Abby had eased back into school, Carter and Susan right beside her every step of the way. They had been great. She couldn't have asked for two better friends. No one had given her weird looks or anything like that. Actually, she was pretty sure that none of her school mates knew anyway. It had all been kept pretty quiet, which was exactly what Abby wanted.

She knew it wasn't going to be easy to just settle back into life, but she really was trying her hardest. There had already been days when she felt like cutting, but had stopped herself. There had been days when all she wanted to do was get pissed, but she had stopped herself. I guess they were both good things.


She walked towards Miss Watts office for her appointment. She tapped on the door, poking her head inside.

"Hey Abby. Take a seat" Miss Watts said, continuing to type something on her computer.

"I'll be right with you."

Abby nodded, looking around the counselor's office. The number of times she'd been staring at the colourful posters and this was the first time she'd ever stopped to read them. One was about bullying, the next about emotions. Abby focused her glance on the one about smoking. She should really give that up as well. That was the one thing she hadn't been able to do yet.

"Ok. Sorry about that" Miss Watts said, spinning around from her desk.

"It's fine"

"So…how have you been this week?"

Abby looked up at Miss Watts, dragging her gaze away from her feet. She wanted to make this work. She really did.

"Yeah alright I guess"

"School hasn't been too much for you?"

"It's been fine"

"Any more acts of self-harm?"

"No"

Abby sighed, cursing silently to herself. She was doing it again! The whole, short answers thing had crept back up on her. She'd been trying so hard to get out of that routine. She had promised herself she would try and open up more.

"What's wrong?" Miss Watts asked suspiciously, watching Abby strange behaviour.

"I'm sorry. I was trying really hard to not close up like I usually do, and yet I practically did it without realizing."

"That's ok" she said reassuringly. "It's not going to happen overnight Abby, you know that."

"I know. I just wish it would. I want to be fixed."

"No one can fix you Abby. Not me, not your friends, not even yourself. Your not here to be fixed. You're here to find different ways of coping…that's all. There's no such thing as a miracle cure."

Abby nodded. She knew all this. She just didn't want to believe it. She wanted everything to go back to how it was. Before she had fucked up her life and everyone's she cared about.

"It's ok to feel like that. I understand that you want this to all be over, but the truth is it's going to take time. It's going to take time and a lot of work both mentally and emotionally."

Miss Watts turned back to her desk, searching for something in one of her drawers. She pulled out a booklet, showing it to Abby.

"I want you to fill this in for the next couple of days."

"What is it?" Abby asked, cautiously.

"It's a mood diary. At the end of each day, I want you to write in it. You have to write when you felt the best, and when you felt the worst…and then give the day a rating out of 10 depending how happy you were."

"Gee that sounds like fun" Abby said sarcastically, taking the booklet off her.

Miss Watts smiled. "It takes time remember. Time and a lot of hard work both…"

"…mentally and emotionally" Abby finished for her. "I know"

"Well good." She paused for a minute, getting her thoughts together.

"You know, I really am glad that you're ok Abby. I can see already that you're making a big improvement…that you're serious this time."

"I'm glad I'm ok too. And...uh…thanks for being there. I'm sorry that I put you all through so much shit…but I'm so glad that you didn't leave me. I'm just so thankful you were there."

Miss Watts smiled again, this time leaning forward and hugging Abby tightly.

"Just promise me you'll never do anything as stupid as that again?" she said, pulling back.

"I promise."


"Hey Abby!" Susan said brightly, popping up beside Abby's locker.

"Hey…what's up?"

"What are you up to tonight?"

"Uh, nothing."

"Awesome. You wanna come to the movies? We're having a kind of group-movie session thing? Movies…dinner…shopping? You know you want to come!"

Abby grinned; almost laughing at Susan's excited face.

"Count me in!"

"Great. Oh and tell Carter he can come too" she said over her shoulder, hurrying off to invite some more people.

Abby felt someone's arms wrap around her waist, and she spun round to see Carter's smiling face.

"Where did Susan just rope us into going tonight?"

"Movies"

"And you said yes! I thought you and I were going to spend some time together tonight…alone." He whined.

"But she was so excited…I couldn't say no. And we will be spending time together."

"You're a pushover you know that!"

"I am not!" she retorted.

"Are too!" he said, kissing her passionately.

They broke apart, Carter still smiling.

"See…you're a pushover!"

Abby whacked him playfully, both of them unbelievably happy. It was scary that not too long ago she was ready to throw this all away. She was so glad that she hadn't. She had way too much to live for right now.


A/N This is the end of the story people! Although i am planning to add a future epilogue very soon. Anyway...thanks to everyone who has read and reviewed my story. I wouldn't have gotten anywhere without your support and nice comments! (My aim was to get to 100 reviews...and im soooo close! lol.) Anyway,I hope you all enjoyed it...because I definately had fun writing it.

LoZa