A few days later I had to go to my doctor cause I had missed a period. They ran some tests and when they came back in they told me they had some bad news.

They told me I was pregnant .

Chapter:2

I couldn't believe it. They must be joking. Me , I mean I, couldn't be pregnant. Could I? A lot of thoughts ran through my head when they told me the news; (1) This kid was my step-dad's.( 2) What should I do, should I love it despite the father? Should I hate it because of the father? I need help. (3.) And the last thought before my mother started talking was, Should I have an abortion, should I put it up for adoption, or should I keep it.

She looks to the sun

Help her to carry on

Braking down all the years

Wondering how she got here

She drifts through the sky

Counting the reasons why

How my life turned so fast

Remembering all of the past

My mother was telling the doctors that we need to talk and if we could be alone. As soon as the doctors left, my mother looked at me and hit me across the face. I was used to being hit so this didn't surprise me, what surprised me was that the blow came from my mother. When my face stopped throbbing I asked what in the hell that was for. My mother looked at me and said ' I bet your happy, when I was your age I got knocked up by your father, as you can see I kept you, your ruined my life. I've been living a life of regret , but when I met your step-dad I found what love means. Then you come and tell me that he's been raping you since you were twelve. Well I believed you and kicked him out. And now we've found out that you're fucking pregnant with his kid. Well guess what, there's no way in hell I'm helping you raise this kid.'

'I'm pregnant with my third child while my daughter is pregnant with her first kid, oh and here's the really funny part, we were impregnated by the same man. Well ain't that just fine and dandy.' ( my mother has a great sense of humor doesn't she?).' Well as I said before and I'll say again, there's no way in hell I'm helping you with this kid. I'll let you stay at home till your due date, but when you have the kid your on your own. I'm going to go call you step-dad now and tell him the news, maybe I can get him to come back home. Oh don't give me that sad look, you got your self into this mess, and I'm not going to get you out.' "Mother how in the fucking hell did I get myself into this mess." I yelled at her retreating back, but she didn't hear me, she was all ready out the door looking for a phone.

All the changes, and all the mistakes

Foolishly laughing at things that

Words that she says

She looks to the stars

Breaking, time to follow the heart

Her world is falling apart

When I got home I walked straight to my bedroom, only to have a knock on the door. I yell at them telling them to bugger off. But my door opens anyway to revel Alex. I tell him to come in, he walks slowly over to my bed. I pick him up and put him on my lap. I ask him what he wants. He tells me that momma and daddy told him to go away they said that they were having a grown up conversation. So he came to find me. He asked me how it went at the doctors office. I told him that in a few months I would be a mother. He asked 'just like momma?' I said 'yes, just like momma, but after I have the baby, I won't be able to see you again ok.' When I told him that he started to cry. I asked him what was wrong. He told me he doesn't want me to leave him alone with daddy. That at night daddy would come in and touch him, then he would leave saying he was going to my room. 'Please don't leave me when you have the kid please take me with you.' When he was finished talking he crying his eyes out . He asked me if daddy really came in my room when he left his. I told him 'yes, he does, he's the father of my baby, that's why mothers making me leave.' He looked at me with his sad eyes and said 'I'm sorry, I'll help you take care of your baby, please just take me with you.' I had a sudden thought "Does mother know that he comes into your room at night?' 'No I don't think she'll care.' He had a point I doubt she would care. ' I'll try to take you with me when I have my child but I doubt mother will let you come with me.' 'I don't care I wanna go with you and help you with your kid, you are keeping it right?' 'Yes I am.'

After that talk about my child we started talking about random things, I asked him how preschool was going, he asked me if I had a boyfriend. At about 8 o' clock my step-dad comes in saying dinner's ready. He tells Alex to go on down so he can talk to me alone. As soon as Alex in out of my room, he shuts the door. Just straight out He asks me if I'm keeping the baby. I ask why he wants to know, he's not going to be a part of it's life anyway. He tells me If I keep it then he could find me a place to live. I just look at him like he's crazy. "Why in the hell would you help me?" 'Well, because I think I might love you.'

And the turning of every new page

A book on a shelf that is there to remain

Breaking the walls as she's tearing them down

As she is starting to drown

Hold on a minute. "What!!!!!!!!" 'You heard me, I said I think I might love you.' "When did you think up that lame line you asshole? Since I was twelve you've treated me like I had some disease, you hit me everyday, you fucking raped me, and now you're saying that you fucking love me. Man when I was little I trusted you. When you raped me I was scared of you. Now I'm fucking pissed at you. So what, you think that if you tell me you love me, that I'll believe you and say I love you back? Realty check I fucking hate you. You fucking ruined my childhood. A girl shouldn't be scared to death of her step-father. And her step-father shouldn't try to take advantage of her, just because she's young! Did you know that every night when you would come in, I would be awake? Did you know that I tried to kill myself every night before you came in? Did you know that when you would leave I would throw up? Did you even care?" At the shocked look on his face, he hadn't known that. "I'm going to dinner now goodbye. Oh and I'm keeping My baby." ( I put emphases on MY when I said it. Maybe he would catch the hint.)

She's waiting for love

She's waiting, waiting for love

Waiting, waiting for love

She's waiting, waiting so long

I walked past him, I was so pissed at him. When I got to the dinning room, I realized dinner was finished. I walked into the kitchen to find some food, I fixed myself some chicken noodle soup. When I finished eating I went back up to my room to find him still standing in the same spot he was in before I had left . He was looking at the door. When I walked in I told him to leave and that I was going to bed. And that he wouldn't be able to raped me now that I was pregnant. He just looked at me. I could have sworn I saw a tear form. He didn't say anything to me just walked out and shut the door behind him. I changed my clothes and went to bed early for once.

She prays to the Gods

Telling how she needs someone

Help me find where I am today

Life is looking very gray

I guess I had been sleeping for a long time when I heard footsteps outside my door. I froze thinking 'oh god please don't let that be him'. The door opened slowly and I couldn't see anybody, but my floor creaked and I knew someone was coming toward me. The person stepped in the way of my window so I could see who it was in the moon light. It was Alex. I sat up and motioned for him to come sit down. When he sat down I realized that he was bleeding. There were cuts on his cheeks, and a bruise under his right eye. I asked him what happened. He told me that about an hour ago daddy came in and started to hit him. Alex told me that he was talking to him self saying stuff like 'bitch...yell at me...I'll show her... I'll kill the kid...I'll kill her...who does she think she is?' Alex told me that daddy was crazy. And he asked if he could spend the rest of the night in my room. I made room for him in my bed for him to sleep. As he was about to fall asleep he said, 'Please think about taking me with you, please, I'm scared sooner or later daddy will try to kill me.' "I will Alex go to bed now, we'll talk in the morning."

All the changes, all the mistakes

Foolishly laughing at things that

Everything that she says

My alarm clock went off at 6:30 so I could go to school (My mother set it up so when I'm not at Hogwarts I can still get educated. Most everyone from Hogwarts goes there). I woke Alex up and told him that he needed to go to preschool, and to go get ready. By 6:45 Alex came back in my room. I was already dressed and waiting for him, so we could go down to breakfast. My mother had cooked bacon and eggs, but when I sat down she served me some oatmeal. I asked why I didn't get some bacon and eggs. she told me that only people in the family get the good food. And that if I asked anymore questions she'd start charging rent till I left. I stood up and told Alex to finish eating while I waited in the car (My mother bought me one so I wouldn't have to walk). Ten minutes later Alex came to the car. I dropped him off at preschool, then made my way to ' high school'.

She's waiting for love

She's waiting, waiting for love

Waiting, waiting for love

She's waiting, waiting so long

When I park my best friend runs up to my car. I unlock the door for her to get in to talk. ( We've done this every morning since my third summer at home.) As soon as she's in the car I tell her I have something important to tell her. She told me to start talking. "Ginny, I haven't told you something. And I need to tell you it before I can tell you the big news ok?" She just looked at me. Not saying anything. Her eyes told me what she was thinking 'you kept something from me?' "Look Ginny I couldn't tell anyone, I just told my mother a few days ago ok." She nodes her head ok. "Please don't think I enjoyed what happened to me , ok here we go, when I was twelve my step-dad raped me, he would hit me every night , he still would do that till we found out something yesterday. That's what the big news is. I'm pregnant." She just looked at me, her eyes said that she didn't believe me. "I'm telling the truth my mother's going to kick me out after the birth. She said if I act like a bitch to her or my step-dad then she'll start charging me rent." Ginny hadn't said anything yet. But she was crying. She gave me a hug, and told me that everything would be alright.

I'm waiting for a new day to rise

Conversations to make sense to me and my mind

I need someone to lift me right off of my feet

And I want it, and I need it, and I'll leave it all behind

The bell rang ten minutes later. Ginny and me had all the same classes. First block English, our homework assignment was to write a poem. I had chosen to write one about abuse and rape. (Neat huh?) When we sat down at our desks our teacher walks in. The tardy bell rang a few minutes later. The teacher started calling people up to read our poems, when Draco walked in. (The Slytherin Quidditch Captain and Head boy but I don't know that yet , also my crush, he knows I like him. He stopped calling me a mud blood after his father and mother were personally killed by He- who-must-not-be-named. He says he'll go out with me when he breaks it off with Pansy Parkinson . The way too popular cheerleader captain here at this school. ) The teacher doesn't even look at him, ' You're late again Draco.' 'Yes madam.' 'Well sit down, I hope you wrote your poem.' Draco sat down next to me. I tried not to smile, but it was in vain. The teacher asked for volunteers, no one raised their hands. And of course the teacher calls me to come read first.

And all the changes I've made

And I remember the words, that you'll never say

I love writing poems and reading them so I'm not nervous of reading it to the class. I'm just scared someone will get the meaning of it. Well besides Ginny. I walk to the front of the class. The teacher tells them to quiet down. "Ok, my poem is about abuse and rape. Here we go.

'What would you do'

What would you do if everyday you where hit

What would you do if every night you were raped by your father

What would you do if you tried to tell someone everything that has happened to you

But couldn't cause your father threaten you

What would you do if your last resort to be free was suicide

What would you do if you fell asleep knowing your father hates you

What would you do if you knew no one would ever believe you

What would you do if you had a knife to your heart

What would you do if you killed yourself in the middle of the night

Well I'll tell you want I would do

I'd kill myself too

I'd cry myself to sleep every night wondering why I was treated like this.

Yes, I'd kill myself too !

"There's my poem my I sit down now?" 'Wonderful poem, yes you may sit down now. Anyone else ok then Luna please read your poem now.' As I walked back to my seat I saw tears in peoples eyes. I hadn't thought my poem was that good, obliviously my class did. When I sat down Draco looked at me funny. He pulled out a piece of parchment and wrote stuff on it and passed it to me, It read; "I loved that poem, it touched me, oh and I get the meaning of it. I'm sorry." I was shocked that someone understood it, I really hadn't expected Draco to figure it out. "Ok then, but why are you sorry?" I wrote back. It took him a few minutes to answer but he did, just like always. It said; "I'm sorry that you were hit and raped. I'm sorry that your father does that to you. I'm sorry that you tried to kill yourself. But I'm happy that it didn't work. Cause if it had then I'd really miss you. Please tell me what happened." I looked up at him. He was looking at the current person reading their poem. But I could see tears streaming down his face.

Waiting, waiting for love

She's waiting, waiting so long

She's waiting for love

She's waiting, waiting for love

" Met my at my car at 3:05 ok? Draco." That was the note that I found in my locker. I smiled despite myself. I made it through the day. At three o'clock I ran out of my 4th block class, so I could get to my locker then to Draco's car. When I get to the car, he's waiting for me. He sees me and asks me to get in so we can talk. I get in the passengers side. As soon as I get comfortable he asks me what happened. I tell him everything I had told my mother and Ginny. When I was finished telling him everything, I realized that he was crying. I didn't know what to do, I'm not used to comforting people ,cause usually I'm the one crying. I ask him why he crying. He tells me I better go home now it was getting late. He was avoiding the question, but I didn't push it. I said goodbye and walked to my car.

She's waiting for love

She's waiting, waiting for love

Waiting, waiting for love

She's waiting, waiting so long

When I got home my mother and step-dad weren't there. Alex was sitting in the living room doing his English homework. When I walked in he looked up at me and told me that momma and daddy went shopping and that I was to feed Alex and myself. I sat down to help him with his work. He asked me if I had thought about if he could come with me. I told me yes I had. (I had thought about it a lot really.) I told him that when I have my baby I would try to get custody of him.

She's waiting for love

She's waiting, waiting for love

Waiting, waiting for love

She's waiting, waiting so long

The next day at school Draco comes up to me before first block, he straight out tells me that he broke up with Pansy. I look at him, I remember him saying if they ever broke up he would go out with me, "So what?" 'Well I was wondering if you still would well want to go out with me?' I try yet again not to smile. " Why yes I would still like to go out with you. But are you sure? Remember everything I told you yesterday?" 'Yes I remember that's why I asked you.' "Now are you thinking just because I've had sex, I'll have it with you? Cause if you are thinking that then goodbye." 'No wait, please don't go, I don't think that. I told you if I ever broke it off with Pansy I'd go out with you. Well we're threw.' "But why are you two threw? You've been going out for a year?" 'I really like you. After you told me what happened I knew I was the guy for you. You need to feel loved. You need to know someone cares about you. I care about you. I was going to brake up with Pansy in a week anyway. You just helped move it along.' "Ok whatever then we need to get to class."

She looks to the sun

My junior prom (At the summer school, Hogwarts doesn't have a prom, but the theater will look just like the Great Hall and Dumbledore will be there to announce the Prom King and Queen.) was in two weeks and I still didn't have a dress. I was sure as hell my mother wouldn't buy me one so I got a job.

I started working at the local bookstore. Since I love to read about everything, (I'm very studious. I should have been put in Ravenclaw. The sorting hat had thought about it for a long time. It said I would be great in Ravenclaw, Gryffinor, and even Slytherin.) I decided that this would be a great place to work. After about five days of working at the store I finally got enough money to get myself a great dress. I called Ginny up so we can go shopping. When she comes over ten minutes later we head for my car to go to David's Bridal. (They have the best prom dresses. Besides what can I say I'm muggle born so sue me. ) But before we even reach the door my mother stops me and asks where I thought I was going. I told her to buy my prom dress. She just looked at me then said 'I'm not giving you any money for one so forget it.' "Oh I know your not giving me any money. So can I leave now?" 'Well how in the hell are you going to pay for it?' "Well Mother I have money. So bye now." 'Where in the hell did you get money?' "Well its something called a job" 'A job you got a job?' "Yes Mother I got a job you know where you work for money. Yup I have one of those so bye now." And with that we walked out the door.

David's Bridal was so crowd. I found a beautiful dress. It is red with black flowers on the chest and on the train. It's gorgeous. Ginny's dress is just like mine except It is black with red flowers. Draco is taking me and Shawn is taking Ginny. (Ginny and Shawn have been going out for three years.) By now I was about 3 weeks pregnant.

Tonight's Prom night. Ya. Sorry I'm very happy. Right now Ginny's putting up my hair, it's in a beautiful bun with strains hanging down. I have Brown curly hair, she has Flame Red straight hair. We both have Brown eyes . I'm just a little taller than her. We're pretty normal, well except me. We're not really popular, just how we like it. Ginny's been my best friend since I started going to Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. ( Well besides Harry and Ron) Ginny finished my hair right when the door bell rang. Since I knew my mother was acting like a bitch to me now I had better answer it. When I got there I found my father on the other side. He smiled at me. I asked him what he was doing here. He told me he would never miss his little girl's prom night. I smiled at him. About five minutes after my father arrived the bell rang again. And this time it was Draco and Shawn. My father starts taking pictures of Me, Draco, Ginny, and Shawn.

After a few more pictures my mother comes into the living room. She looks at me, Draco, Ginny, Shawn and lastly my father. Right when she saw him she started yelling for my step-dad. He runs into the living room looking out of breath. Followed closely by Alex. Alex saw me all dressed up and runs over to me. He tells me I look beautiful. My mother and step-father were talking very quietly by the sofa. I pick Alex up and introduce him to Draco and Shawn then to my daddy. "Alex, I'd like you to met someone special. Alex this is my daddy. Daddy this is my step-brother Alex." 'Nice to met you Alex.' ' Nice to met you sir' "Daddy I have something to tell you . Can we go outside for a minute?" 'Sure.'

I put Alex down and walked to the door with my daddy behind me. When we get outside I turn to my daddy. "Daddy I have somethings to tell you. First when I was twelve I was raped by that man in there. (when I said that he looked so pissed) second I've been hit by that same man everyday. And third I'm pregnant with his kid. Momma's going to kick me out when I give birth. And that man in there hits Alex too. So I'm going to try to get custody of him. Do you think you could help me?" (my daddy's a lawyer.) 'well baby I don't know, I'll try. So are you telling me that your mother knows that that man did this to you and she's siding with him?' "yes that exactly what I'm saying." 'God damn it.' "what daddy?" 'oh nothing. You better get your friends and go to the prom now. Bye baby I'll call you tomorrow ok?' "ok daddy I love you" 'I love you too.'

When we walked back in the room, my mother and step-father were gone. Alex was talking to Draco. Ginny and Shawn were waiting for me. I hugged my father goodbye and got into Draco's car. When we got to the theater (where are schools proms are always held at) we had about ten minutes till it started. We walk on in to find it was very crowd. Three hours into the prom and we were all quite tired .I was about to ask Draco when we were leaving cause I was getting hungry. When the Headmaster came up to the front of the Great Hall to announce who the Prom king and Queen were. Ginny and myself had entered just to see if we could win. We really didn't care. The Headmaster just started speaking. "And now to find out who the prom king and queen will be this year. And prom king goes to, Draco Malfoy. Draco please come to the front of the Great Hall." I turn to look at him. ( My boyfriend and prom date was prom-king. Ya.) He walks up to where Dumbledore was standing and some Slytherin girl puts on his crown and kisses him on the cheek. When she left he just looked at me like 'what in the hell?' The headmaster has started speaking again "Well done Draco, now on to the prom queen. This year is has been a close race. I'm sorry for all of you that didn't make it. ( I look at Ginny and say "oh well we tried" .) And the prom queen is..............."

To be continued ............................