Title- Reminiscing
Songfic- Asshole by Bowling for Soup
Disclaimer- song's not mine, Star Trek isn't mine, sucks for me
Couple- P/C really short, really sad, not my usual scenario
A/N- I don't quite know if Beverly is dead or has just left the ship, I think I'll leave that to interpretation. First romance I've written so let me know what you think.
Beverly, even the sound of her name made him weep. Why did it have to go so wrong? Why couldn't he have told her he loved her? Why was he so damn afraid? He loved everything about her; her voice, her hair, her smile. He loved to watch her work. It was his job to protect the lives on the ship, but if anything ever happened, he knew she would heal them.
You were in love with some other guy.
He knew she had had other relationships other the years. But he always had hoped he would be the next of her lovers. He remembers her laughter that filled his quarters. They would have dinner together regularly. But he never did anything romantic, no music, no dancing, nothing candle-lit. And on KesPrit, he knew exactly what she was feeling. He could feel her love and knew she felt his.
He looked just like me, but I make you cry.
Then one night, he had found her crying. It was the anniversary of Jack's death. He felt her pain. How could he have been so stupid, he knew she still loved Jack? It was just his ego telling him that he should be her night in shining armor. He kissed her.
You know I don't mean to…
It went on from there, but things had changed. She seemed so happy. But that was a lie. She was hurting and this love was killing her. She did it for him, she gave into his love. She could no longer fight it. It had seemed so right those months ago, but now, alone again, it's so wrong. He should have seen the signs, should have read her mind a little better. But now she is gone and there's nothing he can do except cry.
I'm just an asshole sometimes.
