Changes

We've all been through them. Haven't we? People change right? It wasn't just her? She'd wished that since forever and now. Walls seemed to climb endlessly as she tried to change. She was everyone's person to talk to. Everyone's friend. It was fun than....but now....it was...

Nothing

Kagome forgotten how it felt to be...well...Kagome. She'd had the talks from the endless, questioning shrinks. They'd talk about whatever and continue to pry into her life. Just when she thought she'd lost everything she met Naraku. He was wonderful to her and it frightened her. Why was he? Walking home from the endlessly, faceless, school she'd seen him on the street and each day they'd spoken to one another. Eventually she'd began to confined in him. Naraku was there for her to cry on to whisper to.

So she began to heal... slowly....but she was getting there...with his help. Yet one day he got to close. Reached for places he shouldn't have. He stole her first kiss and tried to get inside her. She'd known in the beginning there was something wrong with him...but...she didn't want him to leave...to leave to bear everything all alone.

Naraku was the only to notice her differently.

He would smile and it made her feel special as far as everything else in the world had no meaning compared to her. Don't her wrong Naraku wasn't a bad influence or anything, he encouraged her to reach higher and brought her his affections with gentle pats on the head and hugs which felt so comforting as the flower in newly formed dew. Each day Kagome would walk home with him and they'd talk about anything that came to her mind. But Naraku never seemed to really open up.

That should have been her first clue.

Kagome ignored it blindly.

'I didn't want to believe anything wrong about Naraku. He's so good to me...'

Naraku held secrets that captivated her and blew everyone out of the water. Her eyes were unyielding for him and always on him. When he needed her she'd fly if she'd have to reach him. Kagome felt as though she was walking on water and had flown from Earth to heaven until....

He began to get close

There hugs that lasted longer which at first she enjoyed but eventually he had an unsatisfying appetite which she was happy to fill. Like a fool she gave herself to him and hide nothing from behind her back. Like a child she elected to herself Naraku was her love and who she was going to end up. 'I gave him everything...my first kiss...my love...my innocence. For....nothing'

She felt ugly compared to him so she began to exercise and diet to gain the body she thought Naraku wanted. Her body toned up as her body continued to blossom into womanhood.

'But not enough woman to make him feel like a man'

Remember Kikyo who she had met? Kagome just remembered who she was. Kikyo was with Naraku in the park where she'd seen them kiss. Her broke in two that day and as long as time pasted she felt as though she squandered her heart on a pair of jeans she'd never wear. (She'd bought a pair to wear for Naraku)

She was obsessed and wasn't ashamed Kagome remembered, her infatuation of him was taken too far. Once more she had to try and heal....slowly....if she could at all... She did. Continuing, she continued to try and act like her old self to stop the pity pouring out from her so-called friends eyes. They talked behind her back and no truth was spoken from their lips. "She was so stupid to fall in love with the creep" The student's say or, "I feel so bad." She didn't want they're pity.

Kagome usually just laughed it off with a, "Yeah, I know...he was a jerk anyway right?"

It broke her heart each time she said that. Her time invested on him thrown away but she was still in love, love that was stronger than the bounds placed on her hearts by his cursed charms. Tears were always in her eyes though she never told Naraku why she stopped seeing him, but eventually he moved from the city, leaving her in the past forgotten and forsaken without even realizing the wounds inflicted on her mind. He called her that day to say goodbye. She didn't pick up, and had regretted the decision since.

So felt like she was put in a deep sleep. Kagome was awake for sure. But she wasn't all there. She continued to seem normal but stayed away from people until Inuyasha had asked her out.

'I still wonder why he did that'

It didn't matter now. Nothing did because she was trying to get on with life, to find a way to heal faster. Inuyasha only tried to help but...she didn't feel anything until today when she had talked to Sesshoumaru.

Sesshoumaru

The word simply rolled off her tongue as she pronounced each syllable tasting each sound to it's fullest. Her heart fluttered remembering they're last meeting. His eyes made her feel as though the earth moved beneath her. Maybe she should stop going to InuMama's house right? It just felt to weird now. Kagome had to stay away from Sesshoumaru.

"Yes?" She turned around. Towering over his discreet, and immobile matter, was Sesshoumaru. She could have sworn she didn't hear him coming. "What?" Kagome asked. "You said my name so I naturally replied." as-a-matter-of-factly said Sesshoumaru.

Was it time to cry yet? He looked so wonderful there and it scared her somehow. Sesshoumaru with her, beside her, in front of her, near her, it really felt weird. Her silver hair fluttered around him and glistened like a diamond in the sun.

'I wonder what he'd look like in moonlight.'

Kagome mentally slapped herself. What was she doing? This was Sesshoumaru her boyfriend's brother.

'Half brother'

Ah yes! How many times she was corrected on her simple mistake. Sesshoumaru usually coldly stated her wrong while Inuyasha rudely snapped her head off. She continued to gape at him, til he started to smile.

"WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU LAUGHING AT?!?!" That only made him burst out laughing.

She felt him hug her. 'Wow....he smells wonderful.' That earned her one more mental slap.

He had probably truly crossed the thinly drawn line of insanity. Was it time? to cry? to smile? She drove so many things into him. Her smile made him weak, her sadness buried him. Every time he felt her presence he was drawn. Kagome was so....different...and...So he hugged her. His arms wrapped around her thin body, head in the crook of her neck, smiling. He wasn't worth it obviously. She just stood there frozen in his arms. Rethink that. In his arms. In Sesshoumaru's arms.

'In my arms...'

How long until she would push him away like once more? She belonged to his brother.

'So what?'

Sesshoumaru liked spending time with Kagome. If he would let his brother get in the way of his target he'd be damned. Kagome was free to do what she pleased. He was intrested for sure...but...Kagome probably wouldn't want to...no he shouldn't think about this. Knowing her she'd push him away in 1...2...3...4...

"SESSHOUMARU!!!!!!!!!!"

He looked up to her dark eyes filled with the once empty void. Sometime during the past minute she'd managed to push him to the ground and stood five feet apart from him. He'd probably figure that out later, but for now this Sesshomaru would be persistent in his endeavour to tear the cold masquerade from herself. Kagome stood with a realization written on her face. Getting up, he clamingly answered her unasked question, "Inuyasha and Kikyo are fine. They're back entertaining each other with one another's company. So don't worry." She smiled slightly.

"I'm not. Inuyasha wouldn't do anything." He mentally scoffed. Obviously his brother didn't bother to inform her about his past shady relationships. 'Hhm..well even so he shouldn't left you to walk home alone. Come." He said. It took her a while it seemed to process in her head but she did as she was told. "I'm old enough to walk outside you know. It's not even dark." She complained as the two walked side by side down the leaf covered street.

"I'm sure you think you are but it's not polite to leave one companion walk home unescorted, especially a pretty, young, lady as yourself." Her cheeks turned a bright red.

"Still. Inuyasha didn't even eat so he probably wanted to stay. You know? So I wouldn't want him to give up dinner just for me." Sesshoumaru's pace quickened. "Sesshoumaru?" Kagome questioned.

He'd been quiet after her last statement. Is this how the dog treated her? The fool didn't deserve her. He'd take Kagome, from his grasp and carry her away in his arms. "What are you doing tonight?" He asked. "Other than taking a shower...I guess nothing. Why do you ask?" The two just kept walking. They reached the door of her shrine. 'Maybe I'll ask her now?'

He sighed.

This was exasperated. "Sesshoumaru?" He looked down. Kagome continued to wave her hand infront of his face. He grabbed her wrist and held her hand. She looked down to where they're hands where touching and her eyes looked up at his confused. "Sesshoumau...um...what..." Sesshoumaru used his other hand to place on her red lips. 'I'm taking you out tonight." Kagome pushed him to the wooden wall.

"Isn't there a part during this whole dating thing where you actually ask me?" She whispered angrily. Opening her door she stepped inside, leaning against the door she continued to look at Sesshoumaru. "I'm not dating you Kagome. We're just going out to dinner. You left before my step-mother could even serve you." Combing his hand in his hair he looked up at the sky. "Besides, most ladies would be more than happy to spend an evening with myself, and I hardly think you are any exception." He looked back at Kagome. Her eyes narrowed. "Oh please! Let me spend my time with the one and only Sesshoumaru! How my life would be fulfilled." She stated playing along.

He smirked.

Turning to head back for his house Sesshoumaru called out, "Wear something nice."

"But...I'm dating your brother..."He heard her whisper. Shaking his head he turned around. "Regardless Kagome, I'm still taking you out whether or not your dressed for the occasion." Pushing farther into the house he stuck his head in and winked at her, and slammed the door in her face. Sesshoumaru remembered the look on her face and couldn't help but retain a smile. What was going on through his mind now? To tell you the truth he didn't know but to tell the truth.

Sesshoumaru felt that Kagome was...well...he didn't know what to say but....Oh forget it. It was getting late and he had to spend the rest of the evening with Kikyo.

'Oh joy'

She was probably still hanging over Inuyasha.

He continued to walk through the streets obviously. A car honked it horn and from the window appeared the head of a girl. She winked, and got back in. "Bimbo." He grumbled and continued on his way. Ah! One of the curses he had was the unwanted attraction of the opposite gender...while sometimes they happened to be men at times...he won't describe his past love life. He was going out with Kagome tonight and he had to think of a place where they dine for the evening, Sesshoumaru didn't know about her but he was simply to put it voracious.

'Maybe she'd like Chinese?'

No

He'd go Italian. Sesshoumaru could already tasted the garlic bread fresh from the oven at his regular restaurant. The place was an uptown eatery that he'd often visited as a child and continued to eat as he grew. His mother use to take him to eat before his parents separated. Unfortunately, his father received custody of him as a adolescent, his team of lawyers made sure of that.

'Mom saw him there, gnawing at Inuyasha's mother as if she where a bone.'

He was absolutely disgusted with his father inability for follow his hormones but over time he grew to ignore the old man. Sesshoumaru remembered the picture Kagome seemed intent on staring at during their brief time in the dining room. The artist was just meant to paint the house but for some reason he placed he and his mother as part of the landscape portrait. Even so Sesshoumaru's father kept the picture. Looking at his wrist watch, the point a quarter till 7 he began to wonder and picture himself and Kagome inside. Romantic music playing, they would stare into one another's eyes and...

Stop.

He was reading too much into this. Kagome would just going to have dinner with him and than he'll see how the evening would go. "One things for sure...If the evening doesn't work out I'm going to bring home some food."

Kagome stood there and continued to gape at the door.

How dare he? Asking her out without her permission? Well actually he didn't ask her out but that wasn't the point right now. The point was that he just...well...she didn't know what he did but she didn't like it. Pushing her into her house and telling her how to dress and when she'd eat.

"HEY! He was the one who got to slam the door in MY face."

Groaning she headed upstairs to her room. Opening her closet she quickly skimmed through her choices for the evening. 'God! I have nothing to wear!' She stopped. Why was she getting so worked up? It's just Sesshoumaru the guy you knew when you where little I mean...sure he was...um

"Drop dead gorgeous."

Kagome couldn't help herself the words just popped out. Besides she was alone and that was what he was, she was in her room nobody was listening, so why would she lie. Who was she going to call for help?

Sango.

She smiled fondly at the memories the two shared a while ago. Before she met Naraku and went into her the part of her life where she was lost she's always talked to Sango. They'd hung out and talked until...well...she didn't want to talk anymore. Taking the hint they just stopped communicating. Kagome picked up the phone and dialed the number she'd so along ago used to call everyday after school. 'Please. Sango please pick up.' She chewed on the bottom of her lip.

"Hello?"

"Hi...um...is Sango there?" She held her breath praying that Sango still remembered her. "Yup! This is her. Who's calling?" Cheerful as ever that girl ."It's me...Kagome..." There was silence on the other end.

"Sango?" She asked again. "Hi Kagome, How are you?" She sighed. What a relief to have Sango. "Hey...um...do you think you can come over?" Her friend giggled. "Sure. I'll be over right away. What for?" Kagome stopped to think should she tell her now on the phone or...surprise her?

Surprise.

"Oh, it's nothing I just need your help on something."

She seemed quiet for a minute until giggles could be heard from the other line. "Well, sure. Bye Kagome."

Kagome couldn't but smile, after she hung up the phone. Things where actually going well for her and well...she didn't even care about anything. Her mind went back to Naraku. How was he doing now? Did he even think of her? Wait. She was still Inuyasha's girlfriend, but she was going to spend the evening with Sesshoumaru. So....did that mean...that...she was cheating on him? Did she really reach so low that she would cheat? Sesshoumaru had mention something about Inuyasha and Kikyo.

Her face darkened.

Didn't Kikyo steal Naraku away from her? A doorbell stopped her thoughts. 'I really can't be thinking about this now.' Heading down the creaking steps, the doorbell repeatedly continued to ring. Opening the door she came face to face with a Sango.

'She didn't even change.'

Placing a smile on her face, "Thanks for coming Sango." Her dark, brown, eyes shined as they focused on Kagome. The two stared at each other for awhile wondering what would happen past this point. Stepping inside the house they'd use to share together Sango asked, "So what's the surprise?" Leaning against the wall she looked into the mirror, "I have a date tonight." Sango froze and turned to look at her friend. "Is it Naraku?" She asked waiting for the answer. Kagome smiled. "Nope! Believe it or not it's Sesshoumaru..."

"OH MY GOD KAGOME!!!!!!!!!!"


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