I hesitated…again.I can't…do it…I can't die…I-"Waaaaahhhhhh!"My thoughts broke as I looked around for the young voice who began to cry out loud again.I released the glass from my wrist but still held it until I saw the little girl who cried.She had wide eyes with red pupils.Ragged clothes and a…red tail?She's tall? "Ummm…hi?Are you okay?"She wiped the tears from her face. "I'm sad…"I nodded. "Why is that?"I asked.A strong sense of evil surrounded me. "Because…"The girls voice became lower. "Because?"I asked nervously.The presence of evil began to sicken me. "Because…you're not dead!"The girl was no longer a girl but a demonic form,like her voice that had changed after the last sentence. She pounced on me. "Why aren't you dead yet?You should be!"I shrieked as she brought me to the ground. "I rebuke you in the Almighty!"I screamed.The demon jumped off of me and screamed. "Curse you Jay-Ling!Curse you!"With that she dissapeard.I took deep breaths…she couldn't…this has to be…o God…This gives me no choice…I have to go…now!I stared at the moon for the last time.5:59am…I've waited to long…I've lived over what I was supposed to.
Let this day,
Of blood and pain,
Of tears and death that is in vain…
Never to remain…
Never to be the same…
That's the way of me…So let this be the end,
And break the curse,
That haunts me…
Die…
(6:25)I have to end this…the glass slowly slit through my skin…through my veins…slowly through my life…light slowly dimmed the darkness…like my life slowly dimmed…next wrist.I did just as before,through the skin,veins…then,as before,blood…so warm…thick…and it would all be gone…someone will see my spirit leave my body,just like I had watched Lolo's misty spirit disappear…or maybe no one will see it…and I'll just be gone…as I had always been…
Dimming sight…fading heartbeat…shallowing breath…as once before…when I first was attacked by the curse…only difference is I'm sabotaging myself…not the curse…I sat on my knees,closed my eyes,and let the sun warm my going pale and cold body…the 6:30 morning air welcomed me.Within a couple more minutes I'll die…I hope… "Ane-San!"I opened my eyes,to dark to noticed the difference…I staggered a couple more feet into the forest…sat on my knees,closed my eyes…good-bye. "ANE-SSAAANNN!JAY-LLIIINNNGGG!WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU!"I flinched…such a loud voice…wait…that's…Haru…ko's voice…damnitt …she's…not…supposed to…follow… "Jay-Ling you dumbass fool!Where the hell are you!"Ed-Kun yelled along with Haruko.Then I heard Al. "Where do you think she is?"I shook my head.Fools…don't follow…not…me…darkness began to consume me no matter how bright the sun shone…no matter how warm the earth floor was my cold body could never feel it… "ANE-SAN!"They kept yelling…to late…it's…over…
