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When You Can't See The Light

Chapter Nine : I Just Can't Help Myself

Normal POV

Orange and Pink filled the sky as Hiei and Botan walked back to Mukuro's castle. Botan's eyes couldn't help but traveled up and down Hiei's figure. 'He's very masculine.' She blushed. 'Oh Hiei's right! Baka ferry onna!' Hiei noticed Botan having arguments with herself. She turned to see Hiei as his shoulders were going up and down, his face looking at the ground. 'Wait a minute... Is Hiei.., laughing? He's laughing at ME!'

"What's so funny?" She gave Hiei a dry look.

"Heh. YOU!" He said between chuckles. Botan was mad and embarrassed at the same time.

"Ooohh. MEN!" She materialized her oar to smack Hiei in the head. Instead, Hiei used his super speed and snatched it from her hands. He grinned. "HEY! Give it back!"

"Hn. Baka onna, make me." Botan pouched on Hiei, fighting to get the oar. Hiei seemed to have won, seeing as he was on top of her, pinning her wrists to the ground. The oar was in his hand, but then seemed to have gone somewhere during the struggle. They were dangerously close. Hiei's eyes never left her. 'She's beautiful,' Amethyst focused crimson.

"Um. Hi... ei.." She said as she felt pink tint her cheeks and turned her face, hoping he didn't notice. Botan felt his warm hand hold her chin and turn her face to his. He slowly inched closer.

"Onna..." He said her name longingly.

"Hiei..." Quietly their lips touched, each of them holding it for a few seconds. When they parted, they both blushed madly. Hiei got off her immediately.

"H.. here.." He picked up the oar and thrust it to her.

"Umm. Th.. Thank you.." She took it without looking at him. They both were silent.

"Well, it's dark, let's go." He got up and held his hand out, waiting for her. Botan wasn't sure what to do. She was so surprised Hiei had kissed her and now he was being nice.

"WELL!" He grew more impatient. She giggled and took his hand. It was warm and seemed to fit in hers perfectly. Hiei thought to himself. 'Idiot! I don't love her, I don't love her. ARGGGHH! I'm going soft.'

After they got into the room, Hiei was about to leave again.

"Wait! Hiei, you're not going to leave are you?"

"Yes, in fact I am. I'm tired and I want to sleep."

"Why don't you stay in the room?" She blushed. "It's cold out."

"Hn. Fine" He walked to the window sill and sat down. Botan went to the bathroom to change.

He stared out blankly into the window. 'Why did I kiss her? I'm such a fool.'

Hiei's POV

She came out of the bathroom looking like the goddess she was. Her hair flowed as she walked to the bed, my eyes trailed along with her. She got in bed and pulled the blanket over her. She noticed me staring and began to blush.

"Uh. Yes, Hiei?"

"Nothing!" My face felt hot. "Nothing..." I turned my face and continued looking to the window.

"Ok, then... Uh. Good Night!" She blushed, shut the light off, and covered herself with the blanket. She shuffled in the covers for a while, and then lifted blanket, only showing her mauve eyes. I noticed she was staring at me, but didn't look back. She did this for about half an hour, being annoyed I looked back.

"What?" Hiei said.

"I'm just a little, I dunno... paranoid." She sat up. "I'm afraid that the assassins got Keiko, or Shizuru, or Yukina. If they did I could never forgive myself..." She clinched onto the blanket tightly. Her exceeding kindness, once again took me by surprise. She was the real one in danger and yet she cared about the others. "Hiei?" She broke my concentration.

"Yes?"

"Have you've ever been afraid of something?"

"..." I stopped to think. "No. I fear nothing." I didn't tell anyone what I was afraid of.

"There has to be something. Part of being brave is admitting that you're scared." My brow went up in confusion. "Oh, there must be something!"

'Solitude and rejection.' Those two words popped in my mind,"Well... there is maybe one or two, things." I looked down. She patted the bed and waved her hand telling me to come over. "No."

"Come on Hiei! You have to admit your fears!" She pouted. She, dare I say it, looked... cute. Knowing it would be a long time before she gave up, regrettably, I sat on the bed. "So, tell me."

"Hn. It's nothing important."

"Fine, how about I tell you one of my fears and you'll tell me one of yours?" She looked at me with longing eyes.

"Whatever."

"Ok! Good. Now, I'm afraid of loneliness."

"Loneliness?" I looked at her quizzically, it was hard to believe we were both afraid of the same thing.

"Yeah, I mean, I'm afraid of being alone. I've been alone for as long as I could remember..." Botan trailed off as she looked into space. She snapped back. "Now you."

"Hn. Rejection." I said simply and clearly.

"Eh? Why?" She tilted her head to the side.

"The whole reason I never told Yukina was because I was afraid... afraid she would reject me. Hate me for being her brother." I had never told anyone that. It felt a little good to get it off my chest.

She smiled sincerely. "Oh Hiei. If your scared of rejection, how will you if anyone loves you?"

"..." I looked at her face. She smiled sweetly and yawned.

"Maybe we should sleep." I nodded and was going to get up, when I felt a tug on my cloak.

"Wait. Stay with me until I fall asleep."

"Why?"

"Because you make me feel... safe, please?"

"...hn."She breathed deep and let it out. She shut her eyes and I lied down next to her. When her breathing patterns became steady, I figured she was asleep. I moved to get up, but she was still holding me. I sighed and continued to lay there.

Normal POV

Kurama opened the door to Hiei's chambers. "Hey Hiei."

"Hn." He got up and Botan's hand slid off his cloak and onto the bed quietly.

"Look Hiei, I'm sorry I yelled at you." His worried look didn't leave his face.

"Hn. Baka kitsune, what made you think I was mad." Kurama smiled at him. He looked at the sleeping form of Botan.

"At least she's happy now, huh?" A smile crept on his face.

"I guess." Hiei shrugged.

"Oh I saw you two." Hiei turned at least 5 different shades of pink.

"..." He was still blushing. 'I just can't help myself...' He grunted.

"Heh. Don't worry, I think you two make a great couple."

"I thought you 'loved' her."

"I do, but she only loves me as a friend. You on the other hand seem to be madly in love with her." He chuckled.

"I am not."

"You never were a good lier." He smirked.


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