Hey everyone here is my next chapter I like how this one turned out I really do!

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Chapter 11 Wish I was dead

It had been about ten minutes before Kurama was able to leave Hiei with Yusuke to get a plant to knock him out for a while. When he returned it didn't take much to get him to sniff it and soon he was out

"You weren't kidding when you said Hiei wanted to kill himself." Yusuke said as Kurama put the now sleeping Hiei on the bed.

"I'm afraid not, and he's been like that for a few days now." Kurama explained as they went of the room and into the dining room were Kuwabara stood with a petrified look on his face.

"Uh guys what do you want me to do with this?" He asked sword still in hand.

"Well it's no use hiding it, his Jagan could find it easily. We'll just have to have to make sure he doesn't get it for a while." Kurama explained, this was obviously stressful for him and he made no effort to hide it.

"Yeah you're right why does he want to kill himself anyway?" Yusuke asked (I'm not sure if he said that already or not.)

"Like I said he finally admitted to Yukina about being her brother. From what I hear I guess he said something wrong to her and had to lie to get out of it. It's only natural for him to feel bad about it now."

Yusuke and Kuwabara understood how Hiei must feel but they all remained silent.

Hiei's P.O.V

I'm awake but I'm not, I'm still alive but I'm dead. I know what's going on around me, and yet I wish I didn't.

How can this be, how is it that I can continue to live on despite my flaws? Why won't they just let me die? I have done so many wrongs in my life.

Looking back on it now I wish I had never willed myself to live when I was thrown off that icy cliff. (All right that was a proven fact that I got from my DVD; I just thought it sounded good for this part.)

Why is it that when you finally rid yourself of one tragedy you just experience another one?

I have experienced way to many of these tragedies and I guess you could say it has made a permanent effect on my form that cannot be changed.

A/N: Sorry it was so short but I thought this particular chapter would be good just leaving it there, please review and tell me what you thought of Hiei's part! I thought it was awesome!