To Be A Malfoy

Disclaimer: I own Karliya Malfoy, Anna Black and James' parents, Michael and Irene Potter (yes I know, I use those names all the time but I can't be bothered coming up with new ones.)

orlin: Sorry…but you know I'm not cruel enough to follow through with killing Jamie.

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Warning: There will be a bit of out of characterness from Hermione and Draco this chapter.

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Chapter 10: Lucius' Hope

"You need to sleep," said Severus as he led Lucius by the arm up the grand staircase in Malfoy Manor.

Lucius just grunted in reply, nearly two and a half weeks without sleeping properly had really taken a toll on him. He barely felt any emotion now, just a horrible emptiness without being able to hear James' voice or his mischievous laugh. He barely even registered the fact that he had been almost carried out of St Mungos by the Potions Master and taken back to his manor.

Severus, not particularly fond of the idea of undressing Lucius and getting him into bed, pushed his older friend down onto the still oddly unmade bed and threw the covers back over him. "I'll be back later and you better still be here."

Lucius' eyes had already closed and his breathing had started to even out, "Okay…."

Draco sat at the back of the Transfiguration classroom gazing out a window up on the wall while their new Professor was speaking. He felt sick to the stomach knowing his dad was lying in St Mungos in a coma. All he could think was, why hasn't he woken up yet? Will he ever wake up?

I could lose both my parents like that! Draco mentally snapped his fingers. I don't think I could bear that even if I have grown up knowing I could lose them so easily. But what kid would want that to become a reality?

Draco was snapped out of his thoughts when the Professor asked him a question. He replied with an unintelligent "Huh?"

………

Remus peered into James' ward during the evening visiting hours and saw his lover sitting in the armchair gazing at his best friend. "Hey."

Sirius looked up at Remus and gave a grim smile. "Hey."

Remus came right into the ward, "Where's Lucius?"

Sirius smirked a little, "Snape turned up at lunchtime and practically carried him out of here. He didn't put up a fight or anything."

Remus nodded, "Would you if you hadn't slept for nearly three weeks?"

"No…" Sirius sighed and turned his eyes back to James. "I can't imagine what he's going through. I mean, I don't know what I'd do if it was you lying in this bed…"

Remus sat down on the arm of the chair and put one arm around Sirius' shoulders, "Same here. I s'pose all we can do is hope that he wakes up."

Sirius nodded and rested his head against Remus' side, "Do you think he has some more colour in his face?"

Remus observed the messy haired man's face for a moment or two, "You know, I think he does." He hopped off the chair and put his hand to James' skin. "He doesn't feel so cold anymore."

Sirius' eyes lightened up a little bit more, "Do you think that's a good sign?"

Remus shrugged, "It could be. Were you here when the doctor checked on him earlier?"

Sirius nodded, "Yeah, he said that…a full recovery was looking hopeful but when he wasn't so sure. He said it might take days, weeks or even longer… I guess it's a good thing that Lucius wasn't around to hear that." He reached out and pulled Remus down onto his lap. "I'm going to stay here the night and watch him."

Remus rested his head against Sirius' and sighed, "Okay. I'll come back tomorrow and check on you both."

After having a few hours of sleep Lucius had woken up, he had decided to take a shower and have something proper to eat before going back to bed. Now he had had some sleep he realised just how unbelievably tired he was, being a Death Eater he had basically been trained how to go days without sleep. But every time he did get a little sleep during these long time periods it always made him even more groggy and less able to function properly.

After having something small to eat and a good long soak in the shower, Lucius climbed back into bed and promptly fell back to sleep, dreaming of the good times he had had with James.

Draco lay awake that night staring at the dark green canopy over his bed in the Third Year Slytherin Boys' Dorm. He had been doing this every night for the past couple of weeks that's why he was hardly paying attention in class now and according to some students he had overheard, he was even nastier than he used to be. Well, they wouldn't have found out if they had left me alone. Bloody stupid idiots! And fucking Weasley deserved that broken nose! Its not like I care that he ran to his mother, she can't do anything to me.

Woah, back track Draco, neither of your parents are in any condition to fight your battles for you at the moment. Each one for himself.

Shit…Maybe I'm the idiot. With everything that's been happening, I go and make it worse by causing trouble at school. Father would probably kill me if he knew what I've been doing recently.

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It was Saturday afternoon, Sirius was still at James' bedside and Remus had joined him a couple of hours ago. They were talking quietly when the tired face of Lucius Malfoy appeared around the door.

"You're meant to be sleeping," said Sirius, although he wouldn't admit it, he did quite like Lucius. The man had after all, looked after his best friend when James' parents wouldn't do that.

"Do you really expect me to catch up on three weeks worth of sleep?" replied Lucius as he entered the ward; his eyes on James' body the entire time.

"I guess not," said Sirius he glanced from James back to Lucius. "The doctor said his recovery is getting better, he's not as cold as he was and he's got some colour back." He saw a glint of hope in Lucius' grey eyes. "He also said that he might wake up in the next few days."

Lucius smiled slightly, "Thanks for watching him…"

Remus raised an eyebrow; "You say that like we're leaving."

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The three men stayed in the ward for ages, and once again, Sirius and Remus found out just how amiable Lucius could really be and they could see the obvious love the Death Eater had for their best friend.

Lucius and Sirius had swapped places now, Lucius was sitting in the armchair and Sirius was standing by the window, staring out at the countryside. Remus had gone off to get them all a coffee from the cafeteria.

"Do you think his parents know?" asked Sirius out of the blue.

"Why do you ask?" replied Lucius suspiciously. He really didn't want James' parents sticking their noses in right now, especially considering they obviously weren't that fond of their son.

Sirius shrugged even though Lucius couldn't see. "I don't know, but when we were at school, no matter what he did to piss them off they would always turn up to see him when he was injured."

Lucius continued watching James' unmoving form as he replied darkly, "Well if they turn up now I'll kill them."

Sirius raised his eyebrows; "People change, Lucius. You of all people should know that."

Lucius turned in the chair to look at Sirius, "Those people threw their son out on the streets, not caring that he was pregnant and had no where else to go, no money, no food." He looked back to James. "Every time he's tried to talk to them since Draco was born, they've always insulted him and hurt him…"

"He never said-"

"Why would he?" replied Lucius. "I didn't know about it until I started questioning him…but every time he came back from one of those visits, he looked like a wounded puppy."

"I had no idea he'd been trying to contact them," said Sirius frowning a little. He had always quite liked the Potters; after all, they had practically adopted him as a second son when he ran away from his family's home. But he had grown a grudge against them after they pulled their son out of school and disowned him. "But still…they're his parents. They have the right to see their only son."

"You seem awfully sympathetic of the people that kicked your best friend out of their home," remarked Lucius quietly.

Sirius sighed; it was obvious Lucius wasn't going to accept the fact the James' parents might actually feel guilty about what they did. "I don't feel sympathy for them. If anything, I sympathise with James…having his parents and his husband arguing over who cares about him the most." He had moved away from the window now so that he could see Lucius' face. "And when James turned up at your Manor, you refused to believe you were Draco's father, admit it. You didn't want him around to start with, you were using him," He lowered his voice as Lucius narrowed his eyes. "Being one of Voldemort's loyalist supporters, you were probably on a mission to get through to one of Dumbledore's supporting families. Using their young and impressionable son." Sirius could see he had struck a nerve, but this was something he had been pondering over since he was seventeen. "I can see how much you care for him now, but in the start you weren't much better than his parents, I knew that, James knew that."

Lucius averted his gaze, he knew Sirius was right. He had been instructed by Voldemort to get at the Potters through James once the Dark Lord found out he was tutoring the young Potter, but that was a mission he had failed and he had painfully paid for his failure. "If it's any consolation I was tortured for not handing the Potters over."

Sirius raised an eyebrow, "Good. Maybe it'll make you learn for what you have done." He saw Lucius' sneer come back again. "Like not warning James about that attack at the Ministry. I mean, what the hell were you thinking? Your entire family could have been killed. You should have at least informed James when you came back from your meeting."

Lucius continued glaring at Sirius, deciding whether to curse the dark haired man right now or to wait until they were both out of the hospital. "For your information, Black. I didn't even know about the bloody attack until I tortured Pettigrew into telling me!" Sirius did at least look surprised. "Voldemort doesn't trust me anymore, because of James. And believe me, I don't like what I'm doing with my life one bit, but if I turn against that creature he'll kill my family…"

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When Remus had gotten back to the ward with their drinks he had found Lucius nearly in tears and Sirius standing in the middle of the ward looking shocked. The only thing he could think of that had happened was that they had had an argument.

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It was exactly three weeks since the attack now, and ever since his argument with Sirius, Lucius hadn't left James' side again. Mainly he wanted to make sure he was around in case the Potters did turn up, he really didn't care if they felt guilty for what they did to their son, he just didn't want them to hurt James again. His James.

Lucius folded his arms on the bed and put his head down on them, he gently stroked James' arm as he started to drift off to sleep again.

"Hi."

Draco looked slowly up from the book he had been reading in the school library to see none other than Hermione Granger. "Hi…"

"Can I sit here?" asked Hermione hopefully.

Draco shrugged, "If you want." Although he had gotten on well with Hermione when they had done their Transfiguration project together, he hadn't really spoken to her much since then mainly because of Ron Weasley getting in the way.

Hermione sat down and pulled a book out of her bag, she opened it to a page and then looked back to Draco. "I'm sorry about your dad."

Draco nodded and then stopped; he gazed at Hermione curiously. "How did you know he's my dad?"

Most of the students had no idea that Professor Potter was Draco Malfoy's other parent, but a lot of their parents knew.

Hermione smirked a little, "I'm friends with Ron, and his parents know so they told him and he, of course, told me."

"Fair enough."

Hermione smiled, "You know Professor Lupin pretty well to, don't you?"

Draco nodded again, "Yeah, he's one of my unofficial Godfathers and Professor Snape's the other one."

"I suppose its quite good having three adults you know well as your Professors," said Hermione thoughtfully. "And having another parent as a School Governor."

Draco smirked, "You would think, wouldn't you? Snape likes me because I'm a Slytherin and he's probably afraid of my father, like everyone else. Professor Lupin hardly ever tells people off anyway, and my dad never missed an opportunity to give me a detention or take points away from Slytherin. And then there's my father, who only interferes when someone like Hagrid or McGonagall gives me detentions and stuff."

Hermione smiled, "Lovely parents you have." She thought for a moment. "Your dad James, he was in Gryffindor wasn't he? I think I saw his name on a plaque in the Trophy Room."

Draco nodded, "Yeah, he was in Gryffindor. Played Chaser on the Quidditch team, and he was Captain and Head Boy…at the start of his seventh year."

Hermione raised an eyebrow, "At the beginning? Did he have the title taken away or something?"

"Not exactly…" replied Draco hesitantly. Hey, why not tell her? She obviously understands that I have two fathers. "He was taken out of school about half way through the year, because of me."

Hermione considered him for a moment, "Are you saying…men can get pregnant?"

Draco frowned and nodded, "Apparently. But anyway, his parents took him out of school because he became pregnant with me."

Hermione raised her eyebrows slightly, "Wow, and I thought it was odd having two dentists as parents." She noticed the look Draco was giving her. "I-I'm not insulting your parents or anything, but I'm a Muggleborn, you don't hear about men getting pregnant where I come from…"

Draco sat back in his chair, "I understand…its not that common in the wizarding world either." He snorted. "But no one would tell my father that cause they're too afraid of being killed."

Hermione giggled, "You know, I always thought you'd be really arrogant and stuck up…but I guess I was wrong."

Draco smiled, "Thanks, I think."

Draco and Hermione spent the rest of the afternoon talking in the library, right up until closing time when Madame Pince kicked them out.

"I can't help being worried," said Sirius as he continued pacing the living area of Remus' quarters. "He's my best friend…I want him to wake up…"

As Sirius walked passed the couch again, Remus pulled him down onto it between his legs and hugged him tightly. "We all want him to wake up, Siri…" He nuzzled Sirius' hair with his cheek. "I have absolute confidence that he will wake up."

Sirius turned his head and gazed at Remus, "It's not like you to be optimistic."

Remus smiled and kissed him lightly on the lips. "Well, I guess we've all changed a little bit."

Sirius smiled, "I love you."

"Love you too," Remus kissed him again, deeper and longer this time.

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Lucius still had his head on his arms when he woke up the next morning, he kept his eyes closed because he couldn't be bothered lifting his head and he felt very relaxed. I must be dreaming. He thought sleepily. No one strokes my hair like this except James, and he's… Lucius' thoughts trailed off when he finally realised what was happening. He lifted his head quickly and found the amused brown eyes of James watching. "You're awake…"

James gave a weak smile, "I have been for the last hour."

Lucius didn't respond he just moved closer and pressed his lips to James', he had missed kissing and holding this man and he sorely wanted to make for lost time.

Despite his still groggy state, James responded to the kiss, he ran his fingers through Lucius' long hair.

Lucius pulled away and gazed into James' eyes, "Why didn't you wake me?"

James continued playing with Lucius' hair with one hand, "The nurse said you'd hardly left my side, except when you were forcefully carried out of here…" He gave a small smile. "Feeling guilty, aren't you?"

Lucius sat on the side of the bed, "Course I am." He stroked James' hair and kissed him on the forehead. "Let's not talk about that right now, but I will make it up to you." He kissed James lightly on the lips. "I promise."

James smiled, "Okay."

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A/N: That didn't go as I planned but oh well! I know I said that James' parents would make an appearance this chapter but I've decided to put them in next chapter instead.

Next Chapter: James is recovering at home. Lucius is put on trial and given Veritaserum, will he be given an Azkaban sentence? James' parents decide its high time they spoke to their son.