We cannot be.
I am trapped in a life
I do not want to live.
Trapped in a love
I cannot admit.

I care for her
But love is not possible,
My heart lies elsewhere.
The unbearable façade
Is only kept because
Nobody knows.

I feel like I am
Losing myself
In a grasping quicksand
Of murky lies.
Surrounded by the
Towering, uncaring
Mountains of deceit.

Trying to balance
On a knife edge.
Stealing secret glances
Guilty kisses,
Hiding the pain
Of being torn in two.

What you see before you
Is a split person.
One side in light
The other in what is seen
As shadow.

Let me be whole.
See me as one.
I can no longer live the lie,
I love you, my shadow.