Bosco raised an eyebrow when he walked into the living room from his bedroom late one night and saw Kim lying on the couch with her bare feet braced on the wall. Her hair was splayed over a throw pillow and her arms were resting on her stomach. She was staring at nothing.

"Kim?" He ventured quietly.

"Did I wake you?" she asked without changing the focus of her gaze.

"No, not at all. You okay?"

"I just couldn't sleep. I didn't want to wake you with my tossing and turning."

"Wine?"

"What?" She finally looked at him.

"Do you want some wine?"

"Oh. Yeah. Thanks," she said as she sat up. "Thanks," she said when Bosco handed her a glass of wine and sat down next to her.

"Wanna talk about it?"

"I've just got some stuff on my mind."

"Tell me," Bosco said softly.

"Well, I was thinking about what you told me about the deal you guys offered Barnes. I keep trying to put myself in that position. What number of years would I find good enough for Melanie's life? I can't even fathom how Cruz could."

"We get the guy supplying, we have a better chance of getting it off the street all together."

"Do you think you could pick a number for Mikey's life?"

Bosco considered Kim's question for a moment and then shook his head, "I don't know."

They were quiet for a while before Kim spoke up again. "Doc's back on a bus permanently," Kim revealed.

"Wow. Really?"

"He said he missed it."

"He missed it? He missed kids killing each other over radio stations and all the other stupidity we deal with every day?"

"No."

"Okay, now I'm confused," Bosco looked at her strangely.

"When I was at the hospital before I saw Chief Rodgers."

"Okay."

"We talked for a minute and he told me that not only was Doc not being reinstated as supervisor but that he had been demoted. He didn't ask to be put back in the field."

"He lied."

"And he keeps lying. I don't know what's up with him Bosco. I really don't."

"Why do you think he was demoted?"

"I think it has to do with Eugene. He said that he was going to file a complaint against Doc. This was before he quit."

"Maybe Doc's guilt goes deeper then you think," Bosco picked up her hand and held it in his. He looked at her.

"You think all this is about Alex?"

"You felt guilty about Bobby and you weren't even the one who put him in a situation to get hurt."

"You think Doc put Alex in a situation to get hurt?"

"No," Bosco said. "I think he thinks he put Alex in that situation. He probably thinks that if he hadn't put Alex on the bus that day, she'd still be alive."

"If he hadn't put Alex on the bus that day, she could have ended up like Lt. Johnson," Kim said quietly, changing her position so that her head rested on Bosco's shoulder.

Bosco put his arm around Kim's shoulders and kissed the top of her head. "Not much better, if you ask me."

"Tell me about it."

hr

Kim smiled as she put Johnny into his bed. Joey was at Jimmy's and Amanda was asleep but Johnny had been awake when she'd gotten home and for that Kim was kinda glad. She had wanted to hold her son for a little while. She exited his bedroom and went into her own. Bosco was asleep already. He'd been yawning since they left the station house. She carefully got into bed after she changed into her pajamas. She rolled onto her stomach and rested her chin on her folded arms.

---"Doc?" She said after Carlos had gone to change and Levine had left the room.

"What's up Kim?" The older man looked at her as she sat down at the table across from him.

"Well, Bosco and I have been talking about godparents for the baby. Obviously we want people we can trust. He chose Faith as godmother."

"She's a good choice."

"I think so too," Kim smiled. "But there's still the matter of the godfather."

"Doesn't Bosco have a brother?"

"They're not all that close. We'd ask Fred but he and Bos don't get along," Kim said. "If this was a few months ago, I'd have asked Bobby."

"Of course," Doc nodded.

"But it isn't and Bosco and I have been talking and we both feel you would make an excellent choice, if you're interested."

"You want me as godfather?"

"Yes," Kim nodded. "Will you?"

"Yes, of course. I'd be honored."

Kim got up and came around the table. She hugged Doc. "Thank you," she whispered. ---

"Kim?"

Kim rolled her head towards Bosco's side of the bed. "Hey," she smiled tiredly.

"What's up?" He brushed a few strands of hair away from her face and tucked them behind her ear.

She smiled a little. That was her favorite gesture. "I'm just thinking," Kim sighed.

"Yeah?"

"Hmm," she nodded. "Did I wake you?"

"Nah. I can't really get relaxed enough to sleep," Bosco admitted as he turned so that he was on his stomach too. He mimicked Kim's position and smiled a little when he caught her grin. "So?"

"I was just thinking about when I asked Doc to be Johnny's godfather. He was so happy," Kim admitted quietly. "And now, he's just so defensive and angry about everything."

"What happened?"

"Did you hear what he did today at the scene?"

"I don't think so," Bosco shook his head.

"He ran over the guy that was shooting at Sully and Davis." She didn't give him a chance to say anything, "And I know what you're going to say. And yes, I love Sully and Davis, but there are just certain things a paramedic should not do and running over someone with a rig is one of them."

"I agree with you."

"What?" Kim looked at him.

"I think what Doc did was irresponsible. I agree with you."

"You do?"

"Yeah. Alright, I've made some dumb choices in my life when it comes to the job but Doc did something reckless and stupid. Are you gonna report him?"

"I gave him one more shot. If he screws that up, I told him that not only would I file a report, I'd make sure his certification got pulled." Kim sighed and she rolled onto her back. "Oh Bos, what am I gonna do? He's a good medic, normally. His emotions are just skewed."

"And if anyone knows how that feels," Bosco began.

"It's me," Kim finished the thought. "I did blame myself when Bobby died."

"It wasn't your fault Kimmy," Bosco said as he shifted so he could put an arm around Kim's waist.

"Maybe that's it," Kim said thoughtfully.

"What?"

"When Bobby died, I felt guilty about not being able to save him but I had you to tell me that it wasn't my fault and I had Joey and then we found out I was pregnant. Doc's alone."

"No he's not. He has you and Carlos. You guys care about him. He just won't let you care about him," Bosco said.

"Sounds familiar," Kim smirked.

"Ha, ha," Bosco said dryly. "Seriously though, just keep trying. He can't possibly be as stubborn as me."

"Oh, honey, no one is as stubborn as you. But don't worry, it's part of your charm."

"Thanks Baby."

"Anytime Sweetie," Kim smiled.