Goddess: Thanks for the reviews. : P

Bakura: Why did you have to give review?

Loki: Shut up Bakura before I throw you back on the fence.

Goddess: Where did Ryou go?

Loki: Has not come in since Chapter four.

Door opens in background, Ryou walks in and falls asleep on table.

Goddess: Since I am being forced to work with two idiots and my main brain, Ryou, is down I will have to make due with this chapter.

Loki: Note: Because Bakura has problems there is a small rape scene during a flashback I will put a bold warning before it but there is a small scene nothing graphic so yeah, you have been warned.

Bakura: I did not…

Goddess smacks baseball bat and smacks Bakura: Shut Up.


"Heaven is only heaven because I am here with you and Hell will only be Hell because I am here without you. Promise me I won't be left here without you, please come home from battle." A scroll titled "Death's destruction and Lights Rebirth" Subtext to Hellhole and it is still being decrypted and translated.


Chapter 5 Memories of Home Part 1

Bakura awoke head spinning along side Malik and the others. Oh Ra. He thought rubbing his head as he looked around then kicked Malik awake. The small child called Ryou was still standing before them except his clothes had changed. He now wore a dark blue gown which seemed to be far to large for him and his hair fell loosely into his face, he looked rather uncomfortable as he held a tall golden staff with a silver moon and sun on it's peak. Jannon stood next to him and her clothes had not changed, she still wore that sundress with the torn strap.

"Come." The child said leading them through the darkness of their surroundings. Yugi did not move he seemed scared out of his mind.

"Yugi, come on." Yami asked encouraging his light to move. Yugi instead grabbed onto him and held on to him. "What's the matter with you?" Yami asked. Yugi turned and looked into his eyes.

"This is the place from before the place where I saw Ryou."

Bakura and the others stopped. The small child looked at him with concern. "Hold on to your pants we are going into one of the memories now."

----Flashback----

Everyone stood outside of a small house build from clay on the edge of the Nile. Cattle and sand surrounded the house, not the best picture but it seemed like a quiet place. Suddenly the silence of their surrounding was broken by what sounded like horses, many horses moving at once towards the house. A young woman with long white hair and crystal blue eyes stuck her head out of the window. As did two boys both looking exactly alike they were without a doubt twins. Both boys' had dark brown eyes, silky smooth white hair, lightly tanned skin and smile.

"Daddy's home!" They exclaimed running out of the house to meet the horses. In deed there were many men riding horses in this sandy plain. The boys watched for a man and when he dismounted they waited to be recognized.

A man with dark brown with deep chocolate eyes sitting evenly in his head, long white hair and many scars looked at them pleased. "I say, I know I left two sons her before I departed there around this high." He said lowing his hand to just below the boys' ears. "Have you seen them?"

The two boys looked at each other and smiled. Pointing too themselves and the man hugged them both. He was obviously a warrior of some kind and he seemed to be the chief or leader the way the men rallied around him. After the men had disported to other homes in the area it became apparent that they were alone.

The group continued to watch as morning came and the clashing of weapons could be heard from the backside of the home. When the group went to investigate they found the two boys from the night before fighting each other. But now their attire had changed. One boy wore plated pants while the other wore a skirt that ended at his knees. One of the two weapons they were using looked like the Apollo spear and the other looked like another spear like weapon.

"Come on Ryou!" The boy in pants teased. "Hit me!" He begged jumping back and landing his back not facing Ryou. Ryou looked at him with content and threw the spear high into the air and charged his brother.

"Thoth you, senseless boy I am going to kick you butt." Ryou threatened the boy as they rammed into each other. Suddenly the Apollo spear came down onto of both of them, serving Ryou's back and cutting through Thoth's stomach. Ryou simply rose himself over the Apollo spear as if fisting up and their was not even a hole where the spear had collided with his body, he also helped Thoth to his feet.

"That was not fair, you are better with a spear fight me bare handed." Thoth claimed picking up his spear from the ground. Ryou simply smiled. He was snapping his fingers. Thoth looked at him. "Don't Ryou you remember what happened last time." Ryou continued to snap his fingers until the man from the night before placed a strong hand on his shoulder and he looked up.

"Morning Daddy…" Ryou said as the malevolent smirk disappeared from his face and was replaced with a very innocent childish smile. "How did you and mother sleep?" He asked in a polite manner. The man just smiled and said something inaudible in Ryou's ear.

"No fair, Father, you shouldn't just share secrets with Ryou after all I am the oldest son." Thoth wined looking at his father and brother. Suddenly they noticed Thoth was staring at them, his eyes transfixed on them as if he could see them.

"Come on Thoth!" Ryou yelled at the top of his lungs. The boy broke his stare and headed off with his brother and father holding his brothers hand.

----Flashback End -----


"It won't be much longer until the end." A voice said from some where around them. "The great Fire Spirit which lived and inhabitant that boy's body has been let free."


The younger Ryou looked around and tipped his rod slightly so that the sun was facing down and suddenly they where incased in light. A scream pierced the silence left when the voice stopped talking. They turned and saw a village burning and people desperately trying to escape.


"There is no escape from here. Apollo deems it so that your village will fall at the hands of his living servants."

People continued to flee the burning village until they were cut off by two raging beasts in masks accompanied by two identical looking girls that shot lighting blots of Zacar. They slaughtered everyone in the entire village but their leader was nowhere to be found until they looked over and saw Ryou staring at them.

That same twisted smile was on his lips, which outlined his eyes and made his hair run flat. "Promises do die hard, I promised him I would end his suffering, so that we could meet in Hell and Ascend to Heaven together." He said and then disappearing to the light behind a picture of Ryou and Marik standing together dressed in Silver armor decorated in golden roses upon brilliantly perfectly breed Arabian horses.


As suddenly as the memories appeared they ended and they found themselves staring down a path where people where walking towards a light. Bakura and Marik looked at each other anxiously in hopes of finding their others when a sudden image appeared.

It was one word, which changed into two other words before looping around again. Predators. Slaughterers. Murderers.

The group suddenly found themselves standing in a large temple of some kind. Screaming could behead coming from almost every room in the area. Children it sounded like accompanied with a chorus of crushing bones and sizzling of flesh.

"FATHER! FATHER STOP!" A voice could be heard calling from one of the rooms. "Marik where are you?" They heard someone calling listening to each door until he kicked the one they where standing infrequent of in. Inside of the room lay a boy face up on the floor, his arms where bound behind his back and he had life-threatening burns on his chest.


Suddenly the picture faded and they were standing in a gigantic mass gave. Ryou stared down into the grave at all of the people he had murdered then to his brother.

"Was it enough for you brother?" He asked the air around him. "I know it wasn't right what happened to mom and dad but why did we have to kill them all? Tell me brother, why can't I see anymore?" ( The Ryou from his time cannont understand what blinded him.) Suddenly Ryou sensed movement in the grave, he jumped in among the human remains and found a teenager around his age still alive. Ryou pulled him out of the corpses and listened to his chest and felt it rise and fall, the boy was alive, but had severed burns on his back and chest. Ryou placed the boy on his back and jumped out of the pit. Then standing clear snapped his fingers and allowed flames to engulf the bodies. He looked over in the direction of the burned boy.

"Why in Apollo's name did I save you? You're a servant of Psyche." He asked himself as he waited for three familiar figures to come closer. One was the small child, called Ryou, another was Jannon wearing a plated blue dress, and the final person turned to two people and they were the twins. They took the boy with them despite their objections at first.


Once again they where standing in that tunnel except now they could see Ryou. He was sitting before an alter with a flame burning on it. They saw behind him stood, the boy from before, Inferno but he did not seem whole more like a spirit that was watching him. Bakura not waiting for warning or objection ran to his light. Ryou neither moved nor attempted to block out Bakura. Instead he looked into Bakura's eyes.

"Tell me," Ryou said looking at his yami. "What did you expect to find here?" Bakura did not answer. "A boy waiting to be rescued?" No response. "A light willing to return absently into the dark?" He asked in an upset tone. All Bakura could do is stare.

"You don't want to come back?" Malik asked. Ryou looked over at him and slowly shock his head. No. Bakura's heart seemed almost shatter at that simple notion. "But why?"

"Mostly because I will not go back to a life of subservience to a pacifist God." He said as a merciless look appeared on his face. "All I really want is to kill again." He said closing his eyes and turning his head to look at Inferno.

Inferno stood calm and graceful. He looked at Ryou with passionate eyes then towards Bakura and the others.

"I left you warnings all the way here." Inferno said pointing Ryou back in the direction of the flame. "The Ryou you seek is gone long forgotten in the burning fires that now surround his heart."

"WHAT! THAT IS NOT POSSIBLE!" Bakura yelled. " I know Ryou can do many things and he won't just forget himself."

"But you know nothing of the true Ryou. I bet you don't really know what happened to our mother back then or even the one we used to have? Or Amane?" He boosted.

Bakura was stumped for a moment. " I know. They died in an accident."

"What kind?"

"A fire…"

"That's right a fire, would you like to see what happened?"

"No."

"Well that's to bad because Ryou and I want to show you."

----Flashback----

"Thoth come on!" Ryou called and he left and followed Ryou and their father into the woods. Their mother still lay sleeping inside of their home; neither boy seemed to ask why their father was carrying an arrowhead and a sword with him. They continued into the forest where they ended up at the mouth of a small damp dark cave.

"Why are we here?" Ryou asked his father.

"Listen to me boy, you remember the story your mother and I used to tell you about Saint Apollo?" Their father asked. Both boys shook their heads yes. "Good. This is his weapon, The Saint Apollo's spear." He said holding the spearhead so both his sons could see. The boys still did not understand what was going on. Their father continued. "Your mother and I have lived very long lives for people of our profession and we want you to know we love you." The boys looked at each other eyes filling with dread. "I want you to be good sons now and listen to me, go into the village and take Iris, Isis, Jannon, and little Ryou out to safety, and do not come back for your mother or myself if we do not meet you here in by sun down I want you to leave understand?"

"Why?" The two boys asked almost instantly. Their father just looked at them. "Just hurry and protect them from anything that may try and hurt you."

"But-" It was too late their father was gone heading back down the mountain towards their house.

Thoth looked at Ryou; they decided they would do as their father had instructed they headed toward the houses. Ryou went one way and Thoth went another, Thoth did not see Ryou had taken the spearhead when they departed.

Thoth arrived to see the village on fire and people lying slaughtered in the streets. Then he heard a scream and ran in its direction. Then found himself staring at Jannon turned back against the wall, two men attempting to remove her dress and the younger Ryou begging them to stop. Thoth but his hands together whispered something under his breath and unleashed a massive blade made from fire. He attacked the two men slaying them almost instantly, decapitating one and stabbing the other through the chest.

"Where…" Is all Jannon could say before picking up the younger Ryou.

"Don't worry about it just follow me." He said leading them through the village back to the cave. When he arrived he found the two twin children but no sign of his brother. He talked to both twins and they said he went back for something he left at home. Thoth was now enraged by his brothers action he had defied their father and he was sure he would have to hear about it later. Having no one to protect them in the cave they had to stay with him and they made their way towards the house.

Screaming could be heard from the house. The screams sounded like both Ryou and his mothers along with constant shouting from their father. As they neared the house they saw it was surrounded by Psyche followers, you can tell because they all have tattoos on their chests. Suddenly they found themselves surrounded and without a fight they surrendered. They where taken into the house, both Ryou and their parents' door way where being blocked by shoulders. Within a few moments of being in the house they could hear Ryou scream again, the scream came from his room. Thoth had to fight hard in order to restrain himself from fighting off the guards to run to his brother's aid. Another pain enforced scream exited Ryou's room.

He could hear his father yelling. "Stop he's just a child. Take me don't do that to him." But Ryou's screams where still present.

----Interrupted----

"You know I felt more alive during this time than I ever did during my life time except when I am in battle." Ryou said taking them away from Thoth and the others for a minute. "You can ask any of them what happened to me, Isis, Iris, Jannon. They will tell you. Or you can keep watching."

----Continued----

There is Rape in this memory so skip till you see more bold letters if you do not like. Nothing nasty not even described will so it's not that bad.

They took the children into Ryou's room after they had been blindfolded and tied up. Thoth could tell they were closer to his brother now maybe they were even in the same room but he was unsure. Something filled Thoth's ears, something that made his skin crawl. It was a sound. Now just any sound that accompanied Ryou's screams but it was a low fulfilled moan that came shortly after them. Thoth began to burn through the ropes that bond his hands together, once his hands where free he removed his blindfold. When he looked in the direction of his brothers screams he froze almost paled by what he saw.

Ryou was being forced to kneel on his knees as his head was forced onto the groin of a man standing before him. The man held Ryou's face there, bunching some of Ryou's precious neatly combed hair into his hand, which he would pull on if Ryou became disobedient, and commanding him to suck. Thoth also saw a thin line of blood extending down Ryou's legs indicating sexual contact between him and another person.

"Stop this he is only a child!" Their father shouted again as Ryou was dropped to the floor after being used. Then the men who had abused Ryou walked over to him. He did not seem afraid at all. One of the men dragged Ryou across the room to be looked upon by his father. Ryou did not make eye contact with his father he looked over and saw his brother staring at him. At the sight of Thoth he began to cry even more but turn away and looked at the far wall. "Look at me son."

All right, the Rape scene is over now it was not that hard was it?

Ryou did not comply with his father's request. His father asked again but again Ryou did not comply. Until his father asked a third time and Ryou finally looked at him with regretful, tortured eyes. "Dad I…" He tried to speak but was stopped by a suddenly by a punch in the face from one of the men.

"We did not permit you to talk."

"Ryou, it's alright, I know you were worried about your mother and I but now you had to see what happened to her and then you…" His father said. "In all the wars I had fought in I was only taken prisoner once, and that was by my heart." Their father continued looking at Ryou. "Listen to me, no matter what these men say to you, your mother and I were in love…" He attempted to say more but found a knife waiting to slit his throat.

"You know…" The man who had forced Ryou into oral contact said looking at their father. " I don't know who was better your wife or your son." He said with a cold smile. "Hmm… that boy over there is your son?" He asked pointing to Thoth. No response came.

"Leave him." Ryou said again out of turn and received another punch this time to the gut.

"You will not talk unless you are spoken too. Understand?" The man said turning from Thoth to Ryou. "Or would you like me to take you again?" He asked in a lustful tone.

"Anything you want I am yours just don't hurt them. Any of them." Ryou said in a stern voice.

Thoth looked at Ryou with surprised eyes.

"You are in no place to be dealing with me…"

"You don't understand... I will kill you all." Ryou's eyes began to narrow just as they had in the ally. "You carried out acts that shamed Physce, she is allowing Apollo to destroy you all."

"Shut your mouth!" The man said tempting to strike Ryou but his hand cleared directly thorough Ryou's head.

"As I said, I am a servant to Apollo and I will use his fires to destroy you." Ryou said launching many flames from his hand. The flames smothered everything almost engulfing the entire house. "Ryou was hovering about in the center of the room as flames surrounded him burning everything except a few things. Once the flames dead out Ryou motionless on the floor as if unable to move.

"Daddy…" He said looking at the charred remains that had once been his family. "I am so sorry." He cried tearing and drifting into sleep. But know that you are gone I can finally leave this place even if I will never see again. Ryou thought to himself as he drifted into darkness.

"At least now you and I can be together without any mentioning of what happened to me, since we all survived and I don't remember a thing."

---- End----

"That was a long time ago," Ryou said looking down at the burned flesh on his fingers. "But I could not die even after several attempts. Thoth would not let go of me, that my have been my greatest mistake, allowing you to live." He said looking at the others.

"I guess you would like to see what happened to his family in this time?" Thoth asked looking at the smaller Ryou, who gave a slight nod.

"There is no need for skeletons in the closet." Another voice said as two people made there way out of the fogged surroundings. They're where three people, two teenage boys and small child no older then seven.

"Yes, Ryou tell them everything not just the sad fate of your village, tell them the fate of ours as well." This was Marik's voice just lighter as if said by a child. And the voice was of a child.

"As you wish, we will get to my sister and mother's murder later. Prince Mauve Amone Ra Iris Klaus Istar of the United Demonic Kingdom of Southeast Asia and Africa." Ryou said snapping his fingers and another memory ignited.


Goddess: --;;; So weird...Sorry for cutting it short but the memory banks are so long and it's hard for me to keep the story going.

Loki: Can't feel fingers.

Goddess: Stop crushing Loki's fingers with that hammer.

Bakura: Fine.

Goddess: Not with the ax either. (Bakura winces.) Or the chair, or the dog, or What the Fuck, put Ryou down.

Ryou (Still sleeping): Read the preview and review. Thanks. (Falls back asleep and roll to floor.)