Woo! Chapter 4 ish up already! ::does happy dance:: As always I must thank my readers. I would never have gotten anywhere with this story if it weren't for your encouragement. ::huggles you all:: And I ask your forgiveness in advance for writing an uneventful and slightly angsty chapter...but it had to be done for later chapters. And I think I'm going to post my replies to your comments after the story. XD That way you get to the story first! Anyhoo, enjoy!


Chapter 4: Disappointing Answers

D was busily fixing tea and barely even noticed Leon as he walked up behind him. The room was warmer than usual for some reason. T-chan was nowhere to be found, not even Pon-chan or Q-chan were out. Leon glanced at the tea and decided he could at least stay for a cup and maybe a snack. Besides, it wasn't like he had anything better to do at the moment. He peeked tentatively under the couch before smirking and quickly taking a seat. Good! That little goat-thing won't bother me today. That's the last thing I want to see on my time off...though it's kinda odd that none of the other animals are around...and it seems really quiet in here. He shook his head and looked up in time to see D walking in with the tea. The kami sat daintily across from him, still seeming to be off in his own little world as he silently sipped at his tea.

"Ahem...well I um...I just stopped by to apologize for what happened yesterday." said Leon, breaking the uneasy silence. "I didn't mean to run off like that...so yeah...I'm sorry." He looked at the floor between his feet. Rarely did he admit he was wrong, much less apologize, and to D, of all people.

The kami gave a nod in acceptance but said nothing. It struck him as odd that Leon didn't even mention the incident before him running out. His stomach lurched at the memory. He tried to shove the fluttering away but to no avail. With the hansom blonde sitting directly in front of him, it was very difficult to think of anything but him.

The room went quiet again. D was sipping at his tea in a desperate attempt to calm his stomach and keep his eyes from wandering. Leon was fidgeting, trying to fight the strange urge to stay but unable to come up with a decent reason to leave. The only sound was the ancient clock ticking the seconds away. As vast as the room was, Leon felt like he was in a closet. The walls seemed to close in around him, making D the only thing in sight. Finally, he'd had enough.

"Well, looks like I better get going...there's a few things I need to get done. Thanks for the tea..." Leon muttered quickly as he stood, heading toward the door. D nodded quietly but his eyes held a bit of sadness as he peered over the rim of his cup at the hansom detective. Leon paused a moment, his hand resting on the door handle. "I was meaning to ask you...Jill said you called the station and asked if I was ok...why? What reason do you have to be worried about me? He turned halfway to look at D, confusion in his eyes.

D slowly rose from his seat, slightly surprised at Leon's question. Isn't it obvious? Every time you walk through that door, this room, this place is filled with happiness. Even when you're angry and we bicker over the simplest things, I can't help but smile. You make me happy, Leon, no matter what anyone thinks about it. I would never forgive myself if something were to happen to you...I love you... He sighed, planting a smile firmly on his features.

"You are my friend, Leon." he said quietly. "I care very much for my friends. I can't help but worry about them." He grabbed the tray of tea and untouched sweets from the table and walked off to put it away. By the time he returned, Leon was gone. He won't come back this time. I blew my chance to tell him...but I wonder if it's not for the best. Perhaps he would be better off not knowing and I better without him all together. He stared sadly at the door that would forever separate him from what he truly longed for.

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Leon ran a hand through his hair as he drove back to his apartment. D considered him a friend and was concerned about his safety. That's it. Nothing more, nothing less. But why do I feel so damn disappointed? What was I expecting him to say? Better yet, what the hell was I wanting him to say? He sighed, pulling his car into the parking place. He was too deep in thought to notice Jill's car parked next to his, but she made sure he noticed her.

"Leon Orcott!" she practically yelled into his face in an incredibly motherly tone. "Where the hell have you been? Your cell phone's tuned off, you didn't return my call this morning...what if the chief had caught you gallivanting around?" She pointed an accusing finger at him but he simply shrugged and walked past her to unlock his door.

"Sorry, Jill, but could you come back later? I promise I'll explain everything but I just need some time to myself right now. There's a lot of things I have to think about." He wandered slowly into the living room, leaving Jill on his door step staring after him in complete and total confusion. I think I'm beginning to understand...but I need time to think without distractions. I'm tired of running. I'm tired of lying. But most of all, I'm tired of things coming between us. I refuse to hide my feelings anymore. I don't care whether D returns my feelings or not, at least he'll know. And I certainly don't care what the guys at the precinct think. He glanced at the clock and nearly fell over. It was after 10 o'clock! He sighed as he walked to his bed, not even bothering to change as a sudden bout of exhaustion hit him. He curled up under the sheets and a small smile graced his features. Tomorrow will definitely be an interesting day...


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