Maybe this is wrong…maybe it's just a nightmare…I hope so… "Niang(Chinese term for mother),Father…everyone…I'm sorry…but I can't break this curse…only end it…I know you said we need this family to go on, but…what's the use if all this family does is suffer…? "Stop complaining and go!" I winced and clutched my head. Even anonymous spirits are telling me to die…wait, why wince, I'm saying the same thing. I stared at the shattered piece of glass. It was already blood-stained from a cut when I grabbed it. I could care less…I stared at the moon's position. "1:00am…"3 miles in about an hour ½ … I need to go farther…out of this country…to the lifeless home in China. Haruko will go back to Japan…and everything will be as before…just someone who has been in the way will be gone. That's all. Hey? Maybe things will change over the years. Haruko can get a new best friend, who knows? Maybe Ed-Kun will be in the picture someday to. And then I can be forgotten…and consumed into the darkness like before…should get slitting my wrists soon…before Haruko wakes up.

No one would have guessed,

The pain that I felt,

The burning tears…

The painful sting of failure…

Within the darkness,

As dark red blood dripped down,

Pouring out my fears,

Dripped out with blood…made ripples in the moonlit water…

Along with my moonlit tears…

Shallowing breath,

Fading heartbeat,

Die, my fears,

Along with me…and listen…my dying fears,

Pour out with my thining blood,

And moonlit tears…

For the first time since I thought I left China for good…I cried…it hurts…so bad… I…it…burns…so this is what crying is…it's been a long time… "Haru-chan…I'm so sorry…"I let another tear drop or two roll down my moonlit skin. "Please…don't hate me…"

3:00am…about 15-20 miles are done…maybe more… "Edward Elric,take care of Haruko while she's in Germany."I whispered.I swear if that boy even lets one hair get touched I'm gonna-…no…wait…I won't be here…

I think I've walked enough…if 50 miles is enough…of course, catching that ride a few miles back are included. About 25 miles I was able to ride…which is actually kind in my eyes. It doesn't matter anymore, I'm in some forest so I mine as well finish it! I put the edge of the glass to my wrist. "Goodbye."

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Haruko found out… (since Jay-Ling isn't here in the story to narrate Haru-chan will…)

I flinched…no way she would commit suicide…I mean…seriously, it doesn't sound like her…right? I turned to the first person I could, Ed and Al…

I went to the police first to find the location…actually…burst through the door… "Please!Where's Edward and Alphonse Elric!" I took deep breaths. A man with glasses smiled. "He's at the-.Oh! And you should see my daughter Alicia! She is so adorable! Just look at her-"I cut him off with a stare…my gloves slid down my arm to reveal an alchemy circle.I pulled them back up.He looked surprised. "You know alchem- "I cut him off."Where's Edward and Alphonse Elric, I need to tell him something very important. Something that only another alchemist would understand…"I lied. Anyone would understand that my best friend committed suicide, but not many would listen…not even care. "Look,I really need to talk to them…"I put my sleeve down. "Please tell me where he is…someone's life is at stake…"The black-haired man with glasses and a beard looked at me,then at the phone on his desk. "Hughes!"We both looked at another man that looked somewhat younger than 'Hughes'.I noticed the alchemy circle on his gloves.Hughes saluted him. "Sir.This young lady would like to speak to an alchemist."His hand came in front of me.I stared at the man. "What do you want?"He asked.I gave him a cold of him not to introduce himself. "My name is Haruko.I need to know where FullMetal and his brother is.These names might ring a bell, Edward and Alphonse Elric…I need to talk to them…Roy."How I know his name,I don't know…it's like something took over me and…it doesn't matter.I'm wasting time. "How do you know my name?Hughes,any records on this girl?"Hughes began to look through some files. "If you want the answer to your question,you're never going to get it.I'm not in these files…"I gave both men cold stares. "I need Ed and Al…please…or she'll die…"Roy gave me a cold stare.Hughes gave me a super small half-smile. "The two brothers are at the Rockbells house hold."I gave a low bow to Hughes. "Thank you so much."I whispered to Hughes.I opened the door to leave but turned around.I stuck my tongue out at Roy.I just hope Jay-Ling didn't die yet.

I banged on the front door of the Rockbell house hold.Easy enough to find it. Ed talks too much sometimes. Especially giving Winrey's address.A sleepy-looking blonde girl opened the front door.Can't blame her,it's like 4:30 in the morning. "I'm sorry,I think you've got the wrong pers-" I cut her off. "Please…I need to talk to Al and Ed…please…Winrey."Her eyes got wide. "How do you…"I shook my head. "Ed talks to much,to many things come out,not enough in."She smiled. "Come in.I'll get Ed and Al."I followed her inside. "EEEEDDDDDD!AAALLLLL!SOMEONE'S HERE FOR YOU!"I covered my ears…wow,Ed was right,she is loud….Ed came out about 20minutes after Winrey called them…big baggy eyes!Haha!Never seen Ed-Kun like that.But this is no time to laugh. "Haruko?"Winrey looked at Ed. "You know her!"Ed nodded sleepily. "Yup,she's that girl Jay-Ling's friendly and (hic) it's a wreay long strory…"I kept laughing inside.HE SOUNDS FREAKIN' DRUNK! "Where's Al…?"I asked softly. "Here."He walked up. Ed was fully awake now. "What's going on?"He asked.Winrey was asleep again.I hesitated. "Jay-Ling…she's…"I showed them the letter she wrote. "What the hell is she thinking!"Ed yelled.I flinched,don't want to answer…don't really want to know… "Come on.We have to go find her!"Ed led the way. "Please Jay-San…"I whispered. "Don't do it…or please…be alive still…"

end of Haruko narrating…