Strange... I seem more drawn to this fic than my others. I wonder why. Well here's some replies!

XThunderyX- Actually, I believe Inuyasha has some violet in his eyes when he's a full demon. Don't quote me on that, since I haven't actually watched the anime in quite a while. Thanks for the rating by the way! I'll strive to get a perfect ten lol.

Miko-Of-Jades- Yes.. the wish must be pure. Ya thought he was going to turn into a full demon? Good, than I succeeded in what I was trying to do. Teehee!

RavensFirefly- Oh my god, I totally forgot about 'Ningen no Kokoro' It's been too long since you last updated it. To be honest, that's my favorite of your fics. Writing a fic about Inuyasha being stuck in his human form, or wishing to be human just seems unique. At least in the Inu/San category. I know there's probably a lot more out there somewhere that I haven't seen. But ya gotta update that fic gosh-nabbit!

That's it I guess. Thank you to everyone else who reviewed last chapter. It really is great to have so much feedback. 0)

Something To Clear My Thoughts

Inuyasha is well aware of the Taijiya hovering above him with shock written all across her face. He heard all of them enter the hut long before he could see any of them. All he really could do at that moment was stare up at the ceiling of the hut. He can remember a few minutes ago, when he used the jewel, he didn't think it was going to work. All the time he spent traveling to get the jewel, he was so sure it would work. Yet, when he finally has the jewel and prepares to use it, he doubted it's power.

Why did he doubt that it would work? Every time he saw the jewel used, it was used by demons to become stronger or by half-demons to become full blooded demons. Inuyasha guesses he doubted it would work because the jewel in itself seemed like a curse. It always brought misery and despair wherever it was brought.

The doubt he felt quickly vanished the moment the jewel disappeared and he felt his body tremble in pain. He had not known it would hurt so much. His demonic ears felt as if they were ripped down his head until they settled where his human ears are. His claws, the long sharp digits he's always had to slaughter countless demons, felt like they dug themselves back in. His muscles seared in pain, feeling as if they were being ripped out of his flesh as they began to shrink a bit. His K9s seemed like they were pulled out and new set of fangs quickly took their place.

He thought using the jewel to become human would seem like any other time he transformed on the night of the new moon. He had not expected so much pain, all at once. If he knew, he would have waited until he had fully recovered from the final battle with Naraku. Inuyasha can't do more than lay in his spot. His eyes felt heavy, his mind is foggy. It's a familiar sensation he gets when he loses a lot of blood. His body ache along with his mind, he's only faintly aware of the voices speaking to him in soft whispers. What they are saying, Inuyasha can't tell. He wishes to have nothing more than a few hours of sleep.

"Inuyasha?" Sango calls out a little concerned upon seeing the boy's eyes close. She shakes his shoulder, trying to get him to open his eyes to open again. When she fails to wake him, her heart begins to beat quicker, fearing that he wasn't able to handle the power of the jewel.

Sango's is shocked out of her daze as a hand rests on her shoulder, turning around she faces Keada, looking down at Inuyasha with a thoughtful gaze, "He's just sleeping. Let him be. The power of the jewel must have drained his energy."

"Well, this is certainly surprising." Miroku finally manages to find his voice, "I was certain he would choose to become a full blooded demon. He always spoke of becoming one."

Shippo leaps off of Miroku's shoulder to the ground before walking over to the sleeping Inuyasha. "Why would he want to become a human? They're so weak." Shippo comments, earning him a few looks from the monk and Taijiya, "Uh... I mean most of them are. Not you guys though." Shippo recovers. He walks up onto Inuyasha chest and sits down, his eyes focused on Inuyasha's face. Squinting his eyes, Shippo leans down to look more closely at the human, "Is... he smiling?"

The question causes Keada to smile in return, "I believe he is." Wandering over to the other side of the hut, Keada grabs a folded blanket and settles Inuyasha's head under it, knowing how uncomfortable it must be to sleep with your head on the hard floor.

Sango stands up from Inuyasha's side and heads over to the entrance of the hut, "I'm going to get some air." Sango announces quietly. Everyone just watches her leave silently.

Keada looks over to Miroku, noticing his worry in his eyes, "Time heals all things." Keada says suddenly.

Miroku smiles a bit, giving a small laugh, "Yes, but I'm afraid time won't help her soon enough. I worry she may... harm herself." Miroku replies hesitantly.

"Ye think she will attempt to... go with her loved ones?"

Miroku shakes his head, "I don't know what to think. She had joined the group, mainly to get her brother back. There was the part where she wanted to get revenge for her village. But she really just wanted her brother back. I'm afraid that with Kohaku's passing, she may think this whole quest was pointless."

"Ye need not trouble yourself with such thoughts." Keada assures, "She will deal with her brother's death."

Miroku sighs, "Well, actually. In all honestly. I'm afraid she may not want to come with me when I leave in a few days."

Keada's brows knit together questioningly, "Ye be leaving soon?"

Miroku gives an embarrassed chuckle as he scratches the back of his head, "Well... I kind of just ran out of my village without explanation before I joined Inuyasha. I need to go back sometime to let them know that I'm alive and well. People are worried about me. It's not like I'll be gone forever. I just wish to see them again."

Sango wandered aimlessly through the village, not really having a real destination in mind. She just follows where her feet guide her. Her thoughts were so jumbled up at that moment, and her heart is stilling beating rapidly in her chest. When Inuyasha wouldn't reply to her calls, she had thought he may have died. She couldn't handle seeing anyone else die at the moment. She has enough grief in her life already that she has to deal with.

What really bugged her however, is why Inuyasha had chosen to become human. She thought for sure he would become a full demon. Not that she's complaining, it's just that, she always knew what to expect of him, as did everyone else. He never backs out of what he wants. As far as she knows, he's always wanted to become a full demon. Yet, he chose to become human instead. Sometimes Inuyasha can be unpredictable, while the rest of the time, he's easy to read.

To say she wasn't curious as to why he decided to become human would be a lie. At this moment, everything else seemed to escape her mind as she thinks of possible reasons for his decision. After a few moments of thought however, Sango decides that the only person who'll ever know that will be Inuyasha himself.

Sango stops at the bank of the river near the farm lands. Standing there by herself, she gazes out into the crystalline liquid, her thoughts wandering for the first time about herself. 'What am I going to do?' She thinks to herself. Quite honestly, she has no idea as to where she can go now. Her village was destroyed, her brother is dead, as is Naraku. Right now, her life seems without a purpose.

Sango dreads the day that Miroku asks her to go through with their little agreement. She can honestly say that right now, marriage and starting a family is the last thing on her mind. And knowing Miroku, he probably won't wait long to try and 'seal' the arrangement. Than again, the monk is understanding, so if she told him that she needs time, he'll be alright. At least, Sango hopes. She really doesn't want the pressures of a relationship now. Maybe she'll never be ready with the way things are looking now.

This is one of those times that Sango wishes Kagome hadn't gone back to her time yet. She needs to soak in a hot spring and have a nice long 'girl talk' with her friend. 'Guess I'll have to wait until she comes back.' Sango thinks to herself, not knowing that it'll be a long wait.

Kneeling down on the bank, Sango dips her hand in the cool crisp water. She leisurely draws circles in it, causing a few fish to swim away cautiously from her hand. When she first began traveling with Inuyasha, she was traveling for revenge. When Kohaku appeared under Naraku's control, her reasons changed. She wanted nothing more than to free Kohaku from Naraku, even if it meant having to kill him. But with Inuyasha's constant reassurance that they'll get him back, she changed her reason again. She wouldn't settle with freeing Kohaku from control. She wanted him back alive, then when everything was over, they'd go back to their village and rebuild it, later starting a training village for demon exterminators.

It was wishful thinking, Sango knew it even back then. But hope is sometimes the only thing that keeps people going in this day of age. Hope for a better tomorrow. For the most part, Sango is still waiting for that 'better tomorrow.'

She can't help envy her companions just a bit. Each of them seem to adjust to the peace quickly. Kagome is no longer pressured between times, able to leave without complaint from now on. Miroku no longer has to fear the day the wind tunnel that was in his hand would swallow him up. Shippo can live peacefully in Keada's Village. Inuyasha finally got his wish, as surprising as it was, so he'll no longer be regarded as a half breed that he so despised.

What about her? What did she gain from all of this? Sure she has new friends now. But everything she went through, all the battles with Naraku, all the traps, all the demons she killed, all that distance she traveled, it's all useless now. Nothing came of it. She didn't get what she wanted while everyone got what they wanted. Did she do something wrong? Does she not deserve to have her happy ending?

Sango brushed the thoughts away quickly before she could start crying again. She knew very well that such thoughts could harm her. She knew that she could hurt herself in the state she's in. She knew that it was her depression making her think this way, and think of death as a relief.

Sango's brows knit together in anger, 'Stop thinking about it! Nothing will come of it!' Sango yells into her mind. Sango desperately wanted a distraction at that moment, anything to clear her mind of such thoughts before she decides to go through with them.

Letting out a tired sigh, Sango falls backwards to lay on her back, her gaze locked on the sky above. It looks as if an artist had painted the sky. The sky was painted in various colors, now that the sun is setting. Yellows streak in with the oranges and pinks. The greens and blues seem to blend in with one another.

Sango's gaze settles on one of the colors however. Violet. It reminded her of Inuyasha's eyes, except his were a bit darker. She had never really taken a notice to his eyes before on the night of the new moon. Than again, she never really got the chance. He tended to make himself disappear away from the group whenever that night came. It was only just a few moments ago, in the hut, when she noticed how gentle his eyes appear like that, unlike his hanyou ones, those ones always seemed to be filled with anger. His human eyes are softer, warmer even. Than again, it could be because he had basically been in such a drunken state from the use of the jewel that it made him appear that way.

She watches as the violet seems to take over the other colors in the sky. Without her knowing it, her eyes began to drift close. With her mind clear of thoughts, and her emotions settled for the moment, Sango falls asleep, thankful that no dreams came to her that night.

Sorry folks, that's it for now. I know, I know. I bit short. But give me a break here, will ya? My schools play this week, and I'm stuck with 9:30 rehearsals 0P. So I be kind of busy at the moment. Well, review please! Reviews are always nice! TTNC!