Thank you everybody for your reviews, especially SummeRith, whos majorly awesome. I will put your ideas into action, but not for a chapter or two just because i think that Seth and Summer should be relatively happy for a while before i throw them a curveball! Thank you so much! Please Review crazymack69

Holly POV:

You held his hand happily, glancing up you see Zach smiling down on you. "Whatcha lookin' at silly" you ask him with a laugh. He smiles, "The most beautiful girl here" you blush , and smile at him. You couldn't believe that this was happening it had started out to get back Marissa, you didn't think you would meet such a great guy.

"And the Homecoming King is . . . Seth Cohen" you turn your attention back to the stage, and see Seth and Summer so obviously happy. You smile, a year ago you would have been green with envy, but now. Now you knew how it felt to be in love. "Dance with me" you hear him whisper in your ear, you pull him close to you, smelling his musky cologne. Feeling his hand around your waist. You let out a deep sigh of content, you felt so safe, so loved.

Soon the song ended, Zach had left to get you something to drink when Luke approached you. "hey where's Liz" you asked. "Don't know, don't care" Luke said bluntly. " She gets on my nerves, thank god the whole plan worked out, so i dont have to talk to her anymore. Are you still going to talk to Zach, even after you succeeded in distracting him from Summer, long enough for our plan to work" He asked you earnestly. "Is that what this was" you spin around to see Zach.

"No I swear-" you start before he interupts you. "No Holly cut the crap, I can't believe you would do this to me" Zach says throwing your drinks in the trash, "And to think, I thought I loved you" he said storming off, leaving you in a confused daze.

The weekend, had passed, Zach hadn't answered your calls, you left him dozens of messages, but they were useless, he hated you. Sitting on the couch, next to Ryan and Marissa, with Summer and Seth cuddeling on the oppostite couch in the student lounge, you frowned. You were so un happy, so lonely.

"geez this plan really screwed me over" you said glumly. "What plan" Summer asked. Ryan and Marissa, shot glances at eachother before Marissa finally spoke. "Well you see Sum, your my best friend, and ryan and Seth are so close, and it really hurt us to see you apart, so we kinda. . . kinda devised a plan to get you two together. . ." a nervous look crosses her face, fearing their reaction. You smile as you think that maybe you won't be the only heartborken one. "What COOP! THAT IS SO FREAKING SWEET OF YOU!" Summer squeels engulfing Marissa in a big hug.

You scoff, not believing that they actually didn't care. "Fuck this" you mutter to yourself as you storm off. You quickly head to you locker where you had stashed a bottle of vodka, in preparation of your day. Taking a big swig you feel it burn down your throat. You slid your back down the lockerer, til you sitting in a heap on the floor, tears running down your cheeck.

"The one guy I actually care about" You shouted to no one in paticular, "Why him!" you scream, covering your sobbing face with your hands. "C'mon Hol' lets go" you hear a kind voice say and you uncover your face to see a worried Marissa holding her hands out to you. Sitting there for a moment you weighed out your options, eventually letting Marissa help you up and guide you out of the school. You kept your head down, not looking at the students you passed. Not helping notice the disgusted look on Zach's face.

Later that night you sat in your room, you were completely alone, Marissa had left hours before, and your parents were busy on a cruise. The look that he gave you was all you could see, that look left you in a state of sorrow, and complete self loathing you quickly took out a pen and paper and wrote something down before you went to teh bathroom, swallowing a bottle full of pills, with a bottle of gin, until you eventually fell into ddarkness.

Zach POV

You were sitting at your house, thinking about Holly, maybe you were wrong you thought. Your thoughts were interupted by the door bell, you answered it to find, Marissa tears running down her face, she hands you and envelope, and says "Holly" before runningback to her car.

IT was like an out of body experiance, almost in slow motion as you read the letter

Zach-

I hope that you will forgive me. For the plan, and well you know. I really came to care for you. No it was more than that, I loved you, you were the first boy i had ever loved. I guess I havn't completly recovered, or else I wouldn;t be writing in the past tense. I hope that you will remember me . . . not as 'that girl that killed herself' but as 'that girl, the girl that loved me'. I will always love you Zach, no matter what happens in your life remember that I will always be here, watching out for you, waiting for you, and loving you.

i'm sorry. . . H

A pit was left in your stomach, you couldn't believe you had caused this. You hands ran through your hair, unsure if you could live with yourself...