TaraYuki-Uesugi here! Chapter 10 ya'll! I didn't remember it all but I think it turned out even better than the original! I do hope you enjoy.
I want you all to give a round of applause for Shuuichi Shindou-Uesugi! (Clap Damnit!) :aplause: She is now my beta so yes No more Fuck Ups from Shtara :the crowd chers: lol She is fantastic and did this sooooooo super fast! And I have to give her props cuz she totally checked it when i wrote this when i was half dead...I mean...half aslepp. So I KNOW there were like mistakes all over the place! Yaschel you are the best in the world! Many huggs!
Random thoughts: I'm going away at the end of August and my fics are coming with me! I have an internship at disney and Imma try my best to update as often as possible, k? Tho this one will be done in like 2 weeks, I will be doing the sequels while in Florida. If n e 1 cares lol...Greg Ayres is Hott! LMAO ...Random Thoughts...Complete.
Disclaimer: No, I don't own Gravitation. But I do LOVE Greg Ayers!
And now...On with the Show...
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Shuichi knocked on the door to his husbands study. When he didn't hear an answer, he let himself in. "Eiri?" he said tentatively as he entered. Shuichi walked over to Yuki's desk and shook his head. Yuki's face was plastered to the keyboard of the laptop and judging by the blank page on the screen, another night had passed without him writing anything. Eiri shifted in his sleep and Shuichi gasped as he saw Eiri's blue sweater slip off his shoulder. Now, Eiri has always been thin but now he looked sickly thin. His sweater looked way too large for him and his collar bones were more visible than ever, poking thru his flesh.
Shuichi's eyes began to fill with tears as he looked around the room for the first time. Cigarette butts and empty beer cans littered the floor and the desk. Shu wiped the tears from his eyes and began to wake his husband. "Eiri? Eiri, come on get up. It's four in the morning." Eiri stirred as he lifted his head and looked at Shuichi sleepily. "Huh? What? No, I have to keep writing" Yuki protested as Shuichi took his arm and pulled him to his feet. "Not now ok? You can finish tomorrow. "Eiri nodded and let Shuichi lead him out of the room and upstairs. Shuichi assumed that the only reason Eiri didn't protest was because he was half asleep anyway.
It was odd really. Shuichi hasn't been to work since the children were suspended from school. Tohma decided to let him off with a lot of coaxing from his wife. He realized she was right when he too stopped by the house and realized how bad-of-shape the Shindou-Uesugi family had really been in. Shuichi was more that grateful that his brother in law was his boss and understood. Since he's been home, Shuichi really hasn't had a good night sleep. He couldn't take the fact that the bed was so empty. Now you'd think that he'd be used to it by now, since Eiri worked nights, but he wasn't. The bed felt so lonely and empty without his husband by his side. Normally it wouldn't bother him; maybe it was cuz he knew that Eiri was in pretty bad shape. He didn't know but all he did know was that he needed his husband by his side for the night. And he was glad he had gone downstairs and gotten him.
Once they were in the bedroom, Shuichi undressed Eiri from his normal house attire and put him in his pajamas. Eiri must have really been tired, because he didn't protest. Once Shuichi knew that Eiri was situated in the bed, he realized that he in fact, wasn't tired anymore. He sighed, turned off the light in the bedroom and made his way back downstairs to the living room. He flopped on the couch with a huge sigh and turned on the TV. He flipped thru the channels for a good three hours but nothing good was on. It was daylight when his eyes began to feel heavy and he fell asleep.
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"Now I know this isn't my family. It is just way too quiet in here." Shuichi heard a voice say as he was pulled out of his sleep. He opened his eyes and saw four figures standing in front of him. He blinked a few times. "Tatsuha? Mom, dad, Maiko?"
"I told you guys it was freakishly quiet in here" Tatsuha said as Shuichi noticed it was his voice that had pulled him out of his slumber before. "I wouldn't have believed it unless I saw it with my own two eyes" said Mr. Shindou." Where are they?" he asked his son. Shuichi shrugged. "I don't know. Either sleeping or just locked up in their rooms. They never leave anymore. "Mr. Shindou frowned "I'm going to go up and see them" he said and with that he retreated to the upstairs bedrooms.
"My gods, why is it so quiet in here?" Mrs. Shindou said as she took a seat next to her eldest child. "And dark?" Maiko said as she walked over to the window and drew the shade, letting the dark room that looked like midnight fill with light. Shuichi shrugged. "No one talks anymore. They're all too depressed"
"And angry" Tatsuha said as he examined the hole Yuki had punched there the day before. Shuichi sighed." I don't know what to do. No one will talk, I can't get them out of their rooms, and they barely eat. "Shuichi looked exhausted and Mrs. Shindou frowned. She hated seeing her son like this. He was usually so happy and full of life. This is so out of character for him and she hated it. "Don't worry sweetie" she said as she pulled a tuft of his hair behind his ear. "Everything will work out fine in the end." She smiled at her son and kissed him on the cheek. "I'm going to go cook some dinner" she said as she stood and began making her way into the kitchen. "I'll help" Maiko said following. "Dinner? What time is it?" "After six" Tatsuha answered as he took a seat next to his brother-in-law.
"After six? 0Wow" was all Shu could say. They sat in silence. "You should see him" Shuichi said startling Tatsuha after such a long silence. "He's shrinking" Shuichi's eyes began to fill with tears again. "He's wasting away. He won't eat anything unless I make him and even then it's a difficult feat. He is losing so much weight. He looks sickly. And the kids ..." Shuichi buried his face in his hands. "I barely even see them. They just lock themselves in their rooms. But at least they eat even if I have to take them their food." Tatsuha looked at his favorite brother-in-law with hurt in his eyes. He hated seeing Shu like this. He knew this was tearing him apart but he was still surprised that Shuichi had hung on this long. Normally Shu would have completely broken down by now but he was still hanging in there. "I'm proud of you, Shu." Tatsuha said as Shuichi looked up at him all child like and his eyes red. Tatsuha chuckled. "I really am" He pulled Shuichi so that his head rested in his lap." You really are a family man and you're taking care of them better than anyone else could have ever done." Shuichi began to cry. He put his face back into his hands and began to shake his head no.
"No,
I haven't they wont talk, they barely eat, Yuki's sick, I know he is.
I'm not doing a good job. I'm failing but I don't know what else
to do, Tatsuha. I'm running on 'E'. I'm trying. I'm trying to take
care of them but they just won't let me in. "Tatsuha smiled.
Leave it to Shuichi to not see all that he's actually doing for his
family. "Shu, you are doing the best you can for them and that's
all you can do. You're not leaving them alone. You're letting them
know you're here when they need you and that's the best thing you
can do. Now I want you to stop crying and do me a favor."
Shuichi pulled himself off of Tatsuha's lap and wiped his eyes on
the back of his hand. '"What?" he asked. Tatsuha smirked.
"Take a shower cuz you smell like ass" Shuichi laughed.
Leave it to Tatsuha to always make someone feel better. "Ok, ok.
I will." "Good." Shuichi reached over and hugged
Tatsuha as hard as he could. "Thanks" he said. "No
problem. Now go wash up, you're killing me you stink" "Shut
up! No I don't "Shu yelled but he pulled himself from his
bother-in-law and made his way upstairs anyway to take his
shower.'One down, one to go ' Tatsuha
thought to himself as he made his way up the stairs to the first
bedroom.
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Keiichi sighed. His shift was finally over and he was now changing out of his uniform and into his street clothes. Today was a really hard day. His mind constantly swarmed with thoughts of a certain pink haired person that was sitting at home at the computer typing and waiting for him. Keiichi sighed and banged his head on the open locker door in the back of the restaurant. He was developing a headache. He sighed again and finally put on his shirt. Once his shoes were on, he said his goodbyes and left for the train station. Once situated on the train, he couldn't stop thinking about Keisuke. 'Ok, there's no way in hell I can deny it anymore. I like him. I like him a lot. My Gods, when the hell did this happen. I've never liked guys before.' He buried his face in his hands as the computer voice announced his stop. He hadn't even noticed that he was home already. Time flew by quickly when he thought about Keisuke.
Once out of the train station, he decided to take the long way home. It was dusk now and he needed to think. 'Ok, so I like Keisuke. Now what? What the hell am I supposed to do?' His mind began to fill with random thoughts of Keisuke. Keisuke cooking dinner, Keisuke sitting and working so diligently on the computer, Keisuke laughing when he told a joke...Keiichi smiled. 'How could I not fall for him?' he asked himself. 'He's adorable' Keiichi's smile grew as more thoughts of Keisuke filled his mind. He knew what he had to do.' I have to tell him how I feel. I have to let him know what he does to me ' Keiichi laughed. This was the right thing to do. He had to tell him how he felt. He had to tell him that...He...loved him.
Keiichi froze. 'Love?' he thought. 'Love is a strong word'. But there was no denying. He loved the boy more than he had ever loved any girl. He'd do anything to make him happy. He realized that he never wanted Keisuke to leave his side. Never ever wanted to be alone again. Keisuke had filled that void of living alone for so long. But not anymore. He was in love and the one he loved was by his side, waiting for his return home. 'I have to tell him' he thought. Keiichi smiled again. There's no better feeling than being in love. He smiled and whistled a happy tune as he walked home with a pep in his step. He was in love and he felt better than ever. He couldn't wait to get home. He couldn't wait to get home and tell Keisuke that he...
Keiichi froze again as his eyes fell on the new billboard that was put up over the intersection. He looked at eyes identical to the one he loved in the new Bad Luck billboard and his heart sank. 'I can't tell him' He thought as his smile faltered. 'There's no way I can tell him I love him. He hates gay relationships' Keiichi felt his heart break as realization hit him. He hung his head low. 'There's no way. He'd hate me' he thought. 'I can't tell him. I just can't' Keiichi felt tears sting the corner of his eyes but they never fell. He sighed as he took one last glance at the billboard and then continued to walk home. He couldn't tell him. It would never work out.
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Keisuke's fingers clicked away at the keys of the keyboard. He backspaced as his finger hit the wrong letter for the tenth time in a row. He stopped and banged his head on the keyboard, sending a bunch of letters across the screen. 'Keiichi' that's all he could think about. Keiichi. 'Why?' Keisuke has been asking himself that question all day. Why? Why wre his thoughts only filled with Keiichi? I mean sure he lived with Keiichi but he used to live with his parents and siblings too and he never thought about them that much.And that's his family. 'Do I ... like him?' Keisuke thought. 'Well duh! Of course I like him.' He made a goofy smile. 'He's my friend.' His smile vanished. 'Maybe I like him as more than a friend. Oh Hell no! There is no way in HELL I'm gay. Nuh-uh, not happening.' Keisuke shook his head violently from side to side. 'Maybe I do like him.' His face went white. 'No, no I can't. I can't like him. I am NOT like dad and daddy. I am not...gay.' He shook his head again and erased the letters that his head butt to the keyboard left behind. 'No way' He thought as he began to type again.
Twenty minutes later, Keisuke heard the key in the lock. He took a deep breath. 'Ok, no big deal. He's just home. I hope his food isn't cold.'
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Keiichi sighed and put the key in the lock. "I'm home" He announced as he opened the door and was immediately greeted with a smile. And his heart sank. "Welcome home" Keisuke said. "Your food should be on the stove. I hope it's not cold" Keiichi stared. 'There's no way I can tell him how I feel. I can't. I don't want to lose him' He smiled. "Ok, thanks" Keiichi closed the door behind him, set his book bag on the floor near the door and went to the kitchen to retrieve his dinner. He smiled as he saw his plate. The food sat on the stove still steaming. 'Keisuke must have just heated it up' He thought to himself. 'He's so good to me'
Keiichi finished his dinner lost in thought. He was very upset at the fact that he had finally accepted the fact that he loved Keisuke but now realized that he could never tell him. 'There's no way I can tell him' He kept repeating in his mind. He picked up his empty plate and cleaned it in the sink. With one glance at Keisuke at the computer, he buried his face in his hands and took a deep breath. 'I need to go out' He thought to himself.' I can't stay around him'. He walked over to the door and took his coat off the coat rack. "Where are you going?" He heard Keisuke ask. 'I can't face him' He put on his coat with his back to his roommate. "I'm just going out for a bit of a walk. I'll be right back" and with the he opened the door and left. Keisuke felt his heart dropped as he watched Keiichi leave. 'What's the matter?' He thought to himself. 'I do hope he's ok. I don't like seeing him upset'
Keiichi walked out into the cool air. It was dusk and the sun was almost gone. He sighed as he looked at the sunset, comparing it to his and Keisuke's relationship that hadn't even started yet. Setting. He sighed again and began to walk. Where? He didn't know. He just let his feet carry him to any destination that they wanted to go. He walked and then came to a stop when a sigh caught his eye. 'A bar. I could go for a drink right about now' Keiichi headed into the bar ready to somewhat ease the pain in his heart.
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"Knock, Knock" Tatsuha said as he knocked on his brother's bedroom door. The lights were out but he could hear the shower in the bedroom going. He also saw a figure on the bed. "Eiri?" he asked tentatively as he took a step toward the figure. "What?" Eiri responded. Tatsuha closed the door behind him and went to go join his brother on the bed. "It's kind of dark in here you know. Why don't we go out onto the balcony?" "Whatever" Tatsuha lead his brother to the glass doors covered in dark curtains behind the bed. He pulled back the curtains, opened the doors and let himself outside. Eiri joined him.
They stood in silence for a long while before Tatsuha decided to speak. "Shuichi's worried about you" he said. "I know" Eiri lowered his head to look at the ground. He was ashamed. As a parent it was ok for Shuichi to worry about the kids but he felt bad for making Shuichi worry about him. He didn't understand why this was affecting him so much. Normally he was the one keeping everything together but this time he felt so...helpless. "I don't know why I'm acting like this" Yuki heard himself say. He didn't know why but he just felt like talking. "I mean, I've dealt with difficult situations before but this..." he trailed off. "I don't get it. This has got me in this warp..." he trailed off again. "Whatever, I don't care" he reached into his pocket and pulled out his pack of cigarettes. He needed a smoke right about now. They stood in silence as Yuki smoked. Silence lingered.
"It's because... it's your son" Tatsuha said his eyes never coming in contact with his brother. "It's cuz it's your kid. Situations are different when your children are involved. You can't write because you're worried." Yuki "Ch"-ed as he finished off his cigarette. "Right about now, I could care less where he is. He can stay there for all I care" "Eiri" Tatsuha said looking at his brother. He knew Eiri didn't mean it and that it was said out of frustration, but it still wasn't nice. "Eiri, you don't mean that" Eiri pulled one more drag from the cigarette and flicked it off the balcony. "Whatever" he said as he turned around and headed back inside. "I've got more important things to do at the moment. I'm going to work" and with that Eiri crossed the bedroom and left. Making his way to his sanctuary downstairs.
Tatsuha sighed as he watched his brother leave. Sometimes the old, stubborn Eiri shows thru but only when he's extremely upset, depressed or feels completely helpless. Tatsuha was glad Shuichi hadn't heard his husband say that. That would have upset him to no end, which in turn would have upset Eiri to no end. Tatsuha sighed as he retreated back to the bedroom. Shuichi entered the room from the bedroom bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist and one on his wet hair. "Oh, Tatsuha. What are you doing in here? Where's Yuki?" he asked "He's "working"" Tatsuha said sarcastically and Shuichi sighed.' I don't know what to do.' Shuichi went back to the bathroom and closed the door.
Tatsuha sighed and left the bedroom, closing the door behind him.
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Keiichi sat in the small pub drinking the beer he had ordered an hour ago. He was so depressed. First he finds out he's in love with a guy then he realizes that he can't even be with him. It was just too much. He took another swig. He didn't want to get drunk he just needed to clear his mind. Last night he had gone to the bar also. As a matter of fact, he has gone to the bar every night this week just so he didn't have to look at him. Every night was the same. He'd go home, look at Kaoru and can't stay. He eats dinner and then goes out for a drink, drowning his sorrows. Keiichi sighed as he held the beer can in his hand. He was so happy he had gotten that fake I'd. It made things so much easier.
"Kei?" Keiichi turned around. "Soshi? Naoya? What are you two doing here?"
"We went by your house but Keisuke said you had left. So we thought we'd just come chill here." Naoya explained as he took a seat to Keiichi's left and Soshi his right. "I heard you've been doing this a lot lately" Soshi said as he ordered a beer for himself. "Hnn" was Keiichi's only response.
"Why don't you just tell him" Naoya said in a matter-of-fact tone. "It's not that easy" Keiichi responded, automatically knowing what his friend had been referring to. "He would hate me. He doesn't like gay relationships. If he did I think he'd be home right now"
"I never thought you were the gay type, Kei. Not that I care or anything, I'm just saying..." Naoya said as his drink arrived.
"Neither did I, yet here I am in love with a guy"
"Love knows no gender" Soshi said wisely.
"Hnn, apparently" Kei took another drink from the beer can. They sat in silence.
"So, are you ever going to tell him?" Keiichi looked at Naoya like he had three heads. "Are you kidding me? At least right now he's with me and talking to me. If I told him I loved him he'd probably freak out and leave" Keiichi lowered his head. "I can't risk that." Soshi and Naoya nodded. Silence fell between them again.
"Damn dude" Naoya said breaking the quiet. "You got it bad" Keiichi sighed and silently agreed.
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"Finished" Keisuke said as he looked at the screen in front of him. It had taken him only four weeks to write a book. That was damn near impossible! But he rarely left the computer. He saved his work and sat back in his chair smiling. As quick as the smile came, it faded. 'Keiichi's not here' Keisuke thought to himself. He looked at the clock. 2:13 am. Keiichi has been doing this now for the past two weeks. He'd come home, eat dinner and then leave. 'Does he have a girlfriend that he's not telling me about?' Keisuke wondered and he felt a pang of jealousy in his chest. He didn't understand why but he really didn't want Keiichi to have a girlfriend. It just bothered him. Keisuke felt his eyes fill with tears but wouldn't let them fall. 'What's wrong with me?' he thought as he pulled back up to the computer. "I need to stop thinking about him" he said aloud to himself. He shook his head and pulled up the document that was his book. Keisuke really wished Soshi were there to tell him how it came out. He sighed.
And then a light bulb went off. "Dad" he whispered aloud. He and his dad used to always go over his stories. He promised him that whenever he wrote a book, Yuki would be the first to read it. Why should things change now that he's not home? Keisuke took a deep breath and signed onto the Internet under his name. He clicked "Write" and typed in his dad's email address. He downloaded the file into the mail and with a shaky hand, clicked SEND. Keisuke's heart skipped a beat as "Your Mail has been Sent" flashed across the screen. Then he smiled. His dad's opinion was always the most important to him and he hoped that he'd like it.
Keisuke signed back off and looked at the clock. 2:32 am. He sighed again. Keiichi was still not home. He felt his eyes began to burn again and decided that it was best if he took a shower. 'It's no biggie' He thought ' I'll just tell Keiichi tomorrow' He shrugged, not really believing his words of self reassurance , and made his way to the bathroom for a nice, long, hot shower.
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Keiichi stumbled into the house. He had drunk a bit too much tonight. Normally he didn't let himself get this messed up for fear of Keisuke seeing him, but tonight his grief had over taken him and he chugged as much as he could. The sound of the water running in the bathroom told him that Keisuke was taking a shower; and for that he was grateful. He pulled his feet out of his shoes and stumbled down the hall to his bedroom; not even letting the younger male know that he was safe at home.
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Shuichi yawned as he sat up in bed. He looked to the alarm clock on the right and noticed that the numbers read 10:47 am. He also noticed that the space next to him was empty. He sighed, as he knew where his husband was. Shuichi pulled himself out of bed and walked to the bathroom to freshen up. Once he had finished, he made his way downstairs to go and retrieve his husband from his laptop.
Shuichi opened the door to his and Yuki's study and to no surprise, found his husband asleep at the laptop; his face plastered to the computer as usual. "Come on Eiri, let's go," he said as he pulled Yuki off the computer. As usual Yuki complied without a fuss and Shuichi dragged him upstairs to their bedroom and tucked him in. After he knew Eiri was safe and sound in the bed, Shuichi went downstairs to the kitchen to prepare breakfast.
Shuichi was grateful for his parents, his sister and his brother-in-law coming over to try and help, but he felt as though this was his responsibility. This was his family and it was his job to take care of them. Meiko and Kaoru's suspension has been over for a week and a half now, but Shuichi decided to let them stay home. He asked the principals to send home any work they might need so they didn't fall behind, but he wanted them to stay home. He also gave Megumi a two-week vacation. Since he was home he could take care of the laundry, the house upkeep, the dishes and anything else that needed to be done. He told Tohma that he wasn't exactly sure when he'd be back to work but his brother-in-law didn't mind. He felt it was extremely important to feel as normal as possible, and even though having Shuichi cooking, cleaning, and doing laundry wasn't really that normal, it made the house feel more like a unit. Like a family.
Ok, so Shuichi didn't prepare real breakfast for his family but it's the thought that counts. He didn't dare attempt to cook on the stove when Eiri wasn't there to "supervise" him, so he opted for the kid's favorite sandwiches. Meiko and Kaoru have been trying to be more social in the past week and a half. Shuichi had finally talked them into going for a walk together and the three of them enjoyed themselves quite a bit. Now they try to go for a walk at least every other day. There's a little bit more noise around the house but it's still quieter than normal. Occasionally you'll hear Meiko and Kaoru laughing or wrestling. They are starting to eat at the table again and they hang out in the living room a bit. Kaoru still doesn't play any of his instruments nor has he touched any of his birthday gifts. And sometimes Shuichi will walk past Keisuke's room and hear Meiko crying, but generally, everyone is making an effort to make life as normal as possible. Well, everyone except one.
While the kids seem to be trying to come out more, Eiri seems to be shutting himself off to everyone more. He locks himself in that study longer than he has ever done before; even when he has a deadline. If he's not in the study, he's upstairs sleeping. He and Shuichi argue almost every night just to get him to eat. Normally, these fights end with Shuichi crying about how he's losing too much weight and Eiri reluctantly eating because he hates to see Shu cry.
Shuichi put the peanut butter and jelly sandwich on one plate and the tuna fish on rye on the other. He walked upstairs to the first bedroom and knocked. "Come in!" Shuichi opened the door and saw his daughter sitting on the floor playing with her dolls. "Hi, daddy" she said with a smile and Shuichi's heart filled with warmth. "I've made your favorite sandwich" Shuichi announced as he closed the door behind him. "Ooooooooh, Tuna on Rye!" Meiko cried and made her way to her daddy to retrieve her food. Shuichi smiled. Meiko looked at the other sandwich in her daddy's hand. "Humph, everyone says I'm immature but Kaoru's the one who still eats PB&J sandwiches." She rolled her eyes and sat back on the floor near her dolls. Shuichi put Kaoru's sandwich on Meiko's coffee table near her couch near the TV and sat next to his daughter.
"So how's the homework coming
along? He asked, trying to make conversation. "Do you need any
help with anything?" Meiko shook her head. Shuichi smiled. "May
I join you?" Meiko nodded.
After about an hour of
playing with his daughter, he realized that he didn't give Kaoru his
sandwich yet. "Meiko, I had better get your brother his
sandwich" Shuichi said as he stood up from the floor. Meiko
followed suit. "Ok, Well I'm going to go get something to
drink. I'll get something for Kaoru too since I see you didn't get
him anything" Shuichi smiled at his daughter in thanks and they
both left the room. Meiko went downstairs to the kitchen and Shuichi
down the hall to Kaoru's room.
"Knock, Knock" Shuichi said as he let himself into his son's room. Kaoru looked up from the books he was reading and looked at Shuichi in the doorway. "Oooooh peanut butter and jelly! "He squealed and rushed to take his sandwich from his father. Shuichi walked over to his son's bed and sat down. "What are you working on?" he asked. "Homework" Kaoru answered with his mouth full. He sat next to Shuichi. Shuichi looked kind of surprised. "Wow, I never thought the day would come" Shuichi said. Kaoru smiled." Yeah well, I don't have anything better to do" he said with a shrug. "Why don't you play your instruments?" Shuichi asked and he immediately regretted it. Kaoru cast his eyes downward and just shook his head no. The door to the room opened and Meiko walked in holding a cup of juice for Kaoru and looking kind of sad. "What's wrong?" Shuichi asked. "Dad is up " she said. "What?" Shuichi said standing in surprise. "He's barely slept for an hour" Shuichi sighed. "I'd better go get him something to eat so he can at least have some energy"
"I'll do it daddy," Kaoru said standing. "You go play with Meiko, I'll get him something" Shuichi saw the determined look on his sons face and smiled. "Ok" he said and walked over to his daughter and out the room. "Come on Meiko, you can help me do the laundry" Shuichi said. "Laundry? But I thought we were going to play?" " We'll play after we do laundry. Every person should know how to do laundry" "But I don't have to learn, Megumi does our laundry. Besides, when I'm famous I'm going to have someone do my laundry for me" Shuichi snorted. "Not while you're on tour."
Kaoru watched as his daddy and sister walked down the hall. He smirked and walked downstairs to the kitchen to make something for his dad.
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Eiri sat down at his desk and sighed. He knew he hadn't slept long but once he rolled over and woke up, he couldn't fall back asleep. So he decided to go downstairs and work. Ok...attempt to work. He sighed and positioned his fingers over his laptop as the door to his study opened to reveal his "mini me". Eiri just looked at Kaoru not saying a word.
"I just thought you might want something to eat" Kaoru said as he closed the door behind him. Eiri glanced at the roast beef sandwich in his son's hand, turned back to his computer and feigned typing something important. "I'm not hungry" Kaoru sighed. He sat in the empty next to his dad's desk. "Tou-san, don't do this" He said in a serious voice. "Don't make daddy cry again. Please." Eiri stopped his typing and looked into his son's eyes. Kaoru's eyes were full of determination and sadness. Eiri grabbed the plate from him and began to eat. Kaoru smiled. They sat in silence for a while until Eiri had finished everything off his plate, in which Kaoru pulled a beer out of his back pocket and handed it to his dad with a smile. Eiri took it trying his best not to smile at how well his son knew him. Kaoru knew that if Eiri had seen the beer first, there was no way he'd eat the food.
They both sat in a comfortable silence neither saying a word, just enjoying each others company.
"Dad?"
"What?"
"Do you think he'll come home?"
"I...I don't know"
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"I miss him," Kaoru said. Eiri just sat staring at the screen. "Hnn"
"Daddy is really trying to keep everything together. I've never seen him like this before" Kaoru continued. Yuki didn't say anything, but he silently agreed. He had never seen his Shu try so hard to keep this family together. Eiri smiled to himself. "I wish you'd come out on walks with us. We really do have a lot of fun" Eiri began to concentrate on writing again. This made Kaoru chuckle. "You don't have to, I'm just saying maybe one day..." Eiri continued typing.
Kaoru stood up and hugged his dad. "I just want you to know that I love you very much and that I know Keisuke will come home soon to us. I can feel it." Kaoru latched onto his dad, not letting go. Eiri smiled. "Now if you'll excuse me" Kaoru let go. "I have to go pick out my outfit. Me, daddy and Meiko are going for a walk and I have to make sure I look my best" Kaoru swooped down kissed his dad on the cheek. Yuki laughed. He hadn't laughed in a long time. "You are so gay" he said looking at his son. Kaoru walked over to the door, opened it and smirked "Yeah right. I may look like you, but I'm not that much like you" Yuki laughed out loud as his son left the room. Kaoru always knew how to cheer him up.
Yuki was still chuckling to himself as he clicked out of the random letters he had typed just a few minutes ago and sighed online. Once he clicked his mailbox his smile fell as he noticed a letter labeled, "The Good, The Bad and The Ugly" -My book, from the email address EiriShuNum1Fan.
"Keisuke"
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Keiichi pulled his head out of the toilet as he wretched for the fourth time that morning. He really didn't mean to get that messed u last night but he had just gotten so depressed. He pulled himself off the floor, walked over to the sink and turned on the taps. He splashed some cold water onto his face and looked at himself in the mirror. He was really pale but he was pretty sure that was the last time he'd puke for the day. He brushed his teeth and headed to the kitchen.
Keisuke was cooking. "Had a rough night?" Keiichi couldn't quite place the sound in his voice but it sort of sounded like ... Jealousy? He shook his head and assumed it to the lasting effects of the alcohol. "Yeah" he mumbled. Keisuke walked up to him and looked him in the eye. Keiichi looked so pale. Keisuke's features immediately softened as he looked at the older male. He was worried. He didn't want anything to happen to Keiichi. Keiichi looked up and into Keisuke's eyes. They stayed like that for a moment. Keisuke lost in a sea of green, Keiichi lost in a sea of violet. They don't know how long they stayed that way, staring, but soon Keisuke grabbed a hold of himself and turned away blushing. ' Ok dude, get a grip. He most likely has a girlfriend. Why else would he be out all the time? Wait, why am I caring if he has a girlfriend or not?' Keisuke shook his head to rid his mind of the thoughts but blushed harder. He turned to Keiichi.
"Uh...here. I had a feeling you didn't want food so just have some aspirin and lay down, ok?" he smiled an uncomfortable smile and then returned to cooking his own breakfast. Keiichi looked down at the aspirin and the glass of water Keisuke had given him and smiled. The Gods only knew how much he loved Keisuke and judging by the look in the younger males eyes a few moments ago, Keisuke was also in love with him. Keiichi shook his head. 'That was wishful thinking' he thought to himself 'Keisuke doesn't love me back' All of a sudden he felt really depressed. He downed the aspirin and finished the glass of water. "Thanks" he said to Keisuke's back. Keisuke was afraid to turn around. Afraid that he'd get lost in that sea of green again. Keiichi couldn't take it. What was that look? He knew it meant something. He couldn't take it. He couldn't stay...
Keisuke remembered the important news he wanted to tell Keiichi. "Oh yeah, Kei I...
"I'm...going to go" Keiichi said standing and cutting Keisuke off. Keisuke turned around and looked at Keiichi horrified. He didn't even get to tell him that he had finished the book. Keiichi's heart wretched to see the look on his loves face. He rushed to the door and threw on his shoes. "Kei, wait!" Keisuke called but it was too late, Keiichi was gone. Keisuke turned around and resumed cooking his breakfast. He fought back the tears that so badly wanted to fall. 'What did I do wrong?' he thought and all the effort he had put into not crying was wasted.
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Keiichi closed the door and leaned against it. He knew Keisuke wanted to tell him something but he couldn't stay in there. Not when Keisuke kept looking at him that way. It made him want to kiss him. He closed his eyes and rested his head on the door. 'I'm sorry Keisuke.' he thought. 'But you'd just hate me if I told you I loved you. This is for the best. Forgive me' Keiichi's eyes began to sting as he began walking toward the elevator. "I need a drink"
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Shuichi sat on the couch thinking. He Meiko and Kaoru really enjoyed the walk yesterday but he wished Eiri had come. It was currently 1:58 am and Shuichi hadn't seen Eiri since that morning when he took him from his study. Eiri had barely left his study. Actually the only time they had seen him leave in the past two days was when he had to go to the bathroom. Shuichi still brought his food to him and he ate it without hesitation -he made a mental note to thank Kaoru later for whatever he had said to his dad- and seemed to be reading something. Shuichi had left him alone but he was so worried about him. It wasn't healthy to be locked up in a room reading a screen all day for two days straight.
Shuichi had had enough. He wanted an explanation out of his husband. He didn't care what it took. Shuichi stood up and stalked into his and Eiri's study. Eiri didn't even flinch as the door swung open and hit the wall. His eyes still traveled back and forth across the screen. He barely even blinked. "Eiri?" Shuichi said trying to calm his nerves. No answer. "Eiri?" No answer. "God damnit Eiri, will you answer me!" Shuichi yelled. Yuki flinched and looked at Shuichi as though noticing he had just entered the room. "What?" Shuichi sighed. "Yuki, what's up with you? Why have you been locked in here for two days? I want you...need you to talk to me. Please just say something. I can't take it anymore" Yuki turned his head back to the screen. "I have to do something. We can talk later"
"Damnit Eiri, can't you think about anyone but yourself? I'm trying to help you here. You're wasting away in front of me and I can't do anything about it because you wont let me in "Tears leaked from Shuichi's eyes." Stop being so goddamn selfish!" Eiri's lips grew thin. "Shuichi, leave me the hell alone. I don't have time for this right now." "Yuki..." "Leave me alone, Shuichi" Yuki warned.
"You know what, fuck it. I don't care anymore. I give up. Are you happy, Eiri? Fuck it!" Shuichi pulled the door open and it slammed into the wall. Eiri looked at his angered husband storm out of the room and followed out of concern.
"Where are you going?" Yuki asked.
"For a walk" Shuichi said as he pulled his jacket on.
"Shuichi, it's two in the morning. You can't go out there"
No answer.
"Shuichi!"
"I'm taking a walk, Eiri. Leave me alone!" Shuichi said turning to face his husband. He noticed his two children on the stairs. "Get in the bed now!" he said to them. He open the door and left.
"Shuichi!" Eiri called but Shuichi had already left. He sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose. He noticed Meiko and Kaoru sitting on the steps.
"Dad, is everything ok?" Meiko asked. Yuki sighed. "You heard him, go to bed . I've got things to do" and with that he turned on his heel and stalked off to his study; leaving two somber looking children in his wake.
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Keisuke sat on the couch and looked at the clock on the wall. 2:15 am. "That's it" Keisuke walked over to the door pulled on his coat and left. He hadn't seen Keiichi since the morning and now he was worried. He descended in the elevator and was soon on the streets looking for his roommate. He didn't understand why he was doing this. Keiichi was perfectly capable and old enough to take care of himself, but Keisuke had the urge to go look for him. He just had to know he was ...ok.
After about twenty minutes of wandering the streets aimlessly, Keisuke was about to go home when he noticed a familiar figure down the street. He ran to catch up with him. "Kei! Kei, wait!" Keiichi turned around as he heard his name being called. 'That voice' he thought to himself and he turned around fully. "Kei...ichi" Keisuke gasped as he leaned on his knees to catch his breath. "I was...so...worried." Keiichi smiled. 'He was worried about me ' he thought.
"I...I'm sorry" Keiichi said with a smile. Keisuke stood up straight and looked at the older male. "You're drunk" Keisuke said. Keiichi smiled "Just a little" Keisuke sighed. He didn't care if he was drunk as long as he knew he was safe. Then he felt guilty. "I...I'm sorry Kei. I don't know if I've over stayed my welcome but I'm sorry. If it's my fault you're going out every night with your girlfriend and you don't want to bring her to your apartment because of me then I'll leave."
Keiichi smiled. Keisuke looked so cute when he rambled on like that. "Our apartment"
"What?" Keisuke looked at Keiichi confused.
"Our apartment. It's our apartment. And what girlfriend? I don't have a girlfriend."
You-you don't?"
"No" Keiichi chuckled.
"Oh" Keisuke lowered his head and blushed. He looked so irresistible to Keiichi. "Um...well, if you want me to move out I'll..."
"I don't want you to go anywhere" Keiichi took a few steps towards Keisuke. Keisuke became nervous.
"Well, I'm sorry if I..."
"There's no need for you to be sorry" Keiichi moved closer. Keisuke's lips looked so tempting.
"Really if you want me to leave, I will. It is your place and I don't want to..."
Keisuke's sentence was cut short. His body went rigid. 'What?' he thought, his mind not really processing what had happened. It took awhile for him to realize that Keiichi had kissed him.
End of Chapter 10
Yay! They finally kissed! It's about DAMN time lol. I do hope you like thiss chapter and to everyone that's obsessed with how they were born, It's the next Chapter! YAY! And even better...the chapter's aready done! YAY! So it should be up in like a day or 2 ! YAY! lmao yes i know imma dork lol
Well I really wanna thank Shuuichi Shindou-Uesugi for her FANTASTIC beta work! You are a total life saver! MWA Love-U-Lots!
Well stay tuned kiddies. The end is near. Just 2 more chapters to go . Wahhhhhhhhhhhh! I'm sad! But then again there's always the sequel and then after the sequel, the trilogy lol No, I'm not joking. It's a Trilogy! This is Keisuke's fic, the next will be all about Meiko and the third will be about Kaoru! Kaoru's is gonna be humor. I love it already. Delia you are my muse I LOVE you!
Next Chapter: The Truth. We find out how the brats were born. Keisuke learns somethings. I guess lol
Until next time...
Zaijian
