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:Soda's POV:

I walk beside Johnny holding to his hand until we enter the building then I cartwheel around before grinning wildly at everyone and say to him "Twobit would have a field day in here." Johnny laughs softly almost like he's afraid of the nice people at the store and says queitly "Yeah, he'd only need a t.v. for Mickey Mouse then he'd be in heaven." I flash anouther smile at some old ladies hoping to dazzle them and tip my invisible hat polietly. Dally stares at the people like they have two heads and Ponyboy looks worried. The old men pass us with curt nods of their heads and the ladies smile sweetly. I flip in the air and land on my feet as gracefully like a cat.

Despite my cheerful attitude and seeminly playful antics I can only feel the pain of knowing my lover may leave me shadowed by a desperate need to express my love for him, to make him mine completly. How can I tell him that I love him when he loves my brother so completly? I have noticed that he seems to advoid Pony, but that's probably the guilt. I jump into a handstand and begin to walk that way laughing when children point at me with giggles erupting from their tiny mouths. Johnny looks up and says softly "We passed the bread aisle." Pony shrugs quickly before running back to get a loaf and returning shortly later as Dally picks out some lunch meats ignoring the bolagna that seems to jump out at us. "Is Johnny okay?" I look at my brother and nod saying "Yeah, fine. Why?" He glances at the puppy of a boy walking beside his blond idol and says "Just seems distracted." I nod in agreement wondering why Johnny had me swear upon my life that I loved him and wouldn't leave him for someone else.

:Johnny's POV:

I know that Soda's pretending to be happy, when you know someone as well as I know him you can tell, and to tell the truth it bothers me. It's my fault he's unhappy, I don't deserve him. What makes him love me in the first place? I couldn't live without him, though. His golden hair is brushed back by rapid hands as his browns dance with fear and dessire. What is he afraid of? I've never known him to be afraid of anything. Pony is staring at me again, he's been doing that alot lately, and I try to ignore it eventhough the guilt is killing me. I try to take my mind off of the two brothers and look at the shiny lighter with envy, now that's a tuff lighter. Soda picks it up and nonchalantly slips it into his pocket whistling. "Can we talk a bit later?" He nods saying in a defeated and sad tone I've never heard him use before "Why not, I already know what you're going to say. We drive back with no incidents and I glance at Dally wondering what gives him the ability to act so calm and tough when his life has been so hard. I would have fallen apart. "When do I have to watch that sunset, kid?" I shrug and say "Dally, you'll be able to tell." I hadn't said it in a cocky way and that's probably why I hadn't been hit.

Soda pulls me into the woods the second we get out of the car calling after him "We need to chat, so Pony keep Dally entertained." Ponyboy had nod almost as if he knew that this conversation was about him. As soon as we are alone Soda kisses me with as much hunger and passion that leaves me weak. "You're leaving me for him and I just want one last memory," he says as he tugs up my shirt and places rough kisses upon my chest. He sucks lightly on my neck and runs his fingers down my back gently carrassing the wounds. "Soda..." I begin only to have anouther hungry kiss silence me. "I'm not leaving you," I finanly blurt out and his sensual assualt stops as he tilts his head in curiosity. "I'll tell him about us, all of it, and if he hates me then I'll deal with it. I'm going to tell him that it's over between me and him." A passionate kiss is my answear as fingers pull at my hair lovingly.

The sun is setting as Soda removes his clothes and pulls my bare form into his arms lovingly. His sweet kisses upon my bare shoulders sends shivers down my spine. Soda's gently sucking is leaving me breathless, eventhough he has sucked on my cock and only made me sexually excited, but this is different...I can feel his love pouring out with each suck upon my neck. I fall against him watching the pinkish tones in the sky play across his shoulders. The golds and pinks are like his soul, solid, true and beautiful. He's naturally happy and loving. He shines like the sun with smiles and an easy grace.

Where I once saw Ponyboy as the light in my never ending dark I now see Soda.The love I felt for the green eyed boy was more out of pent up lust and protection. The wind howls almost cursing me for being such a betrayer but Soda's soft carresses are the sweet promises that keep me in my place in his arms. I seek my angel's hands as he trails kisses down my chest and pull him up before he reaches his goal for a desperate kiss upon his luschious lips. His tounge moves across my teeth before pushing through to dance with my tounge. Browns soon are replaced by greens and redish tresses take over the blonde hair as guilt seeps into my thoughts once again. "NO!" I push him away and stare in amazement when I only see Soda standing there. "Johnny," he asks worriedly as he begins getting dressed. I stare at my own clothes near his feet and say fearfully "I could have sworn that you had become your brother. I don't want him, I want you. Am I going insane, Soda?" He helps me into my clothes and says "No,honey, it's your mind playing tricks on you." I shrug into my jacket as he comments "Nice bruises." I groan looking at the ground and say "Might as well get this over with."

I lower my gaze as we approach Pony and Dally, there was no way to deny it anymore exspecialy from Dally, he ain't dumb. "We've lied to you, Pony," Soda says before sitting down next to his brother and pulling me down close to him. His hand lingers in mine a moment longer than usual as he says "Sandy got pregnant by some guy then killed the baby and, finanly, she took off with some other guy.I would have stayed with her, but now I've met someone new." Shyly I meet Ponyboy's gaze then look at Dally, who pretends to ignore us for the sunset, and say "It started about a month ago and I found him at the DX looking depressed. We began talking and that led to..." Soda stops me from continuing and says "I took advantage of him, but somehow we stayed together after that. We've been secretly seeing eachother since that afternoon till now." Ponyboy nods eventhough his eyes read pain and betrayal then he asks "Did you take his virginity?" I blush a bright red and bury my head against Soda's chest as he says "No, he's still innocent." Dally glances at us with eyebrows raised and I hope he doesn't go into a tirade on how he lost his virginity way before he was my age, but he only says "So, you actually cheated on Soda?" I shake my head and admit "We never made it official so I guess that means I never cheated, at least that's what Twobit said when I asked how he could see so many girls." Ponyboy glares at everyone then demands "Why'd you lead me on? Why did you claim to love me?" I sigh and reply "I thought that I did love you. I am really sorry, Pony. If I would have known that what I felt wasn't love anymore I would have never gotten envolved with you like that."

:Pony's POV:

He's sorry! He knew what he was doing! How can he be sorry for something he commited on prupose? And my own brother, of all people he choose Soda? I stand up and try to remain calm as I run my fingers through his hair. He didn't cheat on you, he cheated on your brother. I release an angry sigh and ask "Who else kept this from me?" Soda looks so distressed and Johnny weakly says "I tried to tell you, but you wouldn't let me or I chickened out. I'm sorry." I stare at him and say angrily "So am I." He clings to Soda like he's a saving device or something. Dally just sits there with that smirk on his face and says "Really there's no reason to be mad, so what if your brother got to him first. He never said it was over." Johnny looks at Dally wide eyed as he straightens up a bit and I say "He doesn't love me." Dally snorts as if I'm an idiot that he needs to teach a lesson and says "Who said you need love in a relationship." Johnny groans and says "Dally, please stop. It's over between us, Dally. I love Soda and I want to be with him."