Hey everyone! This is my first Fan-Fic ever, well I've written 2 others but
they've kinda been written as I've written this one so I've been too scared
to post them but how else am I gonna get any feedback to see if I can
actually write, so this is my fav out of them. Anyway I'm 15 and I live in
Australia so I've only seen up to Prelude and I do not want to know
anything so I will kill anyone who tells me anything...lol.
Chapter 1
"Sydney! Sydney! What's wrong! Syd!" Vaughn yelled as he ran down the hallway of the Los Angeles CIA operations centre after Sydney Bristow. "Syd," he said as he reached her and grabbed her arm to face her towards him. "Sydney, you know that you can tell me anything," he said raising her head so that she would have to make eye contact.
"No, no I can't, not anymore" Syd said tears streaming down her face, there was no way she could tell him the information that she held in her hand, she couldn't ruin his perfect marriage to perfect little blonde Lauren, anyway how was she supposed to blurt out that he was the father of her little girl and little boy, children that Syd didn't even remember herself.
It hurt him more than he could ever say the way that Syd had looked at him and the words that she had said, "I am always going to be here for you, I still love you more than ever just in a different way, I never want to lose you again, you know that anything you need, I am forever here to help you for anything" he said emphasising the last word.
"Right now it hurts too much, maybe...maybe we shouldn't be near each other anymore" it pained her to say those words to the man she loved but she knew they were necessary, "It's too hard to see you and know that...that you're gone"
"I'm here, I'll always be here"
"No you're hers now, not mine, I love you too much to hold on to you" she paused "please let go of me"
He obliged and watched without a word as she continued down the hall trying to hold herself together, it affected him so much that he was the reason for her pain and that he couldn't hold her to make things better, he couldn't change the past and that was how it was always going to be, maybe she was right maybe it was better for her if she moved on, then why was it so hard to let her go and let her leave him again both physically and emotionally? He kept watching long after she had rounded the corner and was out of sight.
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The shrill noise of Vaughn's mobile woke his sleeping form, rubbing his eyes so that the red blurs from his alarm clock could form numbers, cursing softly when he read the time quickly answered it. "Vaughn" he said as he looked over to his wife to see if the ringing had woken her up, he was in luck she had slept right through it.
"Mike thank god you picked up"
"Weiss, what the heck man do you know what time it is?" he growled into the phone
"Sorry to wake you from the peaceful snores of the ice queen but I actually called for a reason" he said sarcastically
"It better be better than to make fun of my wife" Vaughn had always known that Weiss hadn't liked Lauren very much but had recently, as in since Sydney had come back, had been showing it a whole lot more, usually in sarcastic comments but sometimes it escalated to full out yelling between his best friend and wife, which made him have to always pretend to side with each party even though he secretly thought that they were as bad as each other, and if they could get through their stubbornness, the two could *surprise* *surprise* actually be friends.
"Sydney's gone missing again," he said in full seriousness
"What!" Vaughn yelled, he quickly glanced over to his wife, releasing the breathe he had been holding when he realised she hadn't even been stirred by his surprise.
"Its different this time, she just packed all of her things, left a note and was last seen at LAX boarding five different planes, a ploy that Jack believes is to buy herself time & possibly to disappear forever"
Vaughn could tell that Weiss was clearly upset having to relay this information to him, information that he himself had probably only had for an hour or so. "I'll be there in 15mins"
"If you dare bring that self-righteo..."
"She's not coming Weiss"
Weiss was upset at being cut off on his tirade against the evil Lauren Reed but at least her dimwit husband was clever enough not to bring her but he clearly wasn't clever enough not to marry her. "Ok, I'm here already, Bye"
"By..." he was cut off by the dial tone, when all this was over and Syd was safely back home in LA, his best friend was in for some serious butt kicking.
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What did that letter say? Who was it addressed to? Those were just some of the thoughts running through Michael Vaughn's head, he was walking into the ops centre at 3 in the morning and was not in a good mood, why would she just leave again and put everyone she loves through the same pain again?
"Mike, about time you showed up" Weiss said from the conference room
Vaughn was about to say a sarcastic remark and then punch him the face until he noticed Dixon, Marshall, Carrie must have been at home sleeping and Jack sitting with Weiss all wearing matching scowls to the one he had on.
"Agent Vaughn sit down" Jack ordered "We have lots to discuss before we send out a team to find Sydney"
Vaughn sat obediently he didn't need to give Jack anymore reasons to hate his guts, breaking his daughters heart was enough ammunition for Jack to kill him and dump his body in a gorge somewhere. "What did the note say?"
"It was addressed to you of all people Vaughn, so we haven't opened it yet" Jack said
Me? Why me? Vaughn didn't have more time to ponder why he had been giving this *honour* as four angry faces were watching him waiting for him to open the envelope
Vaughn,
I know that you probably don't understand why I have written this letter to you, I am guessing that you are opening this surrounded by a group of people that this letter should have been addressed to. I have no idea why I picked you but I did, we left on bad terms and I guess I must want to amendment that, but now that I realise it, we will never meet on good terms ever again, too much has changed between us, my entire world was turned upside down and now that I'm back I have no idea what happened, you have no idea how hard that is for me, the man I love has married someone else, everything I know is two years old, my two best friends Francie & Will, she's dead & he's in the witness protection program. I finally have a clue as to a part of what happened in those two years, I am going to find out what I can, and I will not be back when I do find what I'm looking for. Please do not come after me, I am leaving because it's my only option; I under no circumstances want to be found. Please try to understand where I am coming from, try to picture what it was like for me to be around you & around everything that used to mean safety, happiness, it used to be home, it's not home anymore and I don't think it will ever be home again. I know that my father will probably want to send out a team to search for me, but please tell him to respect my wishes and not to come after me. Vaughn please take care of everyone I love, my dad, Dixon, Weiss, Marshall & Carrie & their baby, but most of all yourself, I am safe, I'm going to be happier so please make this transition easier for me by not having people chase me around the world.
Yours Sincerely,
Sydney
"Well what do we do now?" Weiss inquired to the older agents
"You heard what she said she doesn't want to be found" Dixon answered
"What do you mean we're just going to let her go?" Vaughn said angrily
"We can't just let her leave and start a new life away from us? We at least need to try." Jack said
"No I believe that we should search for her, but..."
"But what! Dixon what!" Vaughn was irate now
"But Agent Vaughn, I don't believe that we are the right people to do so, we are all too emotionally attached to Sydney"
"Who better than the people who love her?" Vaughn was yelling now
"Fine! Start your own investigation, you will have all the funding you need, Agent Vaughn we all care about Sydney and want her back safely soon but for that to happen we need to work together" Dixon said matching Vaughn's tone
"Thankyou, I'd like to review the LAX security tapes"
"Agent Weiss will fill you in with all the Intel we have acquired, I believe that most of us would like to get some sleep, this meeting is adjourned" Dixon said sleepily
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"Ok Mike, this is all I know, promise me that when I have finished you will let me go home and sleep" Weiss said
"Fine, go" Vaughn said a little aggravated with the lack of agents wanting to stay and help him start his investigation, well in his defence Jack had tried to stay, but working with Jack Bristow at 4 in the morning was something that he would most likely be telling a shrink in his later years had sent him over the edge.
"She was seen boarding 5 different planes at LAX bet..."
"I already know that, tell me something useful"
"Do you want to here this or not because there's a bed calling my name right now?"
"Sorry, I just have to find her ok"
"She was seen boarding 5 different planes at LAX this morning between 12:20am and 1:15am, the five planes all had different destinations: Chicago, London, Paris, Ontario & Melbourne"
"USA, UK, France, Canada & Australia, she could be anywhere in the world by now"
"She wasn't using a body double just lots of different wigs and outfits, the only reason we know the boarded these planes was because she bought the tickets using her passport and sh..."
"Kate Jones?"
"No hers, Sydney Bristow"
"Huh?"
"Yeh I know it gets more confusing, each time she boarded a plane it was definitely her, we put each picture through the face recognition program, the only thing is no one from those planes ever boarded and then walked off"
"So how did she manage to board five planes?"
"All the planes were still at LAX when she was last seen boarding the last plane to Ontario, she could have boarded all five, somehow gotten off each plane without being seen and boarded which ever one she was really intending to go on but in disguise, we've tried the face recognition program on every person that was on either of those planes" Weiss paused "we've got nothing"
"So she's going to be in either of those countries soon, we've got to send scouts out to all those airports"
"Already done, but Syd's smart, she would have to know that we'd be looking for her anyway, those scouts are probably not going to help but it's worth a try anyway."
"Have we checked all passenger lists for any of her known aliases?"
"Yep we've tried all the LAX lists and know we're onto the airports that she could be arriving at, we have found some of her aliases on the LAX lists but we regarding it as a distraction, but yes we are still checking them out, we haven't got much faith in them but they are the only leads we have at the moment."
"Sydney is too clever for us to rule out anything at this moment, I should get analysis on the letter"
"They've already started, do you really think that Jack would wait for you?"
"No that did sound a little off"
"Mike go home, get back into the coffin you share with the vampire, everything that can be done has been done, we have well-trained agents covering things for us here, they have promised that if they find anything, anything at all, you will be the first person that they call, Jack being the second, so if I were you I would get here ASAP after they call"
"Weiss, do you know what new development she found to make her run away and look for more clues to her missing years?"
"Mikey, if I knew anything more you would already know about it, although if anyone should be asking that question it should be me, video surveillance said that you were the last person Syd talked to yesterday before she left work, and apparently it was a heated discussion"
"She didn't tell me anything, just that she can't trust me anymore & that it would be better if we didn't see each other anymore and she was crying"
"Mike, she loves you so much that it hurt her too much to be around you and your insignificant other, go home Mike or I will be referring you to Barnett" and with that Weiss left
Vaughn stayed rooted to his chair, only moving to lay his head on his desk and fall asleep, his last thought was of Sydney.
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Chapter 1
"Sydney! Sydney! What's wrong! Syd!" Vaughn yelled as he ran down the hallway of the Los Angeles CIA operations centre after Sydney Bristow. "Syd," he said as he reached her and grabbed her arm to face her towards him. "Sydney, you know that you can tell me anything," he said raising her head so that she would have to make eye contact.
"No, no I can't, not anymore" Syd said tears streaming down her face, there was no way she could tell him the information that she held in her hand, she couldn't ruin his perfect marriage to perfect little blonde Lauren, anyway how was she supposed to blurt out that he was the father of her little girl and little boy, children that Syd didn't even remember herself.
It hurt him more than he could ever say the way that Syd had looked at him and the words that she had said, "I am always going to be here for you, I still love you more than ever just in a different way, I never want to lose you again, you know that anything you need, I am forever here to help you for anything" he said emphasising the last word.
"Right now it hurts too much, maybe...maybe we shouldn't be near each other anymore" it pained her to say those words to the man she loved but she knew they were necessary, "It's too hard to see you and know that...that you're gone"
"I'm here, I'll always be here"
"No you're hers now, not mine, I love you too much to hold on to you" she paused "please let go of me"
He obliged and watched without a word as she continued down the hall trying to hold herself together, it affected him so much that he was the reason for her pain and that he couldn't hold her to make things better, he couldn't change the past and that was how it was always going to be, maybe she was right maybe it was better for her if she moved on, then why was it so hard to let her go and let her leave him again both physically and emotionally? He kept watching long after she had rounded the corner and was out of sight.
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***Bring! Bring! Bring!***
The shrill noise of Vaughn's mobile woke his sleeping form, rubbing his eyes so that the red blurs from his alarm clock could form numbers, cursing softly when he read the time quickly answered it. "Vaughn" he said as he looked over to his wife to see if the ringing had woken her up, he was in luck she had slept right through it.
"Mike thank god you picked up"
"Weiss, what the heck man do you know what time it is?" he growled into the phone
"Sorry to wake you from the peaceful snores of the ice queen but I actually called for a reason" he said sarcastically
"It better be better than to make fun of my wife" Vaughn had always known that Weiss hadn't liked Lauren very much but had recently, as in since Sydney had come back, had been showing it a whole lot more, usually in sarcastic comments but sometimes it escalated to full out yelling between his best friend and wife, which made him have to always pretend to side with each party even though he secretly thought that they were as bad as each other, and if they could get through their stubbornness, the two could *surprise* *surprise* actually be friends.
"Sydney's gone missing again," he said in full seriousness
"What!" Vaughn yelled, he quickly glanced over to his wife, releasing the breathe he had been holding when he realised she hadn't even been stirred by his surprise.
"Its different this time, she just packed all of her things, left a note and was last seen at LAX boarding five different planes, a ploy that Jack believes is to buy herself time & possibly to disappear forever"
Vaughn could tell that Weiss was clearly upset having to relay this information to him, information that he himself had probably only had for an hour or so. "I'll be there in 15mins"
"If you dare bring that self-righteo..."
"She's not coming Weiss"
Weiss was upset at being cut off on his tirade against the evil Lauren Reed but at least her dimwit husband was clever enough not to bring her but he clearly wasn't clever enough not to marry her. "Ok, I'm here already, Bye"
"By..." he was cut off by the dial tone, when all this was over and Syd was safely back home in LA, his best friend was in for some serious butt kicking.
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What did that letter say? Who was it addressed to? Those were just some of the thoughts running through Michael Vaughn's head, he was walking into the ops centre at 3 in the morning and was not in a good mood, why would she just leave again and put everyone she loves through the same pain again?
"Mike, about time you showed up" Weiss said from the conference room
Vaughn was about to say a sarcastic remark and then punch him the face until he noticed Dixon, Marshall, Carrie must have been at home sleeping and Jack sitting with Weiss all wearing matching scowls to the one he had on.
"Agent Vaughn sit down" Jack ordered "We have lots to discuss before we send out a team to find Sydney"
Vaughn sat obediently he didn't need to give Jack anymore reasons to hate his guts, breaking his daughters heart was enough ammunition for Jack to kill him and dump his body in a gorge somewhere. "What did the note say?"
"It was addressed to you of all people Vaughn, so we haven't opened it yet" Jack said
Me? Why me? Vaughn didn't have more time to ponder why he had been giving this *honour* as four angry faces were watching him waiting for him to open the envelope
Vaughn,
I know that you probably don't understand why I have written this letter to you, I am guessing that you are opening this surrounded by a group of people that this letter should have been addressed to. I have no idea why I picked you but I did, we left on bad terms and I guess I must want to amendment that, but now that I realise it, we will never meet on good terms ever again, too much has changed between us, my entire world was turned upside down and now that I'm back I have no idea what happened, you have no idea how hard that is for me, the man I love has married someone else, everything I know is two years old, my two best friends Francie & Will, she's dead & he's in the witness protection program. I finally have a clue as to a part of what happened in those two years, I am going to find out what I can, and I will not be back when I do find what I'm looking for. Please do not come after me, I am leaving because it's my only option; I under no circumstances want to be found. Please try to understand where I am coming from, try to picture what it was like for me to be around you & around everything that used to mean safety, happiness, it used to be home, it's not home anymore and I don't think it will ever be home again. I know that my father will probably want to send out a team to search for me, but please tell him to respect my wishes and not to come after me. Vaughn please take care of everyone I love, my dad, Dixon, Weiss, Marshall & Carrie & their baby, but most of all yourself, I am safe, I'm going to be happier so please make this transition easier for me by not having people chase me around the world.
Yours Sincerely,
Sydney
"Well what do we do now?" Weiss inquired to the older agents
"You heard what she said she doesn't want to be found" Dixon answered
"What do you mean we're just going to let her go?" Vaughn said angrily
"We can't just let her leave and start a new life away from us? We at least need to try." Jack said
"No I believe that we should search for her, but..."
"But what! Dixon what!" Vaughn was irate now
"But Agent Vaughn, I don't believe that we are the right people to do so, we are all too emotionally attached to Sydney"
"Who better than the people who love her?" Vaughn was yelling now
"Fine! Start your own investigation, you will have all the funding you need, Agent Vaughn we all care about Sydney and want her back safely soon but for that to happen we need to work together" Dixon said matching Vaughn's tone
"Thankyou, I'd like to review the LAX security tapes"
"Agent Weiss will fill you in with all the Intel we have acquired, I believe that most of us would like to get some sleep, this meeting is adjourned" Dixon said sleepily
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"Ok Mike, this is all I know, promise me that when I have finished you will let me go home and sleep" Weiss said
"Fine, go" Vaughn said a little aggravated with the lack of agents wanting to stay and help him start his investigation, well in his defence Jack had tried to stay, but working with Jack Bristow at 4 in the morning was something that he would most likely be telling a shrink in his later years had sent him over the edge.
"She was seen boarding 5 different planes at LAX bet..."
"I already know that, tell me something useful"
"Do you want to here this or not because there's a bed calling my name right now?"
"Sorry, I just have to find her ok"
"She was seen boarding 5 different planes at LAX this morning between 12:20am and 1:15am, the five planes all had different destinations: Chicago, London, Paris, Ontario & Melbourne"
"USA, UK, France, Canada & Australia, she could be anywhere in the world by now"
"She wasn't using a body double just lots of different wigs and outfits, the only reason we know the boarded these planes was because she bought the tickets using her passport and sh..."
"Kate Jones?"
"No hers, Sydney Bristow"
"Huh?"
"Yeh I know it gets more confusing, each time she boarded a plane it was definitely her, we put each picture through the face recognition program, the only thing is no one from those planes ever boarded and then walked off"
"So how did she manage to board five planes?"
"All the planes were still at LAX when she was last seen boarding the last plane to Ontario, she could have boarded all five, somehow gotten off each plane without being seen and boarded which ever one she was really intending to go on but in disguise, we've tried the face recognition program on every person that was on either of those planes" Weiss paused "we've got nothing"
"So she's going to be in either of those countries soon, we've got to send scouts out to all those airports"
"Already done, but Syd's smart, she would have to know that we'd be looking for her anyway, those scouts are probably not going to help but it's worth a try anyway."
"Have we checked all passenger lists for any of her known aliases?"
"Yep we've tried all the LAX lists and know we're onto the airports that she could be arriving at, we have found some of her aliases on the LAX lists but we regarding it as a distraction, but yes we are still checking them out, we haven't got much faith in them but they are the only leads we have at the moment."
"Sydney is too clever for us to rule out anything at this moment, I should get analysis on the letter"
"They've already started, do you really think that Jack would wait for you?"
"No that did sound a little off"
"Mike go home, get back into the coffin you share with the vampire, everything that can be done has been done, we have well-trained agents covering things for us here, they have promised that if they find anything, anything at all, you will be the first person that they call, Jack being the second, so if I were you I would get here ASAP after they call"
"Weiss, do you know what new development she found to make her run away and look for more clues to her missing years?"
"Mikey, if I knew anything more you would already know about it, although if anyone should be asking that question it should be me, video surveillance said that you were the last person Syd talked to yesterday before she left work, and apparently it was a heated discussion"
"She didn't tell me anything, just that she can't trust me anymore & that it would be better if we didn't see each other anymore and she was crying"
"Mike, she loves you so much that it hurt her too much to be around you and your insignificant other, go home Mike or I will be referring you to Barnett" and with that Weiss left
Vaughn stayed rooted to his chair, only moving to lay his head on his desk and fall asleep, his last thought was of Sydney.
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