Disclaimer: I don't own Stargate Atlantis.
Note: I blame the name of the baby on my current obsession with 'Desperate Housewives' and a certain singer. This is unbeta'd so any mistakes are my own.
Hazeydream: Thanks, it may get easier for them; it may not. I'm not giving anything away. You'll find out in this chapter.
TubaPrincess: Glad you liked the last chapter.
MacCartney: Thanks, I actually visualized John holding the baby when I wrote that part.
He pushed her hard against the wall and placed his lips onto hers.
His hands roaming underneath her shirt finally succeeding in removing it.
She kissed him back hungrily, wanting him as much as he wanted her.
His lips moved down her neck. Biting, sucking, kissing every part of her. He pushed her into the wall harder. Her legs slipping around his waist.
Her hands were busily removing his belt and unzipping his trousers.
She moaned with pleasure as his mouth left her neck and moved down to her breast.
When he heard the moan, he pulled her off the wall and pushed her onto their bed.
She moved her hand behind his head and pushed him down to kiss her.
He moved from her lips and looked into her passion filled eyes.
"I love you Elizabeth"
She smiled and kissed him passionately
"I love you Acastus"
Elizabeth woke up sweating, shaking, terrified. She'd been having that dream regularly since her daughter, Bree she finally named her, was born. Elizabeth knew it was more then a dream, it was more than a nightmare, it was a memory and she was fairly certain it was the memory of the night Bree was conceived. The night before she was rescued .Elizabeth hadn't told anyone not even John. An arm protectively wrapped itself around her waist. She looked down at John. He was sleeping, so peacefully. It was calming to watch and she was glad she had that back. She heard a whimper in the room connected to theirs. She carefully and silently left Johns' grip and walked over to the connecting room. As she entered, the whimpering stopped and babbling started.
Elizabeth walked over to the cradle and gently picked up her daughter. Since Johns' little speech four months ago, Elizabeth had slowly become closer to her daughter again.
"Hey, why are you awake? It's way past your bedtime"
The baby just gurgled at her and Elizabeth smiled. She really was the sweetest little baby Elizabeth had ever seen.
"Go back to sleep Bree."
Elizabeth cradled her in her daughter in her arms and gently shushed her.
Two arms wrapped themselves around her waist while a kiss was placed on her neck. John placed his head in the crook of her neck.
"Is she okay?"
Elizabeth nodded and the arms grew tighter around her waist.
"Yeah, she just wanted some attention"
Elizabeth drew a finger down her daughters' hand, which Bree grabbed on to.
Elizabeth didn't know why she'd called her daughter Bree. The name stuck in her memory for some reason.
John moved away from Elizabeth, breaking Elizabeth from her musing, and took Bree out of her arms. He kissed the top of her head and placed her back in her cradle.
"Sweet dreams Bree"
Elizabeth looked inside the cradle and saw Bree sleeping peacefully. She smiled and followed John back into their room, forgetting about her nightmare.
Atlantis (A few hours later)
Elizabeth slowly opened her eyes. The sunlight was shining softly through the window of their room. She closed her eyes to the light. She was so tired. She'd woken up twice during the night again with that same memory of her and Kolya.
Elizabeth turned her back to the window and snuggled her head into her pillow. If she could just stay here, everything would be perfect. Elizabeth didn't even realise when someone came into the room and sat next to her on the bed.
Elizabeth felt something on her back and reluctantly turned around. She opened her eyes and saw John sat next to her with Bree in his arms and Bree was currently hitting her because of her involuntary arm movements.
Elizabeth slowly sat up and took Bree out of Johns' arms.
"Good morning honey. And John"
John lent in and kissed her.
"Good morning to you too."
Elizabeth tried to suppress a yawn but John caught her. He took Bree out of her arms and placed her on the bed, propping her up with pillows so she wouldn't fall.
"Have you been sleeping properly?"
He was concerned, bless him, but still it was very annoying that she couldn't even yawn anymore without people worrying.
"I'm fine…mum"
John smirked
"Cute, very cute"
He lent in to kiss her again only to be distracted by babbling coming from next to them. She looked and saw Bree thrashing her hands about obviously looking for attention. He gently kissed Elizabeth and Bree's babbling became a cry.
"Knew it"
He picked Bree up and kissed her forehead.
"You just want attention don't you?"
John smiled, sat next to Elizabeth and pulled Bree onto his chest.
"You just love attention don't you? She must get that from you Elizabeth"
John instantly froze. He didn't mean that. Everyone knew better then to say things like that, because it only made them think about the things she got from Kolya.
"I'm sorry Elizabeth, I didn't mean…"
Elizabeth cut him off and nodded
"It's okay…I'm going to get a shower"
Elizabeth quickly left the bed, got her things and went into the bathroom.
John sighed
"Damn it"
He looked down at Bree who was sat quietly like she knew what happened.
"I'm sorry baby. I didn't mean to remind her of…well you know who"
He kissed her forehead.
"Forgive me?"
Bree smiled and began to babble again.
John smiled. Who'd have guessed that he'd become so attached to Bree in such a short amount of time. He loved her completely. Like she was his. Except she wasn't, she wasn't his child. He didn't have anything to do with Bree despite the fact that he was sleeping with her mother. She was not his family, but she felt like it. He'd do anything to keep her safe. John kissed the top of her head. He'd do anything for her.
Elizabeth dropped her head in her hands. She'd had a hell of a day. First she'd had been avoiding John since he made that comment. She couldn't blame him, it just slipped out but she was still uncomfortable with it.
Then John had to go to the mainland, on his day off, which meant she had too look after Bree on which turned out to be her busiest day ever. Half-way through the day she went to the infirmary and practically begged Carson too look after Bree so she could have her briefings in peace. He agreed, he loved looking after Bree and he didn't have a busy day.
She sighed as someone knocked on the door.
"Come in"
She didn't even bother to remove her head from her hands. All she wanted to do was go down to her quarters; curl up in Johns' arms and go to sleep. The door to her quarters opened and someone walked into the room. She heard the sweet babbling of her beautiful baby girl. Elizabeth lifted her head from her hands and froze. No he couldn't be here. How would he have got here? Kolya was sat across from her holding Bree.
"She'll always be my child, despite what you tell her. She'll always be a part of me Elizabeth. She'll always be a symbol of our love"
"Elizabeth…Elizabeth…Lizzie"
"Lizzie"
Elizabeth head shot up from her hands
"Kolya"
She looked at the John. His face showed clearly his confusion.
"Are you going tell me what you're dreaming about Elizabeth?"
Elizabeth rubbed her hands across her face trying to rid herself of the memory.
"Bree?"
John shook his head. He was confused
"She's with Carson, Peter just told me. I've just got back from the mainland. Are you going to tell me what happened?"
John was talking so fast, Elizabeth had missed half of what he said. She didn't know whether she'd be able to explain to him. Whether he'd understand.
"I've been dreaming a lot…of Kolya. Of him taking Bree…I've been waking up from memory in the form of nightmares. Things that actually happened when I was with the Genii."
John shook his head. He was concerned for her but she had nothing to worry about.
"Elizabeth, Kolya is not coming after you or Bree, he's is dead. I made damn sure of that"
Elizabeth shook her head and dropped it in shame.
"He's not dead"
John thought he heard wrong, she was talking quietly
"Please tell me you didn't just say Kolya is alive?"
Tears fell from Elizabeths' eyes and rage threatened to slowly engulf John. John closed his eyes briefly. He didn't want to become angry at Elizabeth. She might not even be right.
Slowly John opened his eyes and looked at Elizabeth.
"How can you be sure he's alive?"
It was Elizabeths' turn to close her eyes. She thought back to the Genii Home world, when she ran to Kolya, checked his pulse.
"His pulse was weak, it was there, but it was very weak. I thought he would die before Cowen and the backups got there. That's why I told you he was dead. But now, I'm not too sure. Kolya was strong, he'd been shot before and he lived, why would this time be any different?"
Elizabeth thought back to the time when she was Elizabeth Kolya. When Acastus had been shot while on a mission. She looked after him, they didn't think he would make it but he did. It was entirely possible he'd lived again. It wouldn't surprise her.
"How can you be sure though? I hit him pretty damn close to his heart"
Elizabeth shook her head.
"Not close enough to kill him instantly. You were about 2 centimetres from the bottom of his heart. Kolya is alive I know it"
John walked around to Elizabeth and held her hands.
"Don't worry. He doesn't know about Bree. She's safe. The Genii will not attack us again. You have my word."
John pulled Elizabeth into his arms but she couldn't help but feel that John was wrong. Kolya was alive; she knew it.
TBC…
Elizabeth might not know why she called her daughter Bree but I do and surprisingly it's actually got something to do with the story.
