I don't own the CJ characters.

But the narrator of this story is mine.


Birth. Not fun.

Suddenly cold. Suddenly glaring.

Everything strange.

Light. Sounds. Feelings.

Breathing. Remember Breathing.

All the time. Don't stop.

Empty inside.

Filling comes out of thing in mouth. Suck.

Full. Good.

Everything new. Everything strange.


Mom once said I chose the worst day to be born. I was born three weeks early and on my grandmother's deathday.

My grandmother was murdered when mom was ten. And we still don't know who did it. But we will. I know that. Cause dad is a cop. And he catches all the bad guys. And the guy who murdered my grandmother is very bad.

Grandpa was a cop too. But a long long time ago. Now he has a bar were all the cops go in the evening.

And my other grandfather was a sheriff. But I never met him. He's dead. He was murdered too. But they got that bad guy.

And my other grandmother is dead too. But she was not murdered. She was very ill.

Sheila, my best friend, says my family is creepy. Lots of cops and deads. And mom is a doctor for dead people.

Sheila's brother Hunter says there's no such thing as a doctor for dead people. Cause dead is dead. Hunter's 13 already but he's stupid. It's true that doctors for ill people make them unill, that is healthy again. Hunter says a doctor for dead people then makes dead people undead, that is living. But that's stupid. You can't make dead people living. And mom isn't trying that. She examines the dead people and finds out why they are dead. Cause dead is not always dead. There are many ways of dead. And if somebody was murdered mom finds out and then the police can catch the bad guy. Cause sometimes it looks as someone just died but in real he was killed. And sometimes it looks like he was killed but it really was an accident. And mom finds out what happened.

Sheila says that's scary. But I don't think so. I like listen to mom and dad talking about work. Sometimes they bring case files home. I like reading them. They are very interesting. But mom and dad don't like me reading them. Especially dad. He says I'm too young. I don't think I am. I'm almost ten after all. I'm no baby.