Bosco walked onto the boat. He was a little nervous about this. It'd been a while since he'd talked to Brian O'Malley.

"Long time, Bosco. About a year, right?" The older man said by way of a greeting.

"Yeah, about that," Bosco nodded.

"Sit down," Brian nodded to a chair.

"Thanks," Bosco said as he sat.

"So, what's the problem? Remember if you lie, you leave."

"I remember," Bosco nodded.

"So?"

"It's work."

"Anxiety attacks?"

"No. More like attacks of conscience."

"Go ahead," Brian nodded.

"See I've been working with this cop in Anti-Crime. Sgt. Cruz."

"Maritza. She's the one who just lost her sister."

"Yeah, how'd you know?" Bosco asked, a little confused.

"I still have friends on the force," he said.

"Right," Bosco nodded. "Anyway, she's not always on the up and up, if you know what I mean."

"I think I get your meaning. Have you talked to anyone about this? Your partner? What was her name?"

"Faith and no. She doesn't really want much to do with me right now."

"Any special reason?"

"I lied to her. I lied to her and even though she gave me every opportunity to come clean I kept lying. Then Cruz told her the truth."

"What did you lie about?"

"A witness' dying declaration. I backed Cruz up and the thing of it is I can't even tell Lieu or IAB because my name's in front of it."

"Ouch."

"To put it mildly."

"What else?"

"Last week we arrested this author Aaron Noble, have you heard of him?"

"Yeah I have. He's pretty talented. What did you arrest him for?"

"Buying drugs. He gave us names and Cruz said she'd forget what happened."

"And she didn't?" Brian guessed.

"Nope. She processed him and sent him to lock-up."

"And this bothers you?"

"Yeah, it does. There was a time when it wouldn't have but it does now."

"When wouldn't this have bothered you?"

"A few years ago."

"So before you got involved with your wife? Kim, right?"

"Right," Bosco nodded as he looked at his wedding ring. He hardly even noticed it anymore. It was just a part of him now.

"What's she like?"

"Kim?"

"Yeah."

Bosco looked up. "She is the best thing that's ever happened to me. Plain and simple. I don't know what my life would have been like these last few years without her."

"How'd you meet her?"

"She's a paramedic at the fire station across the street from the precinct. We'd known each other for a while but she'd been married to and then getting over a firefighter."

"Widowed?"

"Divorced. He liked to run around on her. The final straw was when he slept with her sister."

"And you two? You have a good marriage?"

"Kim and I are the pretty much the only relationship I haven't managed to screw up recently."

"Kids?"

"Three. Joey, who is biologically Kim's ex-husband's son, but he's mine too. Johnny, he was born on 9-11 and Amanda. We just adopted her."

"You like the family life?"

"I love it. It's strange. It used to be that I hated the thought of settling down with one woman for the rest of my life but now I can't see the rest of my life without Kim in it. I think that's why I'm here. I keep pushing people away lately and I don't want to do that with Kim. I did it last year and I think I came close to losing her. I don't want that to happen again."

"Well that's a start. Do you know why you're pushing people away?"

"I guess it's because at the moment, I really don't like myself to much."

"Why?"

"Because I backed Cruz up and she set me up and I lied to my best friend about it. I lied to her for a woman who has repeatedly tried to get me into bed."

"Tried?"

"I've got a good marriage. I'm not looking to mess that up. Cruz doesn't interest me in that way. Maybe once but now not."

"Good to hear. How does Kim feel about you working with Cruz?"

"She doesn't trust Cruz. Even before she made a pass at me Kim didn't trust her. The fact that Cruz tried anything with me just confirmed her suspicions."

"You told her."

"Yeah. I didn't want her to hear it anywhere else."

"Smart guy."

"Can't take all the credit. I knew I'd tell her but Faith made me tell her right away."

"Faith. What's she like?"

"She's patient, she's got a smart mouth, she's a mom, and though she might not think so right now, she's my best friend. She is my best friend and I think I just lost her."

"Why?"

"Because I lied. Because I was an idiot and I said incredibly hateful things to her that I didn't mean and should never have said. I guess I just wanted to make it easier for her to leave me in the dust."

"And now?"

"Now, I just want to take it all back. I'd give anything to take it back."