Learning About Death

Next Day

Janet walked into the infirmary, heading straight for the young girl. When she saw her she saw the girl drawing a picture of 2 kids, and a beautiful lab. The girl looked up, she looked very upset.

" Hey what's wrong?"

" I'm just thinking. This is Jonas and me when we were 4, and our lab General. It's so hard to think about all we've lost, and know that it could all happen again."

"Have you ever loss someone so close, that it was like having your heart ripped out?" seeing the doctor shake her head, the girl continued.

"When they die it eats away at you. Even if it isn't your fault, you treat it like it is. It tears you apart, ripping away at you," she paused, took a deep breath and continued, " It's like having your heart ripped out, then cut into pieces. It's the worst pain you can go through."

" For days you cry and cry, until one day you just stop. You look back on your past with that person, and realize you should rejoice for the memories you have of them. So one day you just get up and move on," she looked Janet in the eye, she wouldn't cry through this, she would tell someone the way she felt, " but it never really leaves. It eats away at you. Always there. At the back of your mind. Then one day you'll be doing something and say something like ' That person loved to do this' and you start to cry. In front of people, you can't stop. You feel the pain all over again."

Janet looked at her and understood, she continued what the girl couldn't finish, and "So instead of just remembering you freeze their memories in pictures."

The girl nodded, " It helps I can cry alone now, and I'll be alright. It's so hard though; I just wish that it never happened."

Janet looked at the girl; she had obviously gone through so much. Yet she was strong, and willed herself to do that. She had grown up somewhere where she couldn't be thought to be weak, or people wouldn't like her. At least that must have been what the girl thought.

"The girl looked down at her picture, " General was my dog, Jessie was Jonas's. If you look closely you can kind of see his head hiding." She laughed; Janet saw a beautiful smile that reminded her of Sam, " He was afraid of cameras. Yet he loved people to take pictures of him. He loved to be the center of attention." She stopped, and took a pause to think, " If he was human, he would've always been laughing and telling jokes." She laughed some more.

Janet laughed with her. 'At least she can still be happy. Her dog reminds me of one certain colonel as well.'

"I've just realized something, you've told me your name, but I've never said mine. It's San." She smiled.

Janet just realizing this laughed lightly, "You're right. San it's pretty."

"The girl smiled, " Not really, but if you say so."


I know that was kind of cheesy. I needed something. Just a little bit longer until something happens.