Author's note: Hahaha! My cable got cut and now I'm writing this because I have no internet. Gomen for not updating sooner, but the real world beckoned me to its evil ways of going to work and chores around my house. Hahaha!

I'm so pitiful without my internet. I can't even watch the news or watch adult swim on Cartoon Network anymore…not until it's reconnected…which is today (So that's why I'm writing this, understand)! So in apology I'm writing a longer chapter this time.

Ok, now I'm having an official poll, so do you guys want Shuichi to live or die?

Think People!

Live

Or

Die

Another official poll, which matters on what the first poll turns out, so now I'm really going to start counting these things, who do you want Shuichi to be with?

Yuki Eiri

Or

Seguchi Touma

Or

Yuki Eiri and Seguchi Touma

You choose…

Muwahahahaha

Rating: R

Warnings: Severe unstable author, sex, rape, and drugs. Oh and OCC Yuki and Touma.


Some Pasts are Murky and Clouded

By Yardat Sama

Chapter 13


" It has become abundantly clear that our technology has surpassed our humanity."

By Albert Einstein, (1879 – 1955),(Discovery of The Atomic Bomb)


Yamaguchi's eyes glinted as he looked up at the vial he was holding up to the light of the moon. It was a red coloring, but it was in the color of blood red which even made it look more terrifying.

It was Shindou Shuichi's cure.

This would stop the death of the pink haired singer who was lying on his death bed right now, Yamaguchi thought as he looked past the vial and at the hospital that he was right in front of.

He wanted he little doll right now, he wanted to play with him, make him scream, and moan in pleasure and in pain. He wanted his doll to beg for him and to cry for him. Oh how he wanted so many things!

Yamaguchi glared at a window of the hospital, knowing that his doll's little protector was behind those walls and how his dolls kept crying for him to save him. It was unfair! Why does his doll cry for another when he should be crying out for him!

He's going to enjoy killing that little blonde man and ripping out his heart, he thought as he twirled the vial around in his fingers.

" Sir," A voice broke into his thoughts, " Sir, is everything alright?" Yamaguchi frowned as he saw the police officer at his side, and put his hand in his coat, and smiled maliciously as he saw no one was around.

" Actually, there is something you can help me with." Yamaguchi whipped out a knife and stabbed the man in the head so hard he broke through the skull. Instantly the police officer was dead and fell to the floor and Yamaguchi picked him up and went to an alley way.

A few minutes later he came out of the alley way wearing the police officer's clothing, and carrying his own clothes.

Everything was going his way…


" In the intermediate phase, swiftly developing complexity within the system hides the risk of imminent chaos. But the risk is there."

Ian Malcolm, ( 'Jurassic Park: The Lost World, the Book)


Earlier that day…

" Oi, boss! You here?"

" Yeah," a voice breathed sounding harsh, " What the hell do you want?" The two men Haru and Fuji came into view and sat down in front of their boss, " Well, what the hell do want?" Their boss repeated again.

" Did you hear about Shindou?" Their boss chuckled and pulled out a cigar and lit it, all the while chuckling.

" Of course I heard about that idiot. It seems that blondie didn't take that much care of him, even though I warned him about Yamaguchi. And I'm surprised that Yamaguchi even found out who Shindou was staying with," He breathed out smoke and looked in Haru's direction, " Or should I be surprised?" He asked wryly.

" He threatened my daughter." Haru stated simply.

" Did he now? Did he threaten that he was going to play with her, if he didn't get the information? Or did he say he was going to fuck you until you screamed the information or did he do something else?" He asked amused.

Haru looked like he was going kill somebody that somebody their boss, so Fuji intervened, " We didn't come to make trouble, and we just wanted to know if you knew that Shindou escaped from Yamaguchi?"

Their boss sat up and put his cigar down, " No I did not. You do know that Yamaguchi will be after him even more now right?" The two nodded, " Well then I hope you gave blondie some good references to a crematory or a cemetery then right?"

Fuji slammed his fists on the table, " God dammit Takashiro! This isn't fucking funny! We heard that Shindou is dying from some stupid chemical in body that Yamaguchi gave him. We heard that it'll eat his body from the inside out." Their boss now known as Takashiro looked away.

" That drug huh?" The two looked at him confusedly.

" You know about that drug?"

Takashiro nodded, " A long time ago, that drug was given to inmates at a prison somewhere in Siberia as a test project. Some government wanted to make it into a biochemical of warfare, but the results were too horrific, and the government abandoned the project and the facility, but not before destroying all their research, and their scientists.

Takashiro picked up his cigar again, " They killed their scientists so that they could never reveal the secrets of what they did. They made an antidote but the color of the antidote didn't even seem too good, for it was the color of blood. They called it the ' Curse of life.' Don't ask me why, but that's what they called it. Anyway, there were reports that one scientist got away with a sample of the drug and the antidote and he was lost with history. Nobody knows what happened to him."

" Do you think he's Yamaguchi?" Fuji asked.

Takashiro shrugged, " If he is. Kill him when you find him, it will be a blow to the world if that drug ever got out."

" Do you have any advice on how to find him?" Haru finally asked. Takashiro let out a breath of smoke and looked at them.

" Keep near Shindou at all times. Sleep in his room, go to the bathroom with him, and just be near him like he was your own flesh and blood. I trust you Yamaguchi will be after him again. Whatever you do, don't let Yamaguchi get out of there alive." They nodded and walked out the door.

" Hey boss," Haru said poking his head back in, " How did you know about that facility in the first place?"

Takashiro looked at a picture of him and a few smiling men all wearing the same uniform except one who was wearing a white coat, " I was an officer of the security guards at the facility. We shot the scientists when we were ordered too. I lost a friend that day. He was a scientist."

Haru nodded and closed the door.

" I'm still a fool aren't I?"


" It amuses me to think that a body could be strong and big, but still have its life taken away by such a small thing like a needle or a bullet."

Excerpt from Yardat Sama's personal journal


" Tou…ma…"

Seguchi Touma looked up sleepily into violet eyes that were staring down at him in disbelief, " Shuichi-kun! You're awake, hold on I'll go get the doctor!" Touma was about to stand up when a hand caught his wrist.

" Stay…please." Touma sat down again and took Shuichi's hand in his own.

" I was so afraid that I wouldn't see you again, Shuichi-kun," Touma breathed out softly pressing his face into hand he was holding, " I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to hold you again." He looked up to see the violet eyes start to cry.

" I…was so scared Touma…He did things to me…oh god! He did things…!" Shuichi broke off as he started sobbing, Touma grabbed him in a hug, and Shuichi cried as he buried his upper body into Touma's chest.

" What's going on?" Shuichi looked up to see another blonde at the doorway.

" Yuki!" He voiced out happily, despite his tears. He had never thought that he would ever see the blonde author again, " I'm so happy that you're here." He said as Yuki came nearer to the bed.

" Shuichi…" The author said softly as he sat on the other side of Shuichi and held his other hand, " I'm so sorry Shuichi!" He said brokenly as Shuichi stared in amazement at the man, " I never listened to you, I'm sorry for everything I did! I didn't even let you explain about Seguchi or anything else!"

Shuichi smiled, " Then you don't think of me as dirty or tainted?" The taller blonde shook his head.

Touma smiled at the scene but inside he was green with envy, knowing that Shuichi would rather be with the author than with him. But he put it aside and smiled at the pink haired man who in turn looked at him and smiled.

" Shuichi, why didn't you tell me before?" Yuki questioned as he looked the singer in the eye, " Why didn't you let me help you?"

" I didn't want you to think different of me Yuki. My life wasn't as you thought it was. The Shindou's aren't even my real family, and everything I am practically is a lie. I want you to love me, but," He broke off and looked at the two blondes in front of him that stared at him as talked, " But I love you both. I don't know who to choose anymore!"

Yuki and Tohma couldn't say anything as Shuichi started to cry, but then Tohma took Shuichi into his embrace and said, " Don't over stress yourself Shuichi-san, everything is going to be alright, and you don't have to decide who to love right now. Isn't that right Eiri-san?"

Yuki nodded and held Shuichi's hand again, " Everything is going to be alright, Shu-chan." Shuichi looked at them both and smiled one of his true smiles that made them smile back at him, including Yuki.

" I'm glad." Shuichi said relieved.

But then all of a sudden he started to cough and hack and bent over trying to suppress his coughs but to no avail, " Shuichi-kun! Hold on I'm going to call a doctor!" Tohma pressed the button next to Shuichi's bed and then ran out the door.

" What's…wrong with…me!" Shuichi said covering his mouth with his hands.

Yuki got Shuichi some water and when he looked at Shuichi again, he saw something that horrified him, blood was seeping out of Shuichi's hands from his mouth and large amounts of it, he ran to the doorway and roared, " WHERE THE HELL IS THE DOCTOR! WE NEED A DOCTOR!"

" Move out of the way!" He heard from down the hallway, and saw a medical team running towards him. The doctor started spouting medical terms to the nurses, and Yuki moved out of the way as they made their way in Shuichi's room.

" His body is dying isn't it?" Yuki said to no one, but was startled when a voice appeared from behind him.

" Yes, it is. He's dying because of that drug in his body. And we can't do anything about it until we find Yamaguchi."

" You don't have to worry about that." A new voice said from behind them, and they whirled around to see two men standing there.

" It's you two." Tohma said recognizing them.

" Nice meeting you again Seguchi-san, but you see you don't have to go looking for Yamaguchi, because Yamaguchi will find Shuichi. He never wants to let Shuichi go, and will be back for him. So he'll try the hospital, but Fuji and I will be keeping guard over Shindou."

Yuki glowered at them, " Seguchi told me about you guys, so why now? Why the 'good guy' act now?"

" We wanted to help Shindou, because we never had before."

" So in a way this is retribution for all the things you've done in the past." Tohma said trying to ignore the medical team still working Shuichi's room.

Haru shrugged, " To me it is, I don't speak for Fuji."

Fuji scowled, " I never liked what we did to Shindou in first place, and he was just a kid that was in a bad place at a bad time." Tohma nodded.

" Did something to Shindou?" Haru asked.

" He started large amounts of blood, five minutes ago." Yuki said sitting down on a bench in the hallway. Fuji looked down at the ground and shook his head.

" I hope Yamaguchi burns in hell for this."

Yuki snarled, " There won't be anything left of him for Kami-sama to judge after I'm done with him." A voice chuckled from behind them.

" It's nice to meet you too."

They whirled around to see a white haired man in a police officer's uniform standing there, looking very smug and with an air around him that gave them the chills.

" You!" Haru growled.

" So tell," Yamaguchi smiled, " How is my little doll?"

Yuki lunged.

To Be Continued…

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