Spiders
Joydrop
When love was fresh
Like a web we'd mesh
Nothing felt better
Than your flesh against my flesh
One fatal slip
One rip and tear
Touch me now and every single hair
On my body stands on end
So don't touch me anymore
Because it feels like spiders
Like spiders all over me
In the darkest corners of my mind
They creep
Underneath my pillow at night
When I sleep
Those hands I once longed to feel
I want to squash them under my heel
So don't touch me anymore
Because it feels like spiders
All over me
I never thought it would end this way
I never thought I would see the day
I never thought I would hear myself say
'Don't touch me anymore'
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She misses being young sometimes. She misses the way he used to make her feel. When she used to ask him out every day, even though he always said 'No.' She used to make excuses to touch him, to hold him. Until everything came crashing down that night. When any trust or desire she ever had was defiled and twisted beyond her grasp.Now she shiesaway from any contact from men. Even him. She still remembers how much she had wanted to be his girlfriend, but now she can't ever imagine feeling that way again. She shudders at the thought of kissing. Now her memories keep her awake at night, laughing at her. She can't sleep for the horrors awaiting her in her dreams. She'll lay awake and think of him next door, remembering how she used to feel holding him. Since then she had become stronger, to fight off the men if they ever returned from the dead, from the shadows. She can feel their hands on her still, pulling, hurting her. They wanted her dead; they wanted her and she had hated it. She still haes it. She hates all of them, but she doesn't.If the girl from two years ago could see her now she would yell at her, not believing how she could turn away from him. "You still have a chance!" she would yell. "He wants you now!"
"But I don't." she replies.
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Author's note: This was written with a different format that doesn't translate well into so here it is in all it's lameness. At least before it looked cool.
