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So shall we continue

Chapter 26/1 Kind of a new story so yeah

Living a non life

Pan's POV

I woke up gasping for air as I felt new and old cold tear sitting on my face and soaking my pillow and shirt.

The room was bright and was filled with all my things… I was all a dream. Oh thank god. It was so horrible. Was it a dream "oh well." I thought to myself looking around my room and smiling. "Everything's okay now." I said and lifted my fit over the side of the bed as I finally heard my alarm go off. I slammed the top of it to shut it off and walked over to my closet. I then looked to the calendar that was on the door of the closet and smiled. It was Friday. The day before freedom, but this was the day those guys usually picked on me. I usually felt nervous and depressed but I was just so happy. I quickly opened the door and picked out my out fit. It was a Black short sleeved shit and then I pulled out a pair of very baggy jeans, jnco. My fav cause they were so comfortable.

I quickly took of my night cloths and put on the shirt and pants. I hoped around a bit trying to get on the pants and head out of my room at the same time. I picked up my back pack that was by the door of my room and headed down the hall as I zipped and buttoned my pants. I headed to the kitchen then and saw a note from my parents. It read… well it was weird cause it read the same as if had from my dream. I began to laugh a bit then pushed the thought out of my mind "I guess I am psychic or something" and laughed hysterically. Then I grabbed a pop tart from the cupboard and began to fly through the air. I was just so happy today but I had a nervous twinge at the center of my being, I just couldn't forget my dream.

I soon got a mile or so from my school so I dropped into an alley so I wouldn't be noticed. I walked calmly now and grabbed a comb and mirror from my back and smoothed out my hair and then grabbed my bandana. I no longer wore a orange one but a black one… it had to mach my style of course.

Once I got to the school yard I wasn't disappointed. I stopped halfway up the side walk as they came up to me. The bullies of the school, today was the BEAT pan day to them. I always feared today but I was just not to bothered with it. "I don't want to fuck with you today." I said angrily. "So just leave before you get hurt." I said and they all began to laugh.

"Oh Panny I see you have some attitude today" the leader of the group said. "Well I guess we will have to just fix that." he said and the stuck a punch to my cheek. I didn't move a muscle but only my face turned to the side.

Then he removed his fist as the others kind of stepped back from me. "Holly shit" I heard one of them say.

"No its your turn." I said and I flew a bit of a powerful punch to his stomach and he grabbed my shirt and ripped it as he landed on his knees. I ripped his hand from me and kicked hi over. "You bastard, you ripped my shirt." and then I held my shirt up as I walked thru the hall way now and to the rest room. I quickly walked In and stepped in front of the mirror to see if the shirt was savable for the day. I would miss first period if I went home to get another.

I fidgeted with it for a while put then I just let it drop and that is when my heart stopped it seemed and my stomach boiled. I put my hand to my chest to feel as I looked deeper into the mirror till I finally looked down to my chest. It was true all of it cause it was there. The scar of the successor. The claw mark my the roman numerals weren't there anymore but the scar was. Why was this only left? No that wasn't the only thing going thru my head. Did everything go back to what is was supposed to? The tears backed up into my eyes. Everything that had happened was fresh in my mind. I had to see Vegeta.

I pushed out of the door and ran into Bra knocking her down but I continued to run. I ran till I found an alley way and I took off into the air. I headed for C.C. which wasn't far away. If I was right Vegeta would be in the back yard inside the gravity room. I landed in the back yard and hesitated to walk. I then quickened my passé and got to the door and my heart was beating harder with every step I hit the button and it seemed as if it took forever for the door to open.

But finally with my eyes blurred with tears I walked into the door and heard a voice. "Brat, why aren't you in school." My heart dropped and my eye's filled with tears, they came very heavy now and my knees grew weak and I gave up on standing and I just fell.

I sat there using my hands to keep me from hitting the ground a I continued to star at him "Your alive." I said and slightly laughed thru me tears. "It worked. You're here. Its all back to what it was." I said as my tears began to steadily cut back.

"What are you talking about Brat." he said walking towards me in his usual training apparel or tight spandex boxers and no shirt. I felt like I was going to melt as I heard his voice.

I snapped back to what he actually said. They no longer knew what had happened. I was no longer Fuji Kira. I was no longer a bi sexual uncommitted woman. But still I was. Those things had actually happened. I had actually done all those things. I had killed all those people and I had that such power. "I really don't know what I'm talking about." I said plainly letting my tear leave my face. I lifted my self to my feet as soon as I felt my strength return. I lifted my hands to my face and wiped away the tears. "I'm just glad that you're here." I said and smiled at him. I couldn't help it I lunged at him and hugged him fiercely and his reaction is just what I thought… He pushed me away.

"What do you think your doing Brat?" he said kind of angry and confused.

I smiled and began to laugh "I just missed you is all." I said and I just stared at me as he grunted. He walked over to the gravity room controls and turned the gravity down and then turned back around to me.

Vegeta's POV

I looked at the brat and suddenly I just thought of something. It was odd and arousing as I thought of it… wait it seemed more like a memory. Not a single part of this was something I thought up. The brat and I were standing in the gravity room together and we were kissing. She didn't look like herself though, she didn't have an arm and her left eye was scared. She was older and she was fully developed and has saiyajin armor on. She had a tail as well. We continues to kiss and I embraced her firmly and she traveled her hand down into my boxer and pulled out my… WOW! PUSH IT OUT OF YOUR HEAD! I screamed in my mind as I felt my face go beat red and I turned from Pan. How could I remember such a thing. It was Vile. She was as young as his own female brat and he was as old as her grandfather. It was disgusting. I was always attached to her but not like that… What am I thinking.

Pan's POV

I looked at him and wondered what he was thinking about as he stared at me. I really wished that he would remember those things that went on between us but there was no longer any feelings to act on but then suddenly I looked at him sternly and his face turned cherry red and I was now really wondering what he was thing of. But I might as well get as close to him now as I can… maybe that day when Bulma passes on will actually come. I might get a chance to step in. I really don't know. I could always train with him, Hey that's it. I WILL TRAIN WITH HIM. I thought franticly.

He turned back around towards me. "why did you come here brat?" he asked no longer red and no longer with an expression on his face.

"Well I really didn't feel like going to school today… and well I was wondering if you could train me." I said and smiled sweetly at him.

"NO!" he said loudly at me and kind of scared me for a second.

I wasn't going to take no for an answer "Why not? What, are you scared I would whoop you?" I said trying to provoke him.

"You could never do that. Your to weak." he said and crossed his arms turning away from me.

I thought he was wrong… even though I no longer had the power to go super I still had 5 years of extra training added onto me. "I think I could be a pretty good match for ya." a said and raised my nose to him.

"Well you want to find out." he said jumping into a fighting stance. I was happy now. I jumped into a fighting stance as well and then I began to remember. It was just like it used to be but in my old life. The moves I would use now are the moves that Conca had taught me. He looked at me peculiarly, I bet he didn't know who taught me and he would never know unless I would tell him. But enough of the though and time fore the action.

He charged at me quickly and I dodged and went past him but I wasn't quick enough and he landed a punch in the middle of my back and I turned before I hit the floor and landed on my back which was in even more pain now. I arched it but then he struck me in the stomach and forces me back to the ground. He knocked the wind out of me but kept pounding I quickly lifted my arms and grabbed his hands and then took my knee and forced it into his chest. And rolled him over. I climbed on top of him and pinned his shoulders down. I knew he could get away if he wanted to but he didn't move. I thought about this sexually for a moment and I felt myself begin so get aroused and then I gasped and quickly jumped ff him as I turned away and blushed.

How I longed for him so. To feel him caress my neck with his mouth, for him to take me into his arms and kiss me all over. How I longed to lie against his chest and fell her perfect hairless chest and that perfect build that I had memorized the first time we had been intimate. But now that moment wasn't real to him and if only I remembered it then was that memory really real. I still blushed a my breath was heavy from the exercise and from the memory. I was overwhelmed. I heard Vegeta stand and I tried to clear my head, but it was hard. I had done all this just to get him back but I didn't really have him back. I did but the Vegeta that loved me was no longer here.

I remember the things he told me and how he knew I truly was the best saiyajin that he had known and ever since birth, he said, he know I would be something great. Now that conversation never happened but did he still think it. He was right behind me now.

"What, was I to much for you to handle?" he asked mockingly and I turned to him my breath still a bit heavy and still somewhat blushing.

I felt the tears in the back of my eyes, I couldn't show him my tears. I would seem weak, but how else would I show him what was wrong. I wouldn't just blurt it out to him, maybe he would ask. I couldn't do anything. "Sorry I was just kind of surprised is all" what was that... I thought to myself. What was I surprised about. "Please lets continue."

"Were not going to continue till you clear out your head. I can tell you have a lot on your chest today." he said but he really didn't care but he also knew I wasn't going to be a good opponent if I was thinking of other things during the battle.

"NO!" I said stomping my foot and raising my hands to my sides in fists. "It's the only way I can clear my head." I said and looked at him sternly.

"I said I won't and that's that brat, so deal with it. You wouldn't be able to handle my training anyway." he said and turned from be and walked to the control panel. He hit a few buttons and then the machine beeped then I felt like there was a ton resting on my shoulder. I stayed standing though and I couldn't move much but then I powered up. It felt a bit better. And I began to do my stretches. "You won't be able to stand fro long Brat and you know it." he said and looked at me a bit as he as well began to do his stretches.

"I'm going to try anyway. I don't know how I will prove to you that I am a worthy opponent." I said and plopped down to the ground and began to do two handed push ups. I felt the sweat drip down my face and my pants an shirt were pulling me down as well. I went to my knees and struggled to stand. "Damn it!" I said frustrated with my clothing. "Vegeta, were are your fighting Gi's." I said noticing the rip that I still hadn't fixed on my shirt.

He pointed over to the wall were there was a little nook and a crease as it was a closet that was suck into the wall. I walked over holding up my pants knowing if I let go they would fall. I opened the closet and found many pairs of blue fighting gi's and then in the back there were two black ones. I smiled. Black was my favorite color obviously. I picked it out and then looked behind me to see Vegeta looking at me curiously. "You better turn around if you don't want to see anything." I said and laughed.

He grunted and then spoke. "You better not get dressed in here but just as he said that I let go of my pants and they fell tot the ground with a loud thud. And he quickly turned away.

"I warned you so don't blame me." I said and then took of my shirt. I was wearing a black thong (I usually never wore thongs but I felt today was special) and a black frilly bra with supporter wires. I slipped down the panties and placed my hands around my back and unsnapped the bra. "What a relief. I wish I could just train naked." I said smiling to myself.

"You better not!" I heard Vegeta grumble from behind me and I just smiled even bigger. I slowly and effortlessly stretched the gi over my legs and then up my torso and finally I firmly stuffed by breasts in place.

I turned now to Vegeta. "Hey do I look good?" I asked and did a few twirls. It was much easier to move now. He looked at me and then away.

"Why are you asking me?" he said stubbornly and then began to do one hand one finger pushups... I was kind of shocked he could do that, but he was strong.

"Well you are the only one here who can see me fully and well I hope I like true saiyajin." I said remembering what I used to wear when I was one of the Elite. TO me I still was one of the Elite. Would I ever see them again? 'were were they now. Probably Eniguma was in that jail cell in the darkness waiting for the others to come and break them out. But I wouldn't be there this time. I wouldn't see her darkly shaded face glow thru the darkness and I would never again touch her smile as I tried to seduce her but accidentally hit a ticklish spot. That always ruined the moment. I just can't stop thinking about them, but what else was I to do. Just forget them all and act like it didn't happen. But as I said before… to them it didn't happen, it never would. I changed the history of things right as I woke up this morning and fought back.

I could tell I was being overly silent cause Vegeta jumped to his feet and was now staring at me. "This is why I won't train you today." he said and had his plain face.

I couldn't reveal anything to them, they must never know and they already had forgotten and the only pain that was left was mine. The pain I lived with, I couldn't forget. Never forget the love, the pain, the sadness, the death, and the destruction of the 5 years I unknowingly lived. I keep saying this cause it was true and in no way could I express the loneliness that I now felt. I was alone cause no one could understand now. I looked up at Vegeta and seemed to mimic his face of no emotion but my eyes were filled with pain and hatred. "You'll never remember, you'll never feel that pain. But I will never forget." I said and then turned from him grabbing my cloths and began to walk out of the GR (Gravity Room).

As I stepped out the door I heard his voice. "I have o idea what has gotten into you brat but your training starts tomorrow so be down here at 5am." he said and then the GR door shut and I was left with my feelings. I pushed them aside and went inside the house and traveled up the stairs and halfway thru the hallway and into my room which was reserved for me when my parents were gone. I walked in and striped off the gi and quickly placed on my old cloths once more. I held the scar upon my chest and screamed mentally at myself for doing something so stupid.

Why would I let myself remember this but then if I hadn't I would have been the old me and the same things that had happened before would happed again. I did the right thing but it hurt so much and I couldn't get it to stop. The memory of the bleeding and dying Vegeta stayed in my mind as fresh as anything. The battle and the words he spoke to me. What was my grandfather going to tell me before I said my wish. It was driving me into a mad depression and I had no idea what to do about it. It made me sick and I couldn't stop feeling like I was being eaten from the inside out. (I know what it feels like when you bottle things up… it feels like you are going to get sick and you feel light headed and feel like something in your stomach is clawing and chewing to get out. You are always on edge and nervous).

I laid there and couldn't find anything to do. I watched the clock nervously and spaced out as I remembered different parts of my no life. That is what I shall call it now. The 5 years I lived was my no life for I never lived it in the sense of things. Most of the day passed this way till I finally heard a knock on my door, It was Bra "Pan are you in there?" she asked and I responded.

"Yes, come in." and she did opening the door slightly just for a peak and then fully stepped into the room and smiled with a bit of concern.

"Hey…" She said as I looked away from her as I lay on the bed and looked out the window. I heard her clear her throat and then come closer to me. She sat on the side of the bed which mad me slide more to the side but I scotched further away and stayed looking in another direction. "Are you Okay?" she asked gently as she put her hand nervously on my arm.

Wow things were different I guess, last time she didn't even care about me and now she was worried and very frightened for me it seemed. "Yeah." Is all I said and I still had a placid and emotionless face.

She began to move her thumb on my are as if to comfort. "Well, its just I heard that those guys were picking on you again today and well everyone said you fought back today." she said and then looked out the window along with me "It is just unusual for you to stick up for yourself is all…" she said and looked back down to me. "Oh, the principal wants to get a hold of your parents. You broke two of his ribs." she said and giggled. I was surprised and didn't show it.

"Well you think I will be kicked out of school?" I said but I really didn't care to know or to find out.

She finished her giggling spree and then smiled at me placing her hand on my forehead, she seemed like a mother at this moment. It was odd, "Don't worry about it, I am sure if you do your parents will understand. You fought back for once. That boy had what was coming to him. If you hadn't beat the crap out of him I am sure someone else would." she said and stood up with a gleeful smile.

"Thanks" I said coldly and then looked at her for once. She was kind of shocked to see my cold expression but went back to smiling before she tuned and opened the door once more to walk out.

"If you don't cheer up soon I may end up calling you Vegeta." she said jokingly and then closed the door as she continued to giggle. I looked over at the clock now as it read 4:30. Bulma would be making super soon. She always made everything up early cause she liked to get to her late night projects. I should go get cleaned up. Just wash my hands and clean of my face. It felt greasy cause how sweaty I had gotten when I trained. I sat up then looked down at my shirt. I walked over to the closet and looked at my selection of different black shirts. I picked out a loose long sleeved shirt and didn't really care how hot it was out side.

I striped off my shirt and threw it in the trash can cause I really didn't care to sew it up later. I walked from my room and then further down the hall and to the rest room. I opened the door to find a naked trunks standing there. He had obviously just gotten out of the shower and he smiled at me as he noticed my blank stare. I quickly slammed the door and turned around stunned. I kept my face looking down towards the red carpeted floor and thought. This was turning out the same, shit I have to avoid this, I can't let it all happen again. I won't go home today. I will stay here. I'll just lock myself up in the house or something. I Stumbled blindly down the hall and suddenly my memory flashed to the past remembering my collision but it was to late. I had hit a solid structure and Place my hand up to grab something to keep me from falling on my face.

I snapped my hand back quickly and couldn't help but to blush but not shyly but in frustration. How could I let this happen again. "Watch were your grabbing next time brat." he said coldly and I looked up. I couldn't believe it was the same. But I did something different so how can there same thing happen again… I had already changed the coarse of things… I had to change something. I stood up but kept my face down as I straightened my expression.

I looked up to him now as he was tuning from me and headed down the opposite way down the hallway. "Sorry." I said coldly and went on my way as my mind filled with the thoughts of what I was going to do. I then heard Bulma call up the hall way at the rest of us to come down and eat and I eagerly awaited the possibility of filling my stomach. It had been such a long time since I had eaten Bulma's food but that was in my no life. I had eaten it only a week ago and it was nothing special. I walked at a calm pace down the stairs and found my way to the kitchen. I sat at my usual spot and looked at the empty bowl which sat in front of me and the a big pot of rice in the center of the table and then a pot of curry.

I looked at Bulma and she smiled and I replied with a happier expression but mainly the emotion was contained within my eyes. I reached forward and grabbed the spoon and dug out at least a cup of rice and then only a bit of curry and mixed it around. It smelled hot but I didn't mind. I was happy to have non military food but then I kind of wished I was back in the SFE cafeteria with the smell of sloppy and disfigured food. The rations were filling as well but they didn't have any flavor though.

As soon as I began to eat the others came down to the table. And with all the worst luck in the world Trunks sat right beside me and Began to eat calmly as if I hadn't opened the door on in. To me he had done a lot more. He was the one who ruined everything. He caused everything. Everyone began to talk happily of what they had done all day and what they planed to do the rest of the day. I didn't speak though and soon I was shocked to feel the Trunks beside me rub my leg with his hand that he had placed beneath the table. My stomach twisted and this time I would have sworn I would be sick. I placed the spoon on the table and pushed his hand away as I pushed the chair away from the table. "Excuse me. I'm not that hungry tonight." I said and stood up walking calmly but quickly back op the stairs. I heard Bulma talking to Bra Vegeta and Trunk about what was wrong with me. I heard Bra tell her about me getting into a fight, I didn't care though cause that really wasn't what was wrong. Go ahead and let them think that. I went back into my room and sat on my bed.

I began to contemplate what it was I would do. I looked out my window again and began to hear thunder. Then the rain began to beat upon the house as The sky grew darker and darker. I loved the rain and it usually made me happy but this time it seemed colder then ever and it depressed me even more. I walked over to the window and opened it as the wind sprayed the cold ran in my face.

I was refreshing but it sent a shiver down my spin. Why not, I thought, I would just go and have fun in the rain for a while maybe my thoughts would be eased. I Swung my feet over the ledge of the window and jumped. I let myself fall halfway down to the second floor and caught myself in flight. I was instantly soaked and I didn't care. I dashed clear into the sky as I closed my eyes to protect them from the rain. But I saw the lightning flash around me. I stopped as I felt I was high enough for my breathing became a bit hard. The air was thin here but it was also clean. I coughed a bit till I heaved more air into my lungs. It was always a bit hard to go from polluted air to a clean environment just like that.

I looked below me to see the dark grey clouds and then I looked up to see the sun brightly shining. It always amazed me o see this. There were two sides to everything and this was the second side of rain. Dark on one side and bright on the other. I really wasn't in a bright mood so I began to lower myself to the ground again. I watched the lightning happily, I thought that it was the most beautiful thing ever. It was just so perfect in so many way.

I stayed near the CC but I stayed high above. I wasn't going to let anything like what happened before come to pass. I had to escape this hell once and for all or … or what. I just couldn't figure this out. I would just go and do all the things again and again till I finally went insane with this hell. The pain would increase every time and then would I just snap. Would I wake up and then just kill myself. Would I ever end up being that hurt that I would begin to just beat myself up literally about all this. I couldn't think of it. Not now. I Finally let my tears fall again over my face.

What better time to cry then now. No one could see me here and if I was to be seen it would be hard to notice. I slowly lowered myself to the ground and covered my face with my hands. I was cold and numb both physically and mentally. How could I do this? Why was I being so weak now? I really couldn't be called a Saiyajin anymore. I was showing to much weakness. I wasn't level headed enough.

As I thought these things I felt the mark on my chest pulsate and a warm wave went thru my body and then I saw something, in my head that is. It was the image of Conca, she was sitting at her throne with her hand outstretched to me and with a loving smile. I shook my head vigorously and blinked trying to get it out of my head. "Damn-it!" I yelled trying to get it all out of my head and finally the image disappeared. I let my hands drop to my sides as my hear beat with fright. I was so scared and I didn't want to be. I was scared of remembering. I was scared of everything.

"What do you think your doing out here brat?" I looked up to see Vegeta Standing near the Gravity room. He probably didn't care but most likely felt obligated. I felt the rain ease and then the clouds move away revealing my soaked and raged body.

I hoped my eyes weren't red or swollen by the tears but I still knew it didn't matter. "What ever I want." I said coldly and straightened my facial expression. I didn't want to sound cruel but I didn't want to be nice either. I wanted to stay close to him but I didn't want to fell emotionally close to him. So I would keep my stern face and clench fists up the whole time I spent with him. I walked over to him and just looked up at him seemingly disgusted and then I turned and went to enter the back door.

"Well since you seem so energetic and level headed you can join me in the GR for a spar." He said and I heard him Open the GR door. "Be down here in 5 minutes or I won't train you tomorrow." he said and with that the GR door closed and I entered the house dragging my soggy cloths along with me.

WELL HERE IT IS … THE STORY OF VEGETA AND PAN… I COULD STOP IT RIGHT THERE BUT I'M NOT MEAN I REALLY HOPE YOU LIKE THE DETAIL AND LENGTH OF THIS ONE. IT IS UBER GOOD I THINK. IT HAS THE LENGTH OF 3 AND A HALF CHAPTERS. I WILL KEEP WRITING TONIGHT BUT I THINK THE NEXT CHAPPY MAY BE UP AT 8:00 TONIGHT… WELL IN 3 HOURS OR IN 4 WHO KNOWS. I KNOWN THAT THIS CHAPPY WILL MAKE IT UP WHILE MOONLIGHT IS STILL READING I HOPE. YOU SEEM TO BE MY MOST DEVOTED PERSON SO FAR, WELL RIGHT NOW YOU ARE LOL.