Clark's POV
Dammit, Dammit, Dammit.
That word kept echoing in my head as I walked down the street and hurried around the corner.
I felt so raw. Seeing the pain I put in Lana's eyes made me wish I had never even entered her life. I meant what I said. Making her happy is all I want no matter what the consequences. But the thought of never seeing her smile at me again makes me tempted to find some red kryptonite. At least that way my soul wouldn't feel like it was being wrenched out of me.
I placed my hand against a wall for support as I tried to get the vision of Lana's angry face out of my mind, wishing as hard as I could that I wasn't the reason she was so bitter and hurting.
I looked down at my watch and realized I was cutting it close. Alexa would be at my house in fifteen minutes.
I super speeded to the farm and went straight to my loft. I spread out my books and tried to fix up a little. For whatever reason, I was nervous and couldn't seem to sit still. I got up and made my way back to the house to wait for Alexa to arrive.
Twenty minutes later, Alexa's silver Toyota drove up the driveway to the farm. As I watched Alexa getting out of her car, I couldn't keep the look of utter disbelief out of my face. It was warm out but……..damn. She had on a short schoolgirl type skirt that came up to above mid-thigh and a button down sweater that left little to the imagination. Her leather boots came up to her knees and they left me wondering what hooker she had stolen them from on her way here.
"Hey Clark." Alexa said with a smile as she walked toward my porch.
"Uh, hi Alexa." I smiled at her slightly trying my best not to stare too much. No easy feat considering her outfit was made for people to do so. "Why don't you follow me towards my loft. I already set out my books earlier." With that I set off towards the barn with Alexa behind me. I tried to keep as much distance between us as possible until I could gain some composure. Just being around Alex made me nervous. I couldn't put my fingers on it but something about her sent out warning signals.
"Wow Clark, this place is great!" Alexa exclaimed when we got to the top. "It's so…..solitary." Alexa turned towards me with those last words, a mischievous glint her eyes. "So Clark where are your parents? I'm assuming they're not here if you didn't introduce me to them." Alexa asked staring hard into my eyes
Whoa. Why do I feel so dizzy? "Uh, they went into town but they should be back soon." I quickly added. I shook my head trying to get out some of the cobwebs that seemed to have taken up residence there. "Why don't we get started?"
I led Alexa towards the couch and sat down beside her in front of my books. "What do you seem to be having the most trouble with Alexa?" At my words Alexa started laughing. I looked at her confused. Did I say something funny? I don't remember saying anything funny. As a matter of fact I really couldn't get any of my brain to function properly.
"Tsk, tsk. Poor Clarkie. Did you honestly think this is what I came here for? My old school has already taught all of this and then some." Alexa moved closer to me and I started to feel even more disoriented.
"If that's not what you're here for then why did you say you needed help?" My voice was starting to slur and I couldn't move away from her even though I kept willing my body to do so.
Alexa laughed again and moved even closer until she had our legs touching. "Are you that naïve Clark? Or was your pathetic Lana such a cold fish that you don't know what a proposition is when you hear one?" I felt my anger flare at her words and I started to get some of my bearings back.
I started to get up but Alexa put her hands on my shoulders.
"Sit. Now." When did she get so strong? My mind was screaming out warning, warning!
What was the matter with me? Where were my powers?
I braced myself to push her away when she put her fingers to my right temple. "Relax Clark. Everything is all right. There's no danger here with me. You're safe. Just relax and listen to my voice." Out of nowhere I felt my body settle into the back of the couch. I glanced at Alexa out of the corner of my eye. She lifted one leg and swung it over my legs as she shifted until she was straddling me. The whole time she didn't relinquish her hold on my temple.
I feebly attempted to push her off. At least I thought I did. I looked down at my hands and realized they hadn't moved an inch.
"Alexa…….wh-what are you doing…..to me?" As much as my mind was screaming at me I still felt oddly at peace.
"Shhhhh, Clark. Don't worry everything is going to be fine. You and I are just going to have a little fun." Alexa grinned at me as she leaned down and nuzzled my neck.
My body tensed up at her unwanted touch. Alexa stopped and raised her head and looked at me in the eyes. She sighed and raised her other hand to my left temple.
She slowly circled her fingers on both of my temples and I felt my body relax even further. If drugs had any effect on me I was sure this was how it would feel.
"I don't understand what's taking so long. Is there more to you than meets the eye?"
Alexa bent her head toward mine and licked her away around my lips. I jumped at the contact and felt some semblance of control come back to me. What the hell was she doing to me?
Before I had a chance to throw her across the room like I wanted to, Alexa put more pressure on my temples and seemed to have a vice-like grip on my legs with her thighs.
"Hmmmm, it seems I may have to go to more drastic measures this time Clarkie." Alexa forced my head up so that it was leaning against the edge of the couch and my eyes were directly in front of hers.
"Look into my eyes and see what you're heart most desires. Look at me and see who you're heart beats for. Relax Clark. Relax and see what would make your heart sing and your soul light." Before I could even process what happened Alexa was not Alexa anymore. She was……….Lana?
"Lana? What are you………? Oh god Lana." I grabbed her by the neck and brought her lips to mine. She gave a low hum in her throat and started to rock back and forth in my lap. I felt myself start to get hard and gasped at all the wonderful sensations coursing through me. But something was wrong. When I opened my mouth and slipped my tongue inside hers I realized she didn't taste like Lana. Lana was all sweetness and cotton candy. This mouth tasted like old cigarettes and baloney.
My eyes snapped open and I was looking into the face of Alexa once again. Somewhere in between our kisses she had let go of my temples and had her arms around my neck. I felt my powers slowly building up diminishing all the haziness in my head. As much as it sickened me, I kept kissing her trying to get my powers back in full force. She seemed totally unaware at my attempts and in fact moaned into my mouth as she tried to deepen the kiss. I held back a gag and responded as best as I could.
Finally, I felt any type of control she had over me let go completely. I quickly pushed her off my lap and ran to the other side of the loft trying to keep as much distance between her and I as possible. She landed on the floor with a thud but quickly got up with a smirk on her face.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?" I asked her furiously.
Alexa's smirk turned into a self-satisfied smile. "I was only giving you what you want Clarkie. I only gave you what your heart desires most." She took a step towards me.
"Stay where you are. Don't you dare move any closer. I don't know what you did to me or tried to do but you sure as hell aren't going to get that chance again." Even with that small step I felt her hold on me again.
"Claaaaaarrrrkkk. Why are you so mad? You know you liked it. I felt your broken heart mending. I can make it all go away Clark. I can make the pain go away. I can make you happy the way you were with Lana." Alexa started inching her was toward me. "Don't fight it Clark."
"STOP IT! What are you doing to me? How are you doing this?" I kept backing up until me and Alexa were circling each other around the loft. I only had a few more feet until I reached the staircase but she was getting too close. How was she making my powers diminish this way?
I should have been ashamed to be so cautious around a girl who weighed in at about 110 pounds, but the thought of not having complete control again was scaring the sht out of me. I didn't get it. I'm usually the last one to succumb to any type of superhuman abilities….unless of course kryptonite was in some way involved.
Uhoh.
"Clarrrrrrrrrrkkkkkkkk. Why are you running? You know you enjoyed it. Come on. Let's have some fun." Alexa was taking small steps, slowly closing up the circle.
"Alexa, what's going on? Just tell me how you did that. How did you change your face like that?" I had to stall her as long as possible until I could figure something, anything to get me out of this.
Alexa stopped walking and sighed in frustration. She folded her arms over her chest and looked at me. "Oh very well. I can see I'm not going to get anything from you until you get some answers." Alexa casually walked towards the loft's window distancing herself from me once again. As she did so, it was like some unseen pressure was lifted from my head and I could think without having to strain.
"Just so you get the record straight Clark. I didn't "change" into Lana." She shuddered as if the thought disgusted her. "I merely became what you wanted to see. I became what your heart most desires. I was still me, but all you could see was your precious Lana." She said sarcastically emphasizing the word precious.
"How did you get me to see something your not? How come you don't look like her now? Why can I see you now but not before? And why Lana?" The questions were pouring out of me lightning fast. I was almost tempted to ask her why I felt so weak around her, but I didn't think it would be a good idea to admit she had that much control over me.
Alexa laughed cruelly and replied, "Okay you can't have seriously just asked me 'Why Lana?'" Alexa smile slowly disappeared as she muttered to herself, "You have to be an idiot not to see how you feel about her."
"Huh?"
Alexa looked out the window for a second and seemed to be lost in thought. She turned to me and replied "Obviously you remember the meteor shower right?"
"Wait a minute. I thought you said you just moved here." Geez, did everything have to link back to that day?
Alexa smirked at me, "Yeah, I did just move here. I just failed to mention that this wasn't the first time I lived here. I moved to New York when I was five, right before I was supposed to start elementary school."
As Alexa spoke I let my eyes wander around the room for some type of weapon I could use against her. Alexa noticed my expression and mistakenly took it for boredom.
"Listen Clark do you want to hear this or not? I'm sure we could find other ways to entertain ourselves." At her words Alexa unfolded her hands and brought them to the top button of her sweater.
My heart started to pound in panic. I had to be the only teenage male in the world that would turn down sex with an attractive woman. "Um, uh no please continue." I stuttered.
Alexa let her hands fall back to her sides, "Pity. Well," she continued, "My "powers", or whatever you want to call them, were always apart of me. I always seemed to know how to make people feel better. I always sensed just what to say to make a person smile. At as little as four years old, when my parents divorced, I knew how to make my mother laugh when she was crying. I knew just when she needed a hug or when she wanted me to tell her I loved her. Your probably thinking that comfort and love makes everyone feel better right? Well, it wasn't that simple. The words that people wanted to hear found a way to come out of my mouth. It was almost like being psychic but I couldn't just want to hear what they were thinking. I couldn't tell you who was going to win the baseball game the next day or what were the lotto numbers. At least not yet. Everything was based on a persons strongest emotion. Then the day of the meteor showers came." Alexa shivered. She seemed lost in her memories.
I should have taken the opportunity to either knock her out or leave but my hero complex wanted to understand what had happened to her, being that I was partly the cause for a dramatic change in her life.
Alexa took a deep breathe and continued, "I had been outside in my backyard playing by myself. I started to go inside the house because I knew my mother had just started to cry and was upset again because of my dad. Anyway, I was halfway across the field in my backyard when the pressure in the air changed. All of a sudden there were meteors flying past me into yards and on top of houses. A huge meteor crashed into our neighbor's house. Debris and smaller meteor rocks scattered everywhere. The blast had knocked me off my feet throwing me halfway across my backyard. I landed on stray pieces of meteor rocks, embedding them into my hands and forehead. At least that's what my mom and the doctor's told me. I was unconscious for a week and by the time I woke up they had been removed. According to the doctor's I was in surgery for hours because the meteor rocks wouldn't come out right away. They didn't think they got them all out either but there wasn't anything they could do but hope the meteors wouldn't somehow poison my blood."
No wonder I felt so funny around her. She still has faint traces of meteor rocks in her body, maybe even her blood. That's why she's able to use her power on me. This was not good.
"When I woke up everything seemed different somehow. Not to mention the fact my hands were always so warm." Alexa continued.
"My mom convinced herself it was trauma and took me home. Soon after that I started to notice that I couldn't just sense what people wanted to hear or how they felt at the time. It went further than that. My senses were practically screaming at me. I was constantly locked up in my room because I couldn't control all these emotions and thoughts that were trying to reach me from anyone who came next to me. I was only four years old and all of my previous somewhat psychic feelings had been kicked into overdrive." Alexa started to tremble slightly at the memories of her childhood. I shifted uncomfortably not really knowing what to do or say. But then again there was a good chance she already knew that.
"It was about one month later when I found out just how much I had changed. I found my mom in her bedroom sobbing with the phone in her hand. Apparently, my dad had called my mom and did what he did best. Make her feel like shit. My mom was crying so hard she didn't even notice I was in the room. I crept up behind her and for whatever reason I put my hands on her head. I whispered, 'Don't worry Noreen everything will be alright. I love you and that's all that matters. We'll get through this.' The words came out of my mouth with they're own conviction. I was just repeating everything I heard in my mom's head. My mom was fantasizing about what she most wanted to hear come out of my father's mouth. Her heart's desire. My mom turned to me and with wide open eyes said 'David?' At that point I dropped my hands and said "No mommy it's me. Alexa." My mom shook her head as if confused. When she seemed to get her bearings she turned back to me and asked me how I did that. Of course I didn't know."
Alexa took a deep breath and hugged herself again. I didn't know why she was revealing so much but I didn't stop her. She might reveal a weakness that could help me in the long run. Her power was too strong to just dismiss it.
"Mother denied to herself that I was different for a while. When mom and I went to go visit my grandparents, I used to tell my grandmother 'You know what grams? Mommy really wants a new car or Mommy hopes I don't become like her and marry young and have a baby and then be miserable for the rest of my life.' At first my grandmother yelled at my mom for telling this type of stuff to a four year old, until my mom told her she had never mentioned any of this in my presence. These little "revelations" were becoming so frequent that they couldn't just chalk it up to my being nosy and listening to her conversations with her friends. They knew it was more than that. The people in Kansas started to get suspicious when my mom enrolled me in pre-k. I was constantly telling the teacher that she should really leave her husband if he was hitting her so much. I was also telling various students that I was sure they would one day get that pony or puppy or whatever they wanted most at the time. So my mom moved us to New York to get a fresh start. She told me that my power was special and that I should never ever tell anyone about it because they might want to hurt me. She basically scared me silent. After we moved, slowly but surely, my powers strengthened and I could now control a persons emotions and thoughts as well as read their mind if I delved hard enough into it. I could make them see my face as the person they most wanted to see. For a while we were happy but my mom always loved Smallville and when her parents died at a very ripe old age she inherited the house and decided to move back now that I was old enough to know better." Alexa suddenly turned towards me and gave me a slow searching look.
"What?" I asked stupidly.
Alexa moved an inch towards me. "You know Clark I've met very few people that took me so long to penetrate their minds and emotions. Usually those few had some type of power of their own or had a very strong will. But you……….your different. It not only took me a considerable amount of time to penetrate your mind but I also can't read everything about you."
I could feel the pressure building around my head again. "Alexa stop it. Stop whatever your trying to do to me." I was going to have to make a move very soon.
Alexa smiled slyly at me. "Or what Clark? If there's one thing I do know about you Clark is that you're an honorable person. You have the world's biggest heart. Your so full of love and your so willing to share it with so many. That's all I want Clark. Your love. I just want to feel as safe as that bland Lana Lang of yours."
If Alexa didn't have such a predatory look about her I might have felt flattered but I'm sure the male black widow spider felt just as flattered right before the female ate him.
"You don't get it Alexa. I can't just turn my emotions on and off like that. Why would you want someone you barely even know to love you?" I wanted so badly to superspeed out of here. This girl obviously had a few too many screws loose.
Alexa's eyes narrowed into slits as she stepped towards me once again. "Despite what you might be thinking Clark I'm not crazy or stupid. I don't expect you to fall in love with me in an instant." Alexa's angry expression turned once again into the sly look I had come to know as her true face. "But I do expect some type of retribution for even wasting my time and coming over here." Alexa lifted her mouth into what I assumed was supposed to be a sexy smile but instead gave me chills of dread up and down my spine.
"What do you mean retribution?"
"I can make it very good for you Clark. Just think. You can make love to Lana but not have anymore of that angst crap you two go through on a daily basis."
Alexa took two large steps toward me and reached for my head. I ran around her just in time to make her miss. "I don't get it Alexa why would you want to do something so special with someone who you believe desires someone else?"
"It's just sex Clark not a marriage proposal." Alexa's eyes narrowed for a minute before she huffed in frustration. "You have so many…….doors in your head. Locked doors." Alexa's eyes suddenly brightened in interest and then she laughed out loud completely. I jumped at the sudden sound. This whole situation was nuts.
"What's so funny?" I asked her annoyed despite the fact that her laughing should be the least of my worries.
Alexa snorted in general amusement. She put her finger up as if to say 'Give me a second.' Alexa took a deep breathe and said "You're a virgin aren't you Clark?"
I felt myself blush and damned both my birth parents for letting me inherit this particular gene. "Well, I Uh-."
Alexa cut me off before I could stammer out anymore and embarrass myself further. "I guess I just didn't think a guy that looks like you do could stay a virgin for so long." Alexa's eyes widened. "Oh my god. Wait a second. Are you telling me that you and Lana go through drama on a daily basis and you two haven't even had sex yet? You poor thing! You haven't even had the pleasure of make-up sex."
I couldn't believe she could talk about something like this so nonchalantly. "Excuse me Alexa, but you seem to misunderstand what it takes to do something so special. It shouldn't be about retribution or make-up sex. It should be about taking a first step with someone you care about. Someone you can't see yourself without. Someone you love."
Alexa sighed softly and looked me in the eye. I felt the now familiar pressure building in my head. Before I realized it Alexa had moved in front of me and was now rubbing her upper body against mine. She let her hand drift down to my crotch. I recoiled in disgust but that didn't seem to bother Alexa a bit. I heard her murmuring something in my ear and I started to relax despite my brain screaming at me noooooo. I had to figure out a way to get myself out of this but how?
End of Part 4
