Chapter 4
About a month later after the news of "Terra" the Titans started to get a hold of themselves. When the trouble alarm went off they sprang into action and so did I. The Titans had made me a Teen Titan about a week after the bad news. It was Slade. I thought I had gotten rid of Slade when the Titans thought I was dead. But I was wrong. For some weird reason Slade was robbing a laundry place. When we got there, there was no sign of him. Then out of no where Slade dumped something that smelled awful on my head and then he just disappeared.
When we got back to the tower I was cold and dripping so I decided to take a shower. After I got out I wrapped my hair in a towel put on a pair of pajamas and fell fast asleep. When I woke up the next morning and went to the mirror and I felt as though I was going to pass out. My hair was…blonde! How could this happen? All I did was take a shower!
That's when my mind thought of Slade. I ran to look at my clothes and I instantly knew what Slade had dumped on my head the day before…peroxide. All of my clothes were white from the peroxide. Slade was trying to expose who I was.
As fast as I could I opened my window, grabbed some money and summoned two small rocks to me. As tight as I could I held on and quickly flew to the Hair-are-we. I ran in bought the dye, went to a bathroom in a restaurant and dyed my hair. When I flew back into my room and closed my window there was a knock at the door. "Come in." I said in my nicest voice. It was Beast Boy and he looked at me strangely,
"Perrin, uh I was just checking on you. You haven't came out of your room and it's almost 2 o'clock." I glanced over at my clocked and it glowed 1:48pm.
"Oh, I must have slept in late. It was really late when I went to bed last night."
"I was just checking." Then he left the room and I just stayed on my bed thinking of what could happen now.
As I left Perrin's room I could feel there was something she was keeping from us. Lately she's been so jumpy, and not like herself. When she is herself I can look in her eyes and see the same love Terra had for me and I feel the love that I had for Terra. But Terra is dead now just so she could save what she had destroyed, the city, her friendship, her life, and her love with me.
I went into my room and pulled a slightly large cardboard box with the word Terra on it. "When I open this I remember that night at the fair, and then that kiss, well almost, but Slade messed it up, He messes everything up. He ruined my life from then on. All I have left of you are the pictures from the fair and some pictures of just you. The last thing I have in this box is your pager. After that night you betrayed us I went and got it just in case it was all Slade. Then I think to Perrin, she is just like you Terra, in all sorts of ways. I think that I love her. I know that I love you but your dead and you will never be with me until I die and I'm so young and that could take…forever. I think I should just move on Terra. But I don't think I can love again. How can I love again?"
As I started to walk to the main room of the tower to get some lunch when I heard Beast Boy talking to "Terra".
"Then I think to Perrin, she is just like you Terra, in all sorts of ways. I think that I love her. I know that I love you but your dead and you will never be with me until I die and I'm so young and that could take…forever. I think I should move on Terra. But I don't think I can love again. How can I love again?" Then I thought to myself I'm not dead Beast Boy and I wish I could tell you but I can't. It's all Slade's fault. I still love you BB don't forget that.
The next day I concocted a plan to let BB know that I still love him. Tonight I will stand on a rock and when he starts to talk to "Terra" I will answer back. I sort of got a general time he talks to "Terra" every night; he usually starts around 7pm and ends around 8:30pm. I needed to start my plan around 6:45pm and it was already 6:38pm. "I'm headed to the Library, I'll probably be back in an hour or two." I lied.
"OK Perrin, just page us if you need us." Robin told me, like the way I barely remember my mother telling me when I was little, except she said to me, "OK Terra, please be careful; and don't hurt any of the other kids with your powers. And no showing them off either, that's how you gave your father a concussion."
My father. I remember him even less than I remember my mom. I even forgot what he looked like. All I remember is his name…Edals.
As I walked out of the tower I looked up at it to make sure nobody was watching. Instead of standing on huge rock I decided to sit on a rock slightly smaller than a bench. I looked at my watch and it illuminated 6:48pm. So, I climbed on my rock, got comfortable, and then I flew it under BB's window so he wouldn't see me but he could still hear me and I could hear him. Then I heard his door shut, and he began talking "Terra, I know it's been a while since they assumed you were dead, and I was doubting myself today wondering if you were really alive…and well…sometimes…" His voice trailed off thinking about if he should even say it so I answered
"BB, don't doubt yourself…never doubt. I'm paying the price for doubting you and the others." By this time BB was at the window crying and it felt like little drops of rain on my head as I looked at him.
"Terra, where are you! Terra, answer me! TERRA! TERRA! Terra."
Now those few little drops of rain felt like the whole ocean was dumping on my head, but I couldn't risk it. If I started talking he could look down because I talked back and he would find out my secret. So I decided to go back down and get back from the Library from which tonight I read a very sad story of a boy and his girl.
