Spiders

Joydrop

When love was fresh

Like a web we'd mesh

Nothing felt better

Than your flesh against my flesh

One fatal slip

One rip and tear

Touch me now and every single hair

On my body stands on end

So don't touch me anymore

Because it feels like spiders

Like spiders all over me

In the darkest corners of my mind

They creep

Underneath my pillow at night

When I sleep

Those hands I once longed to feel

I want to squash them under my heel

So don't touch me anymore

Because it feels like spiders

All over me

I never thought it would end this way

I never thought I would see the day

I never thought I would hear myself say

'Don't touch me anymore'

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She misses being young sometimes. She misses the way he used to make her feel. When she used to ask him out every day, even though he always said 'No.' She used to make excuses to touch him, to hold him. Until everything came crashing down that night. When any trust or desire she ever had was defiled and twisted beyond her grasp.Now she shiesaway from any contact from men. Even him. She still remembers how much she had wanted to be his girlfriend, but now she can't ever imagine feeling that way again. She shudders at the thought of kissing. Now her memories keep her awake at night, laughing at her. She can't sleep for the horrors awaiting her in her dreams. She'll lay awake and think of him next door, remembering how she used to feel holding him. Since then she had become stronger, to fight off the men if they ever returned from the dead, from the shadows. She can feel their hands on her still, pulling, hurting her. They wanted her dead; they wanted her and she had hated it. She still haes it. She hates all of them, but she doesn't.If the girl from two years ago could see her now she would yell at her, not believing how she could turn away from him. "You still have a chance!" she would yell. "He wants you now!"

"But I don't." she replies.

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Author's note: This was written with a different format that doesn't translate well into so here it is in all it's lameness. At least before it looked cool.