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It justhappened.

That's what I told her a while ago, before she walked away in tears.

And that's exactly how it was. First we were arguing – our usual activity – and then the elevator jolted, throwing us off-balance. I landed on the floor, and she wound up on top of me, and…

She was beautiful. I had to fight the urge to push back a lock of hair that had fallen into her eyes. My heart started to speed up a little, and I had to kiss her. Just one kiss.

I guess she felt the same way, because she started to lean in just as I did. I felt her lips on mine and I smiled, because it felt awesome.

Screw having just one kiss – I needed more. So I pulled her closer, running my hands through her hair. I probed gently with my tongue, and she opened her mouth, letting me in.

Then the lights came back on. The elevator started moving again. She pulled away from me and stood up as fast as she could. She tried to say something, but all she could do was stammer.

I didn't understand what was going on. We were kissing. Things were fine.

I saw her face in the reflection of the elevator doors. She looked like she was about to cry.

"Nothing happened, okay, Tony?" she told me harshly, before pressing the button. As she hurried through the open elevator doors towards the parking lot, a tear rolled down her cheek and landed on the ground.

I wanted to go after her. I really did. But I couldn't. My feet seemed rooted to the ground.

I guess it was for the best, that I didn't go after her. She needed time to just process what happened. We both did.

My hand hurts pretty badly. I mean, I did ram it into the elevator wall. I couldn't help it. I had quite possibly ruined things with Kate Todd.

I know she's scared. I am, too. But there was something there when we had kissed. Something that was worth pursuing.

I'm not an idiot. I am hugely aware of the fact that I could hurt her, that I could break her heart.

I've never really let a woman into my heart. Into my bed, maybe, but never into my heart. I've never led them on to thinking that we could have a real relationship – a relationship with love, and care, and…

I've never been that kind of guy. I've never really believed in love, either.

I know she knows that. I suspect that's part of the reason why she isn't even going to try.

I don't blame her. She doesn't want to get hurt by men – especially by me.

Still, I can't shake the feeling that this – me and Kate – could be different.

Should I go over there?

Would she even give me a chance?

Dammit, this is not like me. I am obsessing over a girl. I have never done that before.

Shit, I am dead meat if – when – Gibbs finds out about this. He'll fire my ass in a split second.

Note to self: Must not let Gibbs find out about kiss between Kate and I!

What am I going to do?

Should I go over to Kate's?

Crap, there's the doorbell.

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I told her we couldn't do this anymore.

She looked like she was about to slap me. Instead, she let out an indignant huff and slammed my door in my face.

Well, that took care of that. She even saved me the trouble of going over there.