Behind These Eyes Chapter 11-I'm With You


I opened the door and couldn't believe whose face appeared.

Melinda.

She was a girl I had met when I was entering 10th grade. She was a friend of Manny's, and we occasionally talked, but it wasn't anything big. She always used to flirt with me, but I always ignored it and pushed the fact aside. But, one day when she came over, the fact couldn't be hidden anymore.

She threw me on the bed, her wild eyes staring into my lost green ones. She yanked her top off, only with a bra on, until she yanked that off too.

"JT, you know you want this." Melinda said, in a deep, sexy voice I had never heard before.

"What are you talking about?" I muttered, scared for my life.

"Oh come on JT, you aren't that stupid…" Melinda said.

I had to get up. I struggled, because she kept throwing me down. Eventually, I had to grab her shoulders and force her off my body. I ran out of the room, grasping for air, calling for someone's name, anyone's name…

Yes, I had almost been raped by her. The memories still stuck in my head like glue, even if it was more than a year ago. Her hands on my shoulders pushing me down…not something anyone would like to remember.

"Hi." Melinda said.

"What the hell are you doing here?" I asked.

"I came because Manny asked me to fetch a few of her belongings here." Melinda said.

"Well, she could have gotten them herself, she's a big girl, and she doesn't need her friend to come here for her." I said.

"I know what happened was scary, ok? But you've got to get over it eventually." Melinda said.

"It's not that easy, Melinda. You know how much crap I've gone through? 2 of my best friends turned out to be bitches, my friends all ditched me, and I almost cheated on my girlfriend because a girl who liked me slipped alcohol into my drink!" I said.

"Wow…well I'm just gonna grab them and go." Melinda said.

"Oh no you're not. This is my house, you go sit on the couch and I'll get them." I said.

I went upstairs and quickly snatched the items Manny left over. Lipstick, a belt, hairbrush…all worthless stuff and I can't believe she still wanted it. I went back downstairs and chucked the items at Melinda.

"Thanks." Melinda said, and quickly left.

Long lost words whisper slowly to me
Still can't find what keeps me here
When all this time I've been so hollow inside
I know you're still there

Watching me, wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Fearing you loving you
I won't let you pull me down


At School:

Spring break had officially ended, and Emma was back. I had never told her about what happened to me, so I knew I had to eventually. I had to be honest with her, no matter what.

"Hey Em, how was Florida?" I asked.

"Good, besides Marnie. What a annoying pig, god. How was your week?" Emma asked.

"A little screwed up. There's something I have to tell you about my past, something I've never told anyone." I said.

We walked into a empty courtyard, and sat on one of the benches.

"What is it?" Emma asked.

"Well, when I was going into 10th grade, that summer I met this girl named Melinda. She was one of Manny's friends. One day, we were talking and she just grabbed me and threw me on a bed. Before I knew it, she had no top on and almost raped me." I said.

"JT…oh my god. I'm sorry…no wonder why you were the way you were. I never would of guessed…." Emma said.

"Yeah, it sucked, and she came over to get Manny's stuff the other day. Really awkward, but I let her have it." I said.

"I don't know how we overcame all this, JT. We are the two most unfortunate people in the world. Me, doing it with Jay and getting his gonorrhea, big mistake with big repercussions. You, getting involved with Manny, big mistake yet again." Emma said.

"Yeah…everything's just always screwed up. But at least we have each other." I said.

"Yep, the only thing I can count on when I'm down." Emma said.

She snuggled up to my shoulder, and we just cuddled for a few minutes. It was nice to just relax and not think about any of the troubles surrounding us. People betraying us, lying, screwing…it all just fades away when I'm with Emma. And that's truly the greatest feeling in the world.

now that we're here,
it's so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
all the mistakes,
one life contained
they all finally start to go away
now that we're here its so far away
and I feel like I can face the day I can forgive
and I'm not ashamed to be the person that I am today


I know, a super short chapter, and I hope it was a good enough ending for you. I hope you all enjoyed Behind These Eyes, and expect for me to produce more great stories! Remember to stick around with me…I won't do you wrong!

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