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(o) Yes… it was supposed to be a one-shot… but I was in the mood…

(o) I'd like to thank the reviewers… well, yet another one…

Aftermath and Early Mornings II

I always wake up early… Whether I'm in my own bed or not. I look at the clock on her cracked wall, it read 6:15. What did I tell you? I keep my gaze on the crack in her wall, then I look up to her ceiling… Damn thing looked like it was about to fall. She never gets it fixed… All she does is say she will… But she never does… Always says 'later'… Procrastinator.

A few more minutes and I'll get up. For now, I need to rest my legs… My thighs hurt like shit but another part of me felt like heaven. Thanks to her… I could never look at her… Especially after I wake up… She looks enticing… tempting… Makes we want to do it all over again… and again… and again… Damn woman…

Shit, I looked! Good thing she sleeps on her side… All I got to see was her incredibly sexy backside… See? I even find her back sexy… That's sick… that's wrong… But I can't help it… I'm a man… a man with an overactive libido… All because of her…

I don't stay… I never do… If I stay, I'm gonna stay all day… What will be left of me when we're finally done? I'll be crippled… Damn woman… damn her hot body… damn her…

I don't know what's gotten over me… I never bothered with women… They only prove to be distractions. I look at the beautiful sleeping form by my side and sigh… She's a prime example… She's a distraction… the epitome of distraction… A gorgeous distraction but a distraction, nonetheless…

Defiant, too… I heard her say an incoherent 'no' one night… I couldn't believe my ears… But I looked at her flushed face and instantly knew she was lying… Lying and scared… I must've looked ferocious… I felt sorry for her… but it's her fault… It's all her fault… Everything's her fault… I hate her…

She made me feel things I never want to feel… Rejection… I don't like that… nobody does… 'No'. I hate that word… More so when it came from her luscious strawberry-colored lips… Crazy bitch…

I've rested enough, so I got up and put my clothes back on… they were in disarray on the floor… together with her clothes… I snicker to myself… I remembered how our clothes flew last night… We were frantic… At least I was… New mission… we'll be out for five months… Five long months… without her…

Fuck that crazy blonde… always getting us into trouble… Queen? More like royal pain in the ass if you ask me… Fuck her… Yeah, well… did that already… Once. Twice. Fine… Three times… but she's trivial, everyone's trivial… Yes, that demented blonde was good… many were… But good just isn't enough anymore… Ever since she came along… Damn her… I hate her… freckin' bitch…

Why her? I wish I knew… I tried to satisfy myself with a body that wasn't hers… But instant gratification simply wasn't gratifying anymore… It had to be her… Only her… Crazy, sexy bitch…

Dare I say I love her? I don't know… I don't think I've ever been loved… so how am I supposed to know what it feels? I'm confused and I hate it… I hate her for it… Love… A simple four-letter word… simple yet complicated… Oxymoron… Love…

The last button was in place. I walk to her side with closed eyes… So childish of me… I don't care… Not anymore… I only care about her… Her… Care? I never thought I'd grow to be compassionate… I disgust myself… I feel like throwing up… I finally open my eyes, cautiously… as if the sight of her would kill me… It could, actually… My breath caught in my throat… She looked amazing, beautiful, breathtaking… I ran out of words… Damn libido for acting up again… I felt like it's completely taken over my brain… I'm such a fool… And it's all because of her… hate her…

I'm seriously loosing grip… Perfect soldier? Ha! He died a long time ago… She killed the 'Perfect soldier' in me… this is what I'm reduced to now… because of her… She broke through all my barriers… It's her fault… No, it's not... But she makes a very good scapegoat… Damn her…

God, she looked so… delicious… The red satin sheets barely covered her body, but it was enough to obscure her body from my view… I wanted to rip the sheets to shreds… So we could do it again… again and again… I sound like a perv… I'm sick, I know… I can't help it… because of her… damn her…

I clench my fist tightly when I saw what was on her nightstand… Cigarettes… stupid carcinogenic sticks… She never tires of them… They're her friends, whatever the hell that means… I find the smell intolerable, but that's not all… I do care, but I don't show it… I never show it. Those 'cancer on a stick' could kill her… I don't want that to happen… If there's going to be killing involved… it should be me doing it…

Me… I'll kill her for doing this to me…

I tore my gaze from her exquisite, sleeping form and head for the door… But before I turn the cold knob, I look, one last time… Because I wont be seeing her for the next five months… one last look… Simply beautiful… too beautiful to be real… damn her for doing this to me… I'll kill her… Yeah, like I can really do that..

I hate her… No, I don't… but I don't love her either… at least I think so… But I love her body… That I know… I love her perfect body… She must think I'm a bastard… I don't blame her… No, wait, I do… But I am a bastard… I know that myself… Damn it! Everything was fine… until she came along… Damn her… Damn everything… I hate her power over me… I hate her… stupid bitch… stupid, sexy bitch… Damn you, Rei… Damn you to hell…

AN

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