"Girls Weekend"
Disclaimer: I do not own One Tree Hill
Note: Sorry about the week delay. I had my first swim meet of the season. If you know anything about swimming I swam in my favorite race the 100 free and got a 1:16.64! May not sound too good but I beat my last season "Meet" score, which was 1:28 something by 13 seconds. And my "JV Conference time which was 1:19.62 by 3 seconds! I am around 8 seconds away from the varsity cut! And I beat my best friend by 2 seconds, which I may add she stated as she hugged me when I got out of the water. So on thus she says she is going to kick my butt in that race. I won 1st place, which was fun. I won't bore you anymore, but I will try an update again soon but I broke my finger in practice this week so it takes some time to write chapters. I will try and update before school starts on Thus.
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"You really trust Nathan and Lucas with them?" I asked her as I grabbed a can of soda out of the fridge and sat down on the couch next to her. "Of course," she replied grabbing the soda out of my hand and taking a sip. "Luke would never let anything happen to Cody or Jessy, he loves them way too much. Besides he knows he would have to deal with me." She joked, a smile spread across my face. Brooke smiled with me until she noticed my smile fade. "You know he would be playing with them right now." I said my smile starting to fade.
Sometimes when I least expected it, my thoughts would drift to him. What he would be doing right now, how old he would be. What he might look like. I knew that he would be just as cocky as Nathan but yet sweet and kind like Lucas was when we were kids. I hated that I would never know, that all I could do was wonder.
"Nathan and I have been talking about him a lot." I said breaking the silence. We had never really talked about him. I think that she was too nervous to bring him up and I was always afraid that I would break down if I talked about him. But ever since Nathan and I had talked I was ok with talking about him. It helped. 7 years of trying to forget couldn't be healed until I was ok about what had happened. "I think that he would look just like Cody, except with Dark hair." I added. "Yeah you're probably right," she said with a smile. "I don't think I would trade in what happened." I said. She was confused by this, not understanding what I was saying. "What do you mean?" she asked me. "I mean if I had to choose between having him for only a month and never have been pregnant, I would choose having him in a heartbeat." I replied. "He was so special, he was just like Nathan even at just a month old. I could lost in his eyes, they were so much like his." I said. For the first time tears didn't threaten to fall. I was happy remembering the time I had with him.
"He was always a happy baby." She said smiling. I remembered how he would always smile at anything Nathan did. "Yeah, he almost never cried. He loved when I would set him in his bounce on the table so he could watch everyone. That's the one thing that he was different then Nathan. He didn't need all the attention." I said almost giggling. "Nathan always did need all of the attention." Brooke added. We were both laughing now remembering how Nathan loved to be the center of attention no matter what it was for.
"Prom was so much fun with all the kids." My thoughts turned back to my conversation with Nathan just a couple nights before. "Nathan and I were just talking about that the other night." I replied. "I put the picture of all of us on my desk, Clark asked about it." I told her the smile slowly fading from my face. I still felt so bad about lying to Clark. I wanted to tell him that Michael was my son and that Nathan and I were married, or well are married but I just couldn't bring myself to do it.
"What did you tell him?" she asked me. "That he was Nathan's son." I replied looking down at my shoes. I felt ashamed for not admitting that he was my son. "Does he know what happened?" she asked almost reading my face. She could always do that. Tell what I was feeling when I didn't want to tell her. "I explained that he died of SID's a couple weeks after the picture was taken, but he never brought it up again so haven't either." I replied.
"Haley you need to tell him that you and Nathan were married." I knew that if I brought up Michael I wouldn't be able to avoid talking about our marriage. "Well actually Brooke...we're still married." I said not wanting to look up. Brooke had thought that Nathan and I had gotten divorced after I left and I guess that neither Nathan nor I had ever told anyone different. We were the only ones that knew we were still married until now.
"WHAT!?!?" She screamed. I felt a twinge of quilt for keeping this from her for 7 years. "I never sent the papers, and well he never knew where to send them." I replied. "You told me you sent them years ago!" she screamed. She obviously wasn't too happy with me for lying to her.
"I wanted to, but I just couldn't." I replied in my defense but I knew that it wouldn't help me any. "So that makes it right?! Haley you're engaged!" "I know Brooke!" Believe me I know! Nathan already drew up the divorce papers; all we need to do is go to court. Then we'll be divorced and Clark and I can get married." I replied.
"You are going to tell him aren't you?" she asked me now in her normal voice. "I want to, but I'm afraid he'll be mad at me. I mean I have kept this from him for this long, why do I have to tell him now?" I asked. I knew how stupid my logic was but I was scared about telling him. "I swear Haley you really don't think things through sometimes." She replied. I really didn't know what she meant by this but I don't think she meant for me to understand it.
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