Disclaimer: I do not own DBZ. Never have. Never will. (Pouts) Too bad. I do own the character Mushu Dragon.
A/N: I'm finally updating this ficcie. Things will start off slow, for starters, but then everything will eventually pick up. In this ficcie, I'll be inserting music lyrics in them. Mostly from Linkin Park, since it really depicts what Goku is going through.
Warnings: YAOI, SLASH, M/M PARINGS AND ALL THAT STUFF! Also there will be angst, insanity, and split personalities, with Goku that is. If you do not like, I suggest you go elsewhere. No flames.
Ratings: R
Pairings: Goku/Vegeta
Me, Myself, and I
By
Marih Dimitri
Chapter Two: Depression
Goku was laying on his bed, wide awake. Chichi had gone for the night out and Goku had prepared dinner for her for when she came back.
But, she never came back.
Goku had fallen asleep late last night. He ate his dinner alone since Goten was spending the night over at Capsule Corps. Goku chuckled to himself as his thoughts of Goten spending a lot of time with Trunks and how he was fond of the young Sayian Prince. Goku thoughts switched to those of Vegeta. For months, Goku had been secretly harboring a crush on him.
Ever since Vegeta first came to earth, Goku had instantly been drawn to him. However, Goku decided to start forming a friendship with Vegeta, though Vegeta wasn't too "eager" to start a friendship with Goku. But as time passed, Goku had opened him up, to the point that his rivalry with Goku diminished and the both of them had become best friends. Both Vegeta and Goku continued to sparred and trained together, but Goku would use the sparring sessions as an excuse to get closer to Vegeta. To touch his soft, caramelized skin, to smell his sweet scent wavering off of him and to just be near to him. Goku wasn't sure that Vegeta felt the same way about him. Goku decided not to tell him how he felt and kept their relationship into nothing more than friendship.
Goku quickly glanced to his right and saw the empty bed that Chichi had slept on. He discovered in the early morning that Chichi did came back home late at night. She had slept, snuggled up in her bed. Goku had smelled the strong scent of another man, wavering off from her. It was still lingering on the sheets of her bed. Soon, Goku perked up as he smelled the aroma of rice cooking at the kitchen along with some other foods.
"Goku! Get your ass down here!" Chichi yelled.
Goku pressed a pillow upon his head, cringing at the yelling that his wife made. Goku thought about how sweet and beautiful Chichi was when he had married her. Now, however, he cringed at the thought of even touching her, letting alone getting near to her. In his eyes, she was the most horrible women on earth...more frightful than anything he had faced in his entire life. His 'sister', Mushu, had warned him about Chichi constant late night outings with other men. Still...Goku stayed with her...for she had bore him two children that he loved dearly.
"Goku! What the hell are ya waiting for? Get your ass down here, NOW!" Chichi screamed.
Goku reluctantly lifted off the covers from him and tossed the pillow on the floor. He quickly opened up his dresser and pulled out a pair of fresh boxers and some sock. He went up to his closet and grabbed his orange gi pants, gi shirt and navy t-shirt. He also grabbed his usual black boots. After closing the closet door, Goku proceeded to go to the bathroom and closed the door. He grabbed a towel from the walk-in closet inside the bathroom and threw his clothes on the floor. He opened up his shower door and turned on the water, adjusting the temperature to his liking. He stripped off his boxers and tossed it inside the dirty laundry basket. He stepped inside the shower and let the hot, steamy water gently caress his soft, smooth skin. He grabbed a bar of soap from the side counter and started to gently scrub his toned-chest, smoothly rubbing his skin in soft, rhythmic circles. Slowly, he scrubbed down his chest to his well, cut abs, gently gliding the soapy suds on his skin. He uncurled his tail from his waist and gently scrubbed his fur with the bar of soap, carefully making sure not to damage the sensitive appendage. He glided down the soapy bar, gently scrubbing his firm legs, down to his toes, making sure to reach his sensitive area as well. Goku purred as he blissfully allowed the steamy water to wash off any excessive soap from his body, gently stroking his tail, making sure that the soapy suds had completely rinsed off from the fur. He grabbed a bottle of shampoo from the counter and poured some on his hands. He started to gently scrub his thick, black locks, purring smoothly as he felt the soapy substance gently scrubbing through every strand of hair. Goku rinsed out his hair, making sure that his thick, black locks were washed off of the soapy substance, gently draining down the tub. He grabbed a bottle of conditioner and poured some on his hand. He gently stroked his hair with the moisturizing substance, making sure that his thick, black, locks where smoothly being covered. He rinsed off the conditioner, watching the soapy moisturizer go down the drain. Goku turned off the water and stepped out of the shower. He quickly grabbed a towel that was hanging on the towel rack and started to dry himself off. He wrapped the towel around his hair and slipped on his boxers. Then he slipped on his pants, navy blue t-shirt and socks on. Goku proceeded to dry off his hair with the towel, fiercely scrubbing out any excessive water from his black locks. He took the towel off from his hair and hung the towel on the towel rack. Goku quickly slipped on his socks and his black boots. He quickly rinsed off the shower and left the bathroom, closing the door behind him.
Goku walked downstairs towards the kitchen, smelling the aroma of food permeating all around. Chichi was busy, chopping up some vegetables on the counter, placing them in a boiling pot of water. Goku silently sat down on a chair, next to the kitchen table. Chichi turned around, holding a wooden spoon on her hand and another hand on her hip, growling at Goku.
"Well, it's about time you came down here," Chichi spurned.
"I had to take a shower," Goku replied, silently seething.
"Like that will ever help. You always smell so putrid anyways. Nothing I can expect from a worthless husband," Chichi spat. Goku clutched his fist, but said nothing in reply. Chichi continued chopping up the vegetables, placing them in the pot. She slowly stirred the pot filled with vegetables, humming to herself. Goku pierced his eyes at Chichi, his face turned to a serious expression.
"So...Where were you last night?" Goku asked, never taking his eyes off from Chichi. Chichi seethed at Goku and slowly turned her face, piercing her eyes at Goku.
"It's none of your damn business! I'll go out whenever I feel like it. Not that it matters, since I refuse to waste my time with a stupid, oaf like you. I rather be out with real men inside of sitting home, cooking for your useless hide," Chichi yelled out. Goku's body shook all over, his thoughts wavering of how hard he tried to cook a meal for Chichi while she was out.
"Kill her!"
Goku instantly jumped up, looking around his surroundings. He calmed himself down and sat down on his chair. He didn't know where that voice came from, but shrugged it off, turning his attention back to Chichi.
"Goten should be coming home soon. He spent the night with Trunks at Capsule Corp," Goku said.
Chichi carefully put a lid on the boiling pot and turned down the heat temperature. She walked up to the kitchen table and sat down at a chair, looking at Goku.
"What could that brat of ours be interested in that putrid child for? Goten is just as bad as you, for he produces nothing good, in my eyes. I despise him," Chichi spurned.
Goku instantly rose from his seat, rage building up in his eyes. "Don't you Dare talk about our son like that. He's a good boy and he's growing up into a fine young man. And why do you have to pick on Trunks? He's a respectable young man," Goku yelled.
"You mean that bastard child? Humph...He's worthless just like Goten and you," Chichi smirked, folding her arms. Goku was about to slam his fist on the table, but instead, silently seethed and started to walk towards the door.
"Kill her NOW!"
Goku instantly froze, looking behind him, seeing where that voice was coming from. Seeing no one, besides Chichi sitting on the kitchen table, Goku continued walking towards the door.
"I'll be outside," Goku hastily said.
"Like I care what you're doing. Don't bother coming back, for I cooked this meal for myself. There's no need wasting precious time cooking for a worthless, sexless bastard like you," Chichi spurned, checking out her nails. Goku stood still, trying to avoid shedding tears in front of Chichi, his body shaking fiercely. He instantly rushed to the door and outside of the house, breathing in the cool breeze. Goku started to fly off, his direction going further away from his home. Soon, he arrived at the river bank, and few miles away from anything, but only on mile away from his old home, where he and his grandfather, Gohan, lived for many years. Goku looked at the cool, crisp, clean water. He slowly dipped his hand inside the river, feeling the lush current softly running through his hand. He took his hand out and slightly shivered. The river was cold this morning. Goku stood up, looking at his reflection, saddened at the hurtful words that Chichi had told him.
"You're pathetic", his sub-conscience said.
"Wha...You again! I've been hearing from you a lot lately," Goku replied, continuingly looking at his reflection.
"You should have killed her for what she said about Goten and about you!" his sub-conscience spat.
"Not this again! I need to refresh myself," Goku softly said. He stripped off all of his clothesincluding his boots and plunged into the water, shivering slightly. He swam down the river, shedding his tears in mixture of the water around him. He stood still for a few moments, his thought returning back to Vegeta. Goku desperately wanted to tell him how he felt, but he was afraid of causing panic and chaos within the Brief family. Instantly, he started to stroke his member, imagining Vegeta giving him lushful licks on his member, while he moaned out in pleasure. Goku started to pump vigorously on his member, imagining Vegeta sucking on his cock, bobbing his head, tasting his milky seed. Blissfully, Goku moaned out, pumping even more, his thoughts of thrusting into Vegeta's tight entrance, hearing his screams of pleasure ringing out his sexy throat.
"Veeeeeeeggggggeeeeeeettttttaaaaaaa..."he moaned loudly, continually pumping until his seed spilled into his hands, in which the river had already washed away.
"You want him, don't you?" his sub-conscience slyly said.
"Y-Yes," Goku lustfully said, letting go of his member. Goku dipped himself back inside the river, swimming freely, letting go of any stress. Soon, Goku re-emerged from the river and pulled himself up to the bank.
Goku expression saddened as he thought of Chichi and how she spurned about him and their son, Goten. Goku body was dripping wet, from the tip of his hair down to his toned torso, standing along the edge of the river. He sat at the edge of a rock, looking at his own reflection, depression lingering in his deep black eyes.
"You should have killed her when you had the chance," his sub-conscience spat.
"I-I can't do that. I lov...I need her...for my children," Goku reasoned.
Goku's reflection changed to his SS4 form, eyes piercing darkly at him.
"Just look at yourself. You're pathetic. Where's your pride? Where's your ambition? You should've just beaten her to a pulp for all the poison that she dared spurned out to you," his sub-conscience replied back.
"I won't allow my hand to shed blood of an innocent person. I will not do that," Goku firmly stated.
"Innocent? INNOCENT! Your hellcat wife just bashed you and she also is unfaithful. I can smell the scents of different men perfuming around her. That whore spends her time fucking men while you try to maintain a family life. Innocent you say? The only one innocent around here is you and you won't do a damn thing about this situation. Heh...that hellcat would be dead the minute she walked into that door. The hell with her," Sub-conscience smirked darkly.
"I-I can't believe what you are saying!" Goku replied, stunned, "I-I don't want to talk about this anymore." Goku stood up and dove into that crisp, cool river, swimming along the stream line.
"One day, I shall get out and kill that hellcat. No one will stand in my way...
Well, that the endchapter two. Sorry it took awhile to get this out...sigh. Anyway's, please review and I will update as soon as I can. I promise.
Here's a special thanks for all the reviewers who where kind enough to view this ficcie. Note: this are not in alphabetical order.
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