When walls come closing in:
Wednesday, 25th, month of the falling leaves, year of rebirth
After a few hours sitting in front of the bar, thinking if what I did was right, if I had made thing even worse by leaving him, I decided to return to the palace. The people passed in front of me more often, staring at me like I was some kind of a hobo. Some of them even stopped in front of me and stared, nodding their heads and making sounds of sympathy or disapproval. I never raised my head to look at them; I didn't see them worthy of my gaze. No, I'm lying; I didn't want them to see the tears falling down my face, mixed with rage and fear. It's strange how the two emotions always come together, like if they are dependent of each other, like… like me and Dax.
Figures entering the Naughty Otssel, stupid little people, obsessed with their petty little lives, with insignificant things like what to wear, where to eat, who to go out with, who to live with, who to love… All of a sudden their lives had more meaning than my own, still I hated them. Maybe because they had all the things I wished for so badly, because they were given a chance to live their lives as they wished, not as it was chosen for them.
A little kid stepped in front of me and bent down to face me.
'Why are you crying mister?'
His eyes blazed like both of our Suns together.
'Nothing kid, I'm not crying, everything is all right.'
'Then why are your eyes red and your face dripping. My face is always dripping when I cry; my mom told me my face would melt if I continued crying, so I stopped. I don't want my face to melt; I don't know where I would get a new one.'
I laughed my first good laugh in a very long time. The kid was really nice.
'Don't worry, my face won't melt, trust me.'
'Then you're special, like Mar was?'
'I guess I am.'
'Wow, when I grow up I want to be just like him.'
'You don't say…'
A woman ran in front of me grabbing the child, she probably thought I was about to hurt him, people always judge things by what they seem not by what they are. I raised my head to look at her but I only saw her eyes widening in fear.
'MONSTER! There is a monster in the port! Guards help us!'
Soon after I realized I had begun to take my dark beast form. It has become more frequent, and I never knew it has happened; it scared the shit out of me.
The FL guard was quick to take action, Ashlin trained them well. Soon the whole area was filled with tall people in blue armor. One of them grabbed me by the arm and turned me around to face him.
'Lord Jak, I mean king Mar!'
'Leave me alone, I can find the flyer to home myself.'
He immediately let me lose. All the people were staring at the incident, and they had begun to talk. Shortly after people came out of the bar to see what had happened, episodes are rare here since Ashlin took charge. More and more people came, forming a circle around me, and Dax was there, looking at me with shock, almost pitying. I looked at him back and turned around entering the flyer. The door closed, closing with it a part of my life.
