he said and I was just so shocked in a way. This is what I tried to escape from when I left. I didn't want to be babied anymore but then at the same time I did.

"Grandpa…" I said silently and felt it roll out of my mouth in a painful way. "I cant' say… I can't say more then this but you and the others are why I left. Even you were the one who pushed me away." I said this silently but with much disgust and frustration. Goku could only stare at me with worry. "You say these things but you never truly knew me and I bet you never really want to know me for who I have become." I continued with that and kept my head down and clenched my fists so you could hear the metal squawk on my right hand. He looked at me and didn't seem to blink and he took this time to speak.

"Pan if I was the one who pushed you away, I'm sorry, I never knew. But trust me I don't want to push you away again, I just want to know you and I say that with all sincerity, I just can't stand the thought of you going thru this with no one there to help or to care."

This just frustrated me even more "That's why I left, when I didn't want help you were there and when I wanted you there the most you were gone. I tried to be strong and help all of you fight but I was always to weak and you all made me feel like I was just in the way and whenever you trained me you didn't even use any of your strength and you went easy on me." I was getting louder now and more emotional "You walked away when I needed someone though, not in battle but when I needed a shoulder and help from my day to day life." I said that part more calmly.

Goku came to me now and held out an arm and tried to embrace me but I refused. "Please don't touch me." I said silently. "You thick you can make everything up now, but you can't, its to late. The damage is already done and the scares won't heal." I said and there came tear flooding forward from my eyes.

"Pan, please. I know I can't heal all those wounds but I just want to help you from now on, to keep any other scars from burdening you." he said and once more came forth and this time I let him hold me. I laid my head on his chest a limply laid my hands to my side. I couldn't stand this much but it eased my worries for the moment and I let my tears come forth more and more.

I wanted to stay there a bit longer "please let me go, I have to get back, the ceremony will start soon." I said and pushed against him to let me go.

He held a bit longer until he kissed my forehead and held me away from him by the shoulder. "Will you trust me Pan?" he asked still seeming worried.

"Yes" I said clearing off the now cold tears away from my face. "now let us go so they don't get worried." I said and began to fly slowly and then sped up. I looked to the east to see the sun begin to set and smiled. My biggest challenge would start soon.

(Well this would be were I would normally post the story but I want to continue to write so that I can post something that will take you guys a while to read. So here you go. I was wondering something to. Could you guys tell me one specific par that got your emotions flowing or your stomach bubbling with the anxiety.)

I stood there as a number of people carried Conca's body out on a wooded stretcher. We were standing in a large dry canyon with no sign of plants or any vegetation at all. It was very dark but there were at least 10 people standing around in a circle with torches. When it came to the ceremonies there was no technology that was supposed to be used once so ever. They moved the body to the middle of the circle and as they set down the body the ceremony began.

I was nervous and saddened but I would not cry in front of the others. I was already cried out as it was anyway. I memorized all I had to do but it wasn't much and all the others seemed to have to do most of the work. A few people step forward and said a few things and then it was my turn.

"Now we pass you on to the mighty realm of the warrior were the great Yama will Grant you your passage to sit amongst all the great warriors." I waved my hand in the air before I formed a fist of my hand then slammed it over my chest and the others did the same producing a loud thud. Then the ones with the torches brought them forward and then placed it beneath the wooden stretcher and it quickly burned and the flames rose up and over the body. The canyon light up brilliantly but I was right about the stench. Burning flesh wasn't' something easy to stomach.

I could feel the eyes of my family glare at me and I hoped that Chi-Chi was alright about seeing this.

Soon a few more words were said and two people approached me and the one on my right began to speak. "Will you Pan Son of the saiyajin females kneel before her fellow sister and sacrifices ones life like the before you has done?" I knelt to one knee and answered.

"Yes"

Then the one on my left spoke. "Will you take the blade of your sisters and partake of the test that will follow so that we may know your strength." she and the other girl held forth a knife.

"Yes I shall take on the great quest as the others before me have done." I said and they took of the armor from over my body. And took the daggers and cut the top of my gi off and ripped it down revealing my breasts, but I was not ashamed. I was proud at this moment and excited but I never expected what was to come. I understand why Conca said I wouldn't be prepared.

I clenched my fists at my sides as they used the daggers to cut into my flesh making deep X shaped marks at my Collar bone and as soon as the blood began to flow they brought forth plain bronze chalices and collected the blood that spilt forth. The brought forth one after another till they had filled enough to pass around. Then the two girls spoke together. "Now let us baptize this night in blood my sisters and be drunk upon the life of the new ruler." As they spoke this I felt a daze.

I placed my hands on the ground to sturdy me but it didn't help cause my arms soon gave out. The blood surrounded my body and I heard Gohan gasp. But I couldn't tell them to stay there ground but everything soon grew black.

Meanwhile outside of the blackness and out of pans POV

Chi-Chi was the first to dash towards Pan but didn't make it for she was snatched up by Eniguma. "You mustn't go to her." she said and shushed Chi-Chi's whining.

"But she's hurt." Chi-chi spoke probably wondering why no one was helping her sister.

"It's okay, it is a test. If your sister passes she will become our leader. Your leader. Don't worry though Pan can do it. Just believe in her." Eniguma said sternly and let her grip loosen on Chi-Chi. The others heard the explanation for this and well there fears weren't eased once bit. She was going to bleed to death if no one helped her.

(well at this time it is 2:10 am and I need sleep so That way you know what I am doing at this specific time. Well finish in the morning… hope no one bugs me.) (well I am back and I just got done reading my fan fic that I wrote down on paper and it was so great … it was when Gohan was abusive… THAT'S GREAT)

back to Pans POV

I was surrounded in darkness as the sounds of the world I believed to be real disappeared. It was frightening were I was now. I felt myself falling but I couldn't see anything to grab on to or to stop my descent and then there was sudden jerk and I felt my stomach drop and I was no longer moving. I was now on my hands and knees and I lifted my head slowly to look around and I found nothing and this nothingness continued to spread and I felt as if I were loosing my mind. My eye's effused to focus as I felt them strain and move unwillingly wishing for a sign or a speck to focus on. I lifted myself to my feet and raised my hands to my face to see.

I jerked them further away cause I was shocked at what I saw. I no longer had my metallic arm but yet I had no muscular formations on my arms. They were as they had been when I left, weak and frail with no strong significant about them. I looked over the rest of my body and saw that I appeared naked. I was skinny and boney and I was disgusted. I breasts looked odd and small for they were still undeveloped. My mother called my a late bloomer all the time.

Suddenly I heard a voice. "Pretty digesting don't you think?" the thing asked but it more or less stated it. I looked around me as I covered my body slightly. I could see no one. "Can you not recognize me. My voice…" it asked and the words trailed of… I had no idea but I began to think. "Here I am then."

The voice suddenly grew a body. I was shocked to see who it was now. It was me, I really never paid attention to my own vice so that was why I had no clue as to who it was. But it was me and it appeared as the me that was at this current time line. She was also without cloths and the metal are was there and all but the only thing that was missing was the scar on her chest that named me as the leader.

"Your not me" I said as I made sure my body was covered enough.

The other me laughed at this "Your still ashamed of yourself." she said and began to point.

I guess I got frustrated and embarrassed. "You know nothing. This is my old frail body and I know that who my true self is. I have no reason to be ashamed anymore cause I have changed. I am strong and I have grown into a new woman" I said standing very straight and dropping my arms from my body, limply laying them at the side.

She continued to laugh. "Well …" she swayed her hand in front of her own body. "You certainly haven't turned out to be much of a beauty. You just and ugly muscular woman, you're a sore on the eyes, I don't know how Vegeta could even touch you." she said and then waved her hand again. "I looked at her now and she took on the form of my younger self and I took back my own body. "I rather have this weak body then the body of an old and ugly hag." she said and turned away from me.

She really did piss me off, I knew that she wasn't me cause there was no way I would tell my own self the things… So negative and hurtful. "I don't care what you say, Vegeta loves me and that is all that matters. He doesn't care about how I look." I said back forcing myself to think this is true.

She turned around and pointed at me. "Stop lying to yourself. I am you conscience and I know everything you think and do and say, you can hide Nothing from me so stop lying!" she said angrily and waved her arm again and suddenly an image of Vegeta stood between us. "I know your greatest fears." she said and then suddenly a scene was produced and I was in the Gravity room with him and the other me was gone. I as now wearing cloths and stood there. I had no idea what was happening. HE looked at me in hatred.

"You Disgust me brat!" he said and then walked closer to me.

I put my hand forward to touch his cheek lovingly so I could just feel if he was real. He slapped my hand away. The pain was real. "Vegeta…" I said desperately.

"Your worthless to me, you should have died when you left from here, but instead you chose to leave and you became this." he said looking me up and grunted in disgust. "Some filthy saiyajin female. You were only a piece of meat to me. That's it, nothing more." he said and took my chin in his hands and his onyx eyes showed no part of him "You should just die." he said very flatly and released me, he then turned and walked out of the room.

I couldn't believe this. No, it felt real, were was I, Who was that who looked so much like the man I loved. I dropped to my knees as I held my head in confusion as I began to whisper "its not real… none of this is real." I released my hands from my head and let them flop to the ground. "THIS ISN"T REAL!" I yelled and then the scene disappeared.

The nothingness returned and so did the other me, she laughed even more hysterically. "That is real, well it will be soon, it hasn't come to pass yet but it will and in the deepest depth of your body you know. You know that everyone you k thought loved you will leave you to your own problems and fears. You should know that." she said.

I stood up on my feet quickly "NO!" I screamed forth at her. "Your lying! They love me just as I love them, Vegeta is my companion and then the sisterhood is connected by blood and betrayal is not an option." I said but my brain was saying other things.

"Fine You wish to see more, maybe I can get you to see what I am saying." she said and waved her arm.

Then a battle appeared, all of my sisters were there, the battle was obviously on earth, the saiyajin males were attacking. It looked bad though… my fellow sisters were dieing and not a one of the men seemed to be falling, the killed the humans as well and took their time to rape ever last one of them before ending there life.

I stood there in terror, this was horrific, then I spotted Eniguma. She was fighting fiercely as she usually did but she was being ganged up on and I began to run to her to help but I was to late. She was stuck down quickly by the others and her body torn to bits. I blasted away the men to finally see her remains.

The men I blasted just stood again and ignored me as they went after the others. I tried to kill them by blasting them with all my might but nothing. Then I spotted Vegeta, but he wasn't standing, he lay upon the ground in a pool of his own blood.

I flew to him and took him into my arms. He wasn't breathing, he was cold and stiff. I held him and I cried and cried, ignoring the others around me.

"IT"S YOUR FALT!" Vegeta suddenly sat up and screamed in my face. And then the scene disappeared.

Then I was left in the cold nothingness. I didn't care to stand now and look for myself in the darkness. "You might as well give up now, you don't have what it takes. This is what will happen if you chose to take the position of leader.

I stayed on my knees. "I wont give up. I have to or …" Or what, is this what will really happen. NO I will change it I will. "I wont let this happen!" I yelled now "I won't let those close to me die, I won't let the others down." I said now and stood clenching my fists. I felt my power level rise and everything glow.

Then there came many voices from around me but I ignored them "you should just die" they all chanted by there chant seemed to give me strength.

Out side of Pan's mind

Pans limp body still laid untouched on the ground. An hour seemed to have passed and the blood on the ground had seeped in and the rest dried on her body with a mix of dirt. Then there came a sudden light and Pan, without moving herself began to stand upright and glow with a golden tint. The others stared in amazement as she appeared like a goddess to them. She raised her hands straight out as she began to lift herself from her own mind. She powered up no further then level one and stayed there until she was completely conscious.

She slowly lowered herself to the ground and then fell to her knees and spoke. "I have completed the task that has be demanded of me. Now I demand the throne." she said as a part of the ceremony and with this the crowd cheered and then began to chant. "Fuji Kira Fuji Kira" Pan stayed conscious as Genshi and a few others rushed to her. The wounds on her collar bone were sealed up by the dried blood and now she just need rest.

Genshi Raped Pan in a blanket and had the others carry pan into the ship.

Her family stood there wishing to know if she would be okay, Eniguma looked to them and smiled. Now that the test was over with she was sure Pan would be just fine. "Well shall we go and see our leader now." she said and began to walk to the ship as she waved for the others to follow her. Chi-Chi followed right behind Eniguma Eagerly and as she entered the ship.

PLEASE READ THE AUTHORS NOTE IF YOU WANT TO KNOW MORE.

WELL GUYS I HAVE FIGURED OUT HOW TO FININSH THE STORY OUT SO I HOPE YOUR NOT MAD THAT I WON'T BE CONTINUEING THIS STORY FOR TO MUCH LONGER. BUT I HAVE AN IDEA THAT WILL LET ME CONTINUE IT ONE EVEN FURTHER FROM THAT POINT BUT IN A REGUALR FASION. IN MORE OF A WELL ROMANTIC REGULAR WAY, I HOPE YOU GUYS STAY HAPPY WITH THIS.