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Chapter 9: Not able to sleep
Alanna could hardly sleep that night and so did Jonathan.They lay awake in there beds, staring at the ceiling. They were thinking about each other, allthough they would never admit it. They tried to sleep, but they weren't successful.
Why am I still thinking about her that much?, Jonathan asked himself, I never thoght about a woman that much before.
Damn it! Why can't I get him out of my head?, Alanna thought, It's not like I'm in love with him or something.
At about 3 o'clock they finally fell asleep.
The next morning after breakfast Alanna decided that it was time to talk to Jonathan. She knocked on his door and entered his room. He was looking out of the window, but he turned round when he heard the knock.
As he saw Alanna he frowned. "Leave me alone, Alanna!", he said and looked away.
"No, Jon! We have to talk", Alanna told him.
"I told you to leave! It was an order, not a request!", Jonathan shouted and pointed to the door.
Alanna put her hands on her hips. "Well, I don't obey it!"
"What do you want, Alanna?"
She sighed. "I want to talk to you."
"You want to talk?" Jon sat down on a chair. "Then Talk."
Alanna grabbed another chair and sat down too. "Duke Gareth sent for my last evening. Well, he asked me about, you know, that incident. I told him you aren't gay and that you did it, because you were drunk. And I think he believed me."
Jonathan had wished that she wanted to talk about something else. Deep inside he knew that she didn't love him, but he still hoped. He swallowed. "Well, thanks" He stood up. "If that's all, you can go now, don't you?"
Alanna walked to the door, but then she stopped. "Jon, what...what have I done? We are still friends, aren't we?"
"Yes, I think so. We are...friends."
Alanna sighed and left then room. Suddenly someone grabbed her shoulder and turned her round. It was Jon.
"Alanna, I...it's...I love you.", he said and looked her deep in the eyes.
Alanna didn't know what to think or what to do. She felt giddy, because he held her so close and she thought that he could hear her heartbeat. Slowly his lips came closer to hers and carefully Jonathan kissed her. Alanna heard her own voice screaming in her head, "...there is no us and there will never be any us!" But now it just felt so right, alltough her fears were still there.
Finally she pulled away, though. "Jon, I...I can't.", she stammered.
Jonathan's eyes were full of hurt again. "Could you tell me why?", he asked.
"I've never planned on falling in love, I just want to be a knight and go on adventures. I don't want to end up like my father.", she tried to explain.
"Who says you will? Love's not always sad and it doesn't always hurts."
Alanna got angry again. "You want to tell me what love's like? You don't know it, either! Yesterday you slept with Delia and now you tell me that you love me?", she screamed.
"I didn't sleep with her!", Jonathan shouted.
Alanna's heart made a jump, but she was still suspicious. "And how did you get my charm?"
"I broke into her rooms. You're not the only one who got picklocks from George."
Alanna looked down at her feet. Maybe he is right, maybe love isn't that bad, but I don't think I'm ready, she thought. "Sorry. But Jon, I'm not sure about love yet. Please understand that."
"I do and I won't talk about it again, unless you want so.", Jonathan said.
"Thanks."
After a few moments Jon smiled. "What do you think about meeting Raoul and Gary and see who's the best warrior?"
Alanna began to laugh. "Great idea."
It's not over, if you think that. Who knows what complications may happen to Alanna and Jon in the next chapter. And will something change Alanna's mind?
