„Beep,….beep" the monitors next to the bed were showing a regular heart rhythm, while Buffy was sleeping. Her wounds were healing as fast as always, but this time it weren't only her injuries, which made her breaking down.
She missed him. With every breath she took the pain didn't pass away, it even got worse. Now she felt stupid for her not noticing sooner.and that she had treated him so badly. When she finally knew clearly how she was feeling for him it had been too late. Too late, that was it what made her life so cruel. Everytime she had been too late. When Jesse died, when Angel opened Acathla, when her mother…and now Spike…..
Buffy woke up with tears on her cheeks. It had been the same dream like she had every night after Sunnydale got destroyed. She wiped away the tears and when she looked up, she saw Dawn sitting in the floor, waiting for the nurses to allow her to come in.
"Dawn?"
Her sister looked up. She smiled, stood up and walked to Buffy.
"How are you?"
"Better." was the short answer.
Dawn sat down on the chair next to the bed. " Giles is going crazy out there."
Buffy had to smile. "I think so. Giles in the same bedroom with teenage girls…this must be his nightmare…"
Xander sat on the terrace in front of their bedrooms. Giles was inside; reading some books he got at the little shop at the corner, when he bought is Soft Cakes, which Andres had forgotten. The girls were still away for what Xander was very grateful. Andrew tired to bring the TV to work, but her wasn't very successful.
Xander was alone. So alone like he had never been in years. There had always been someone to talk to, Buffy, Willow, Anya. He was still sure that it had been right no to marry her, but he never stopped loving her. Her death had been a shock for him, but he was proud of her. Anya didn't run away, she fought side by side with the good ones, regretted everything bad she had done and had even started to like people.
Now he sweared to never forget her in his whole life and the memory of her made him weak…..
