I always hear the rain hit my window, it helps me fall asleep. It always has.

Beautiful Oh Misty Rain

How much I love to hear you just tapping away

I never realized that I couldnt pull this through. I always thought that maybe...some miracle would happen, and I'd be saved...from myself. I always hated hurting myself at night. But I had nothing else! No no no...not cutting. Burning. Burning my skin makes me feel like Im stronger. Like maybe someday I could pull through this whole mess. But I cant. Not anytime soon that is.

You will always have that one special place

Ringing, Ringing, in my heart.

I need to decide 3 things. 1) When shall I do it. 2) Where should I do it.and 3) What should I use.

Ooh Mr.Maybe, you will never know how much...

How much I need you

Holding me right now

Just as you did before

But you wont be here...because I'll be gone. Forever.

I always thought doing it at school would be a good idea. Standing in front of the whole class, and holding the gun to my head. Not hesitating to pull the trigger. And then BANG! All my pain is gone. But it would probably annoy people. Just when this whole 'shooting' thing has almost evaporated. Somebody commits suicide.

bang bang! your on the ground. bang bang!

i shot you down. bang bang!

But wait! Shouldnt I say goodbye to everybody first?...no. No need to. The whole "letters to people i love" thing is crap. I'll just say goodbye to them in person.

Oh I dont

Want to

Fall into the night

Im saying goodbye tommorrow, in the day. And killing myself tonight.

Killing me slowly