Summary: How the 5th season could have ended and the next one begin in my opinion. Can Luke help to break down the wall between Rory and Lorelai? JavaJunkie but main focus on Lorelai/Rory-relationship.

Author's note: The story could be a sequel to my last story. So feel free to read that one two :) There are more chapters to come. Reviews (good, bad and in between) highly appreciated. English is not my native language, so be kind. This fanfic was written before "Blame Booze and Melville" aired so everything that happened on the show ever since has no effect on my fanfic.

pen2starshollow: Thank you so much for your help, suggestions and beta-reading!

Disclaimer: I do not own Gilmore Girls. I wish I did like most people here, but I don't. The only thing that I own that could be linked to GG is my coffee machine.


Breaking down the wall - Chapter 1

Lorelai tried hard to concentrate on the road.

Don't think about it, Lorelai. Don't think about it. Concentrate! – it didn't work - How was that possible? What had she done wrong? This was supposed to be a great night. She had wanted to tell Rory about her and Luke moving in together and that she had finally told him that she loved him. It was supposed to be great and exciting and happy. What had happened? Why was there a fight and how could the fight escalate like that? She hadn't meant to go this far. But one thing had led to another. One angry word had led to a bitter answer, which had led to yet another stupid word.

Don't think about it. Concentrate, Lorelai! – but her mind wandered off again - Rory, her daughter, her pal. How could she say that? "Just go, mum! I don't care what you think. I will stay here over the summer. I don't need you. Stay out of my life, okay? I am old enough to make my own decisions!"

And then Lorelai had answered. "Well then, fine! Stay here. Make your own decisions. But when you have realized that dropping out of Yale was a stupid, stupid thing, don't come crawling back to me! You're old enough. Live your life. See if I care. I was just trying to protect you from making a big mistake. But, gee, I guess I was just stupidtrying to do something like that."

She hadn't stopped there. Oh, no. "And you, oh yes, you, mum, dad, how can you support her? You always wanted Rory to get the best education, to go to Yale, to become something great. And now you support her in this ridiculous decision? Why? Because she has a boyfriend now, who is of good breeding? Suddenly she doesn't need a life of her own, because she could live her husband's life? You can't be serious! I've had enough. I can't take it anymore. Bye!"

And with this she had left the house. She heard the door bang behind her. As soon as she had started the engine of her Jeep to drive back to Stars Hollow, the fight re-appeared before her inner eye. And with every time she thought about it, she more and more regretted her harsh words.

Yes, she still thought it was a stupid idea to drop out of Yale. It was a stupid idea just to think about it. But she shouldn't have exploded like that. She should have tried to talk with Rory. Not yell at her. She hadn't meant to yell at her like that. Suddenly she realized that she might have lost Rory. They had never had a fight like that. She felt tears filling her eyes. Concentrate on the road, Lorelai. Just concentrate!



Luke was in Lorelai's bedroom.

After they had decided to move in together in Lorelai's house until she was ready to move to the Twickham House with him, Lorelai said that she wanted to go to Friday Ni ght Dinner totell Rory about the great news. She had gone home to change and Luke had said that he'd drop by at her house later sothey could celebrate.

He had arrived a bit early, hoping that Lorelai hadn't come home yet. He wanted to surprise her with some home-madepie and champagne (even though he hated champagne). He lit a few candles. He wasn't exactly that kind of guy, but the occasion seemed right to acta little like anover-the-top romantic. Plus he had already packed a box with some shirts, socks, anda tooth-brush. The basic "moving together"gear. He just couldn't wait to start this new life with Lorelai.

He had gone into her bedroom to find a place for the box, but instead he had found an empty drawer and half of Lorelai's cupboard empty. There was a box on the floor with a bunch of clothes stuffed into it.

Apparently he wasn't the only one who couldn't wait to get started. He smiled. This was perfect. He started to put his socks and boxer briefsinto the empty drawer when he heard a car in the driveway.


When Lorelai finally reached Stars Hollow, she immediately drove to Luke's diner. But it was all dark. For ahalf an hour she had tried to stop herself from crying. She couldn't take it much longer. She drove on to her house. Hoping, praying that Luke would be there.

His truck was in her driveway. Thank God!

She left the Jeep and opened the door with shaking hands. She needed him. She needed him so badly right now. He was the only thing that was left.

She entered the hallway and called out for him. "Luke?" Please, please be here.

No answer. "Luke!" she entered the living room, calling out for him louder.

"Yeah. I'm upstairs. Bedroom."

She couldn't go upstairs. She couldn't move anymore. She couldn't even take her coat off. All she wanted, all she needed was someone to hold her. She needed to break down. It had been too much.

"Luke! Could you…" her voice started to break, "could you please … come down?"

Hmm, she sounds a bit funny. Well, maybe she has a surprise, too.

Luke left the bedroom and went downstairs. "Hey, how was dinn..." He stopped in his tracks when he saw her. She was standing in the middle of the living room, still in her coat, her purse in one hand, the keys in the other. Her eyes were welling up, her chin was twitching, and she was biting her lower lip. She looks terrible.

"What's wrong?" Luke quickly went down the last few steps until he was standing right in front of Lorelai. She was silent. Shejust stoodthere looking at him, in desperate need for help. He put his hands on her shoulders.

"What happened?" he said calmly, looking into her eyes andtrying to let her know that he was there no matter what.

Lorelai closed her eyes. She pressed her lips together and swallowed hard, trying to keep herself from crying. But she couldn't prevent it. She started sobbing. She dropped her purse and keys. She had no control over her body anymore. This had been too much. Her knees were getting weak. She could feel herself collapsing.

But Luke caught her. He took her into his arms and supported her, trying to pull her up a little. She was crying now. Her knees gave in, but Luke held tight, making sure she didn't fall.

He had never seen her like that. Yes, he had seen her cry. She had cried on his shoulder a couple of times, but this was different. He had no idea what had happened, but it must have been terrible.

"Sshhhh. Sshhhh. It's okay. It's okay. Sshhh." Luke strokedher hair with one hand while he wrapped his other arm around her waist to hold her up. He had to calm her down. At least a little. He had to find out what had happened.

Lorelai continued to cry. She couldn't stop. This was a living nightmare. She had lost her daughter. Her daughter didn't want to have anything to do with her anymore. He knees gave in again and her sobs becameworse.

Luke had never been so worried. What had happened? He had never seen her like that.

He didn't know what else to do. He supported Lorelai's back with one arm and flung the other one under her knees and lifted her up. Lorelai was in no condition to protest or agree or do anything. She had no control over her body. Her head dropped on Luke's shoulder and her arm automatically rested on his chest.

She cried all the way, while Luke carried her upstairs to the bedroom. He placed her on the bed. When he wanted to let go of her to pull the blanket over her, she grabbed his shirt, still sobbing.

"Ssshhh. It's okay. I'm here. I'm here." He strokedher hair while he spoke to her softly. He didn't know what else to do. He was heart broken. What had hurt her so badly?

She let go of his shirt slowly and curled up into the fetal-position. Luke silently went to switch off the lights. Then he climbed back into bed and laid down beside her. It seemed like she was beginning to calm down. He could see that she was exhausted. He strokedher hair and tried to comfort her. "Sshhhh. Sshhhh." It was all he could say. He knew now was not the time to push her to talk.

The sobbing grewsofter. Lorelai even opened her eyes. She looked at Luke, and her eyes seemed to say "Thank you. Thank you for not asking." He continued to stroke her hair. A few minutes later, Lorelai had fallen asleep. The crying had worn her out.

Luke lay beside her. Always looking at her, trying to make sure that she was okay. Only, he knew that she wasn't. Something had happened at Friday Night Dinner. Something terrible. He had to ask her. He had to find out. But not right now. She had to calm down first. She had to get some rest. He watched her sleep.


Lorelai woke up a few hours later. Her head was spinning. Her eyes felt terribly dry. Luke was facing her. He looked tired, as if he hadn't slept at all. And he looked concerned.

"Hey. You okay?" he said in a soft voice.

Lorelai realized that she was still wearing her coat. And then she remembered. It had not been a dream. It had not been a nightmare. It was reality and it was killing her. But she was still too exhausted to cry again.

She pulled herself up and sat at the edge of her bed, staring in front of her, not looking at anything.

Luke sat beside her and put his arm around her. "What happened?" He tried to say it as gentlyas possible.

Lorelai looked up and faced Luke. She took a deep breath and bit her lower lip again. She had to tell him. But how? How should she explain it? She couldn't even believe it herself.

But she saw his concern and she knew that she had to tell him. So she took heart. She sighed and she could feel her eyes welling up again.

"I've lost her, Luke. I've lost her." Lorelai started sobbing again and looked away from Luke, who didn't quiteunderstand what she had just said. Lost her? Whom? Rory? That was not possible. What had she meant?

"We had this huge fight and she said thesethings. That she didn't need me. That I should go. That she can make her own decisions. And then I answered and you know my big mouth. My big stupidmouth. How it sometimes just starts talking, without thinking. And I said those things, and then I yelled at my parents, which is nothing new, I guess, but it didn't really help.I left and drove to Stars Hollow, and thenI realized what I said and that I hadlost her. And I needed you. I drove to the diner and the lights were off and you were not there, and then I drove home and … and … and …."

Her emotions took over again. Luke pulled her into a hug and let her cry. He still didn't know what had happened exactly, but at least he had a clue, even though he couldn't believe it. She was upset about Rory. She had had a fight with Rory and she had lost her. But why? He still didn't know what had happened that made her lose Rory.



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